If Only

I sit and stare
Do everythign but tell.
I am afraid
Of the consequences
I half expect
her
to kill me if I do
I half expect 
her
to fall into my arms
But I do not know
Which is true,
Which is false
If only I could show her
If only she could see my heart, my love,
If only she knew that she is the one,
If only.