Notes: This is from Tomoyo�s point of view. The song lyrics are in italics
I still remember the night we met
You said you loved my smile
I�ve known Sakura for so long. I can�t imagine what my world would be like without her. Somehow I always imagined we�d be together forever. I love her very much and I hope she understands that. I�ve told her a thousand times in the way I look at her, the things I say to her, the things I do for her and the way I smile. She�s always loved my smile.
But your love for me was like a summer breeze
Oh it lasted for a while
We went through so much together as she fought to save the world from disaster. I was always there by her side � cheering her on. I cherish every moment I�ve spent in her presence. It�s a shame that videotape can�t always capture it all, but I remember. I could never forget � the thrill of being near Sakura just for a few moments is enough to last a lifetime. It is enough for me just to have those memories. At least I can keep telling myself that. I know a part of her will always love me even if she never says it. We are best friends and we can never lose that special bond. It�s hard for me to admit that it will never grow into more than that.
I could hold on a little tighter I know
But when you love someone
You gotta let em go
I know she loves Shaolan and I don�t want to stand in her way. I want her to be happy more than anything else and I know they belong together. Sakura promises me that we will never lose touch and I believe her. I would follow her to the ends of the earth to make sure of it. I will always be the one she can come to when she needs a friend. Her friendship means so much to me that I can push aside my broken heart so she won�t see the tears.
So I�m gonna smile
Cause I wanna make you happy
Laugh so you can�t see me cry
I�m gonna let you go in style
And even if it kills me
I�m gonna smile
I smile when I see them together. I can�t help it. Making Sakura happy matters more to me than any ache in my own soul. I can shed my tears alone in the darkness, but I can never let Sakura see. Mine are tears of emptiness and loneliness, but not sadness. I am happy for Sakura and I smile so that she will know this. I want nothing more than to make Sakura happy and I don�t think could live with myself if I was ever responsible for a single tear on her beautiful cheek. I know that if I told her how much I loved her she would have to make a horrible choice and I�m not sure I could live with her decision. It�s better this way. I can hold it inside and she can go on with her life.
Kiss me once for the good times baby
Kiss me twice for goodbye
I stand before her now not sure what to do. I must say goodbye and let go of all my hopes and dreams. It�s just another day to her. We will see each other tomorrow at school she reminds me as I struggle with the word goodbye. My voice cracks and shakes a little. Yes. I know I say, but my thoughts echo with the words it will never be the same. I blink back tears and hope she doesn�t notice. This is the hardest thing I�ve ever had to do, but I know I have to do it for her. Everything I do is for her. As she turns away a sudden impulse hits me and I shout �SAKURA!� She turns around and looks at me puzzled. I run to her and throw my arms around her hugging her tightly. She returns the hug as I whisper in her ear �thanks for everything� Sakura pauses for a moment as our eyes meet. I try to hide my sadness, but I see my reflection in her sparkling eyes. For a moment I wonder if she understands as she kisses me softly on the cheek. �Goodbye Tomoyo� I�ll see you in school.� Two hands part and mine remains outstretched reaching for something I can never have.
You can�t help how you don�t feel
And it doesn�t matter why
Give me a chance to bow out gracefully
Cause that�s how I want you to remember me
I watch her walk away and let out a deep breath I didn�t realize I was holding in. This is for the best, I remind myself. We will always be friends and I will always be hers even if she can�t be mine.
I�m gonna smile
Cause I wanna make you happy
Laugh so you can�t see me cry
I�m gonna let you go in style
And Even if it kills me
I�m gonna smile
At the end of the street she turns around. At first I am embarrassed that I am still standing there, but my patience earns me a precious gift as Sakura smiles brightly and waves at me before turning around and rushing home. I smile and return the wave. The image will stay with me always as an unspoken acceptance of my hidden promise to her. I will always love you, but you must find your own love. Go and be happy Sakura. You deserve it more than anyone else in this world. More than me.
I�m gonna smile
So you can find the courage
Laugh so you won�t see me hurting
I�m gonna let you go in style
And even if it kills me
I�m gonna smile
Please ignore the tears on my cheeks because I am smiling.