The Awakening of the Heart
By Psycho Friek

I look down
And take your hand
Your cold
Your lifeless hand.
I wish I could
Your warmth
Your spirit
In your hand.
I wish I could go back
Thank you for your 
Ever present love
I wish I'd been kinder.
You saved yourself
For me.
I laugh
For a bittersweet second
You died a virgin.
To save the life
Of the one
You wanted to loose yourself to.
So ironic.
I turn and flee,
Flee the pain
The misery of seeing you there
Dead.
Of seeing you like this.
I feel so guilty,
As if your death is my fault.
Is it?
I mean you died,
So that I could live.
In my quarters
I want to be alone.
I hsave to think.
How can I thank you?
You're dead!
I'm in your debt.
But you can't accept
My gratitude.
I sit,
I stare into empty space.
It hits me,
I know whhy I hurt so much.
I think back]
As I left Medlab
I saw Stephen smiling.
How could he?
He knows your dead
You were his friend.
He's smiling?
I thought you were friends....
And who were those men,
And women
Standing solemly in line?
They looked like Rangers
Some civis mixed in
My door
Someone's there
How long has it been
I look at my clock
An hour.
I turn,
Order it to open.
There he stands
weak
Alive?
I pale
I call him.
He staggers towards me
"How?"
I have to ask...
"They" those in line,
"Gave a little
to let me live.
Thirty of them,
Lost a portion,
So that I could be with you."
I look up, 
meet his eyes
He continues,
"Still I am weak"
He tells me.
I lead him to the couch
Comfort him, as best I can.
"Thank you,
For saving my life."
He looks at me.
Not a time to be tentative
I kiss him
Softly.
"I know you love me.
I've always known,
I'm so sorry
For being a bitch."
I kiss him again.
Gently
Waiting for him
to respond. 
"You owe me othing"
he tells me
"I wanted to
I knew the 
Consequences
They were worth it to me."
I look back at him
Having turned away.
I see his eyes
Unshed tears
I kow mine are the same.
"Marcus"
I whisper
As we cuddle
against each other
"I love you to"
He smiles
I feel it against my hair.
"Good"
he replies
"But if you ever
Die on me 
Again
I'll personally kill you!"
He quiets me
Comforts me
And once again
I am happy.
He's back
Ready to make my life
Even more like
Hell.

           But what a good hell.....