8 October, 2000

If there's one thing I hate about myself, it's my sense of failure and the resulting indecisiveness.  I hate losing and screwing up and destroying things I love and want, and I do it all the time.  I can never make a decision and stick with it and be totally happy about it.  I'm happy with everything right now, and I love what's going on in my life, but I wish I could just trust in myself more and be more solid on everything.  Ugh.