16 Febrary, 2000

I'm so sick of feeling bad about myself and my life.  I swear, it's like some 6-week cycle where I start out feeling all bad and suicidal, then I convince myself for a week (after about a week of feeling lame) that I shouldn't feel so bad because my mom would be really bummed if I did something stupid.  Then I feel good for about two weeks, but then start realizing that nothing is really going for me, that I won't ever be better than everyone at everything, and that I'm a slacker with no desire to become more than that.

Dude, this sucks.

A lot.