Even more alone in a world because of him

Alone totally alone,

Sitting there with friends everyone laughing and having fun expressiong emotions...

Seems like a forgotten memory now only reminded of, by the past that haunts my waking mind..

The memory of him... in his room...

The first connection like electricty running through your veins as your lips softly touch...

Life, Emotions, Safety all awakening at the same time for once you feel like you have found yourself again...

Then only to be binded in the darkness once more mere weeks later...

All this now but a memory...

Still you now sit there with someone new .. you feel like you should love him...

You know he loves you... but again Emptyness ...

Only one person in that room knows what you feel...

What you TRULY feel... she sits watching, smiling and been happy...

But like yourself its only ever usually a mask hiding the secrets of your life.