The Breaking Point Year

The Awakening... (With forced stability.)

Fear attaches to fear, love attaches to love.
Once you experience true, unconditional love, you’ll never want to lose it.

2012.01.31

The truth within lies with understanding, not with knowledge.
It has been setting people free, and it will continue to.  And all error has and will continue to be put where it belongs.  Eventually things get better as they always do throughout history.

How many faiths see the ‘rapture,’ on Coast To Coast AM

More evidence of “Earth passing through the fifth dimension”?
The guest says the internet is leaning us toward the end of the dictator mentality.  And past the end of 2012 we’ll have more access to our guardian angels, etc. after getting past the fear, past the end of the Mayan calendar cycle, so forth.

Alex Jones and everyone involved with Freedom to Fascism are on the DHS watch list.  And speaking of Ron Paul supporters, the guest said Paul would win against Obama if given the nomination, that Democrats don’t like the fact that the admin. started more wars.

Also: Mutual Disconnection 2.0: feed dependency — people, even couples, sitting across from each other, just texting, not looking or conversing verbally.  A sick culture that is.

“We’re not evil”: Google, other Cos. giving up personal info on Voice/Gmail accounts, for one.  But only when asked, so don’t mind the violation of your Fourth Amendment rights.
Guest had cancer, beat it by becoming “superhuman,” getting conventional and natural treatments.

Material doesn’t make you free, the ability to move does.

It matters most how close one is to an original source.  What you want to be true vs. what is.
Information, traveling does have its own life force.  This is true.  The Word is a god.  Bad news: for the fictional, horror movies that you’d think aren’t real, some of them are plausible without the protection of God.  Competing information continues to leak in, maybe since the tree of knowledge was used (Genesis), however that really happened.

Light spilling out of electronics: the DVD player’s display keeps remaining on despite the device being off.  Some things you shouldn’t look.  Oh, insecurity... Appreciate the little quirks, good and bad.  Keep reading.  The accurate truth shall set you free in more ways than you know.

It has been said that Christ said that the hour of three in the morning is the hour of the dead.  3:56 AM.

Mercy in general: the channelling of information, information relative.  Information discipline carries you where you need to go.  And it’s not a one-way street.  Where you are matters, just as whether you are moving, and what you believe — the fewer bad beliefs, the better, but take your time (don’t rush things).

Demonic: to go through unusual patterns that, later on, don’t make true, sense, in so many practiced ways wrong — patterns that only make things darker.  And with selfish accord...  False-originality, and in my case, bad timing.

Off subject: for the disordered, such as me, there is a time to lie—prefeably behind closed doors.  Not to mislead others, but make sense of things, get everything out in the open.  There ought to be another person there anyway.  Be sure to patch things up afterward in that case.

I no longer listen to conservative talk radio... mostly pol. dribble, no longer ‘truth-seeking,’ if ever.  The truth is to be revealed, not opinion.

2012.01.29-30

Aerials, in the sky; when you lose small mind you free your life.  Aerials, so up high; when you free your eyes, eternal prize.

Faith in God means trusting Him, and acting when it dawns on you

Be grateful for that God’s mercy allows you to be alone with less chance of death when getting back to him.  All children of the Father...

2012.01.29

Opportunism, the wrong reason: bad soul separates from God.

The vision that came to me in that dream set me on a course to find an answer.  The answer found me in reading the book of John.  It dawned, the light cast down, and all other things proverbial as I’ve gone too far to actually see any major vision.  But it’s there, the answer.

Christ Jesus, according to John, 12:24-25: Most truly I say to you (Andrew and Philip), Unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains just one [grain]; but if it dies, it then bears much fruit.  He that is fond of his soul destroys it, but he that hates his soul in this world will safeguard it for everlasting life.

Sparing Bearing my soul in this follow-up, here’s the big block of text, as-is, (nearly) unedited: answers to oneness, to maximal life, within.

And many use Google as ‘their brain.’

4PM: The world-wide trend of phone theft has risen—criminals, gang members, whomever just—well, not just theft, but robbery—taking the phone via threat.

Spo

C. Chase: Novak Djokovic beats Rafael Nadal in longest Grand Slam final in history, with a record setting 5-7, 6-4, 6-2, 6-7(5), 7-5 victory in the Aus. Open Final.  Four set victory when he held a 40-0 lead on Nadal’s serve at 4-4 in the fourth set.  Grand Slam possibility?  Djokovic rests.  We made history tonight.

2012.01.28

God: anti-chaos theory.

Yahoo/H. H. Wario: “Father,” “Son” removed in new Bible translations by Wycliffe Bible, SIL and Frontiers into Arabic and Turkish, as deemed offensive to Muslims.  Beyond inaccurate: God is replaced with “Allah.”  SIL says they were ‘inspired’ to alter the words, while a Turkish leader says this is not right, as “all-American idea,” with absolutely no respect for the ‘sacredness’ of Scripture.

Reuters: Arab League suspends Syria mission as violence rages; 34 dead.  AFP: Syria opposition seeks UN Security Council protection, urge Russian embassy protest, Kurds want referendum after eventual fall of Assad.  AP: Gulf-backed activists stormed Cairo embassy.  Iran involved, say protesters...AFP: Iran students meet Israel opposition head Livni.

Neutral, if only...

Student orders used Understanding Terrorism textbook on Amazon, gets $400-worth bag of Schedule II cocaine as a bonus, reporting it because she thought it was anthrax.

6th armed robbery of the month raises alarms: gunman terrorizing store workers in robbery string could be the same person responsible for the Thu .Deering Center convenience store holdup, police said.

C2C: Bush/Obama unconstitutionality, in law.

Maybe the best awesomely-bad movie of all time!

Tales of an Ancient Empire: unintentionally funny D-movie— well, sometimes intentionally funny/campy/flatulency (yes, there is a fart).  The “making of” is uncontrollably funny: people standing around, exciting, rolling background music...actors, camera-man still standing around.  Super-amateur hour: one of the actors says writing is easy— after “30 years” of a career, the director is quick.  “Evil” moments end up cute and adorable.  The movie’s too mild for the R rating it got.  It stars Kevin Sorbo, and a great deal of the ‘scenes’ were done green-screen.  It’s worth the time (laughing).

Obit

Robert Hayges, 60, of Welcome Back Kotter (1978, played Juan Epstein), died of apparent heart attack yesterday.  He was a puppeteer in the children’s educational theater group “Theater in a Trunk”, also playing detective Manny Esposito in Cagney & Lacey, and went on to teach writing, acting and public speaking.  John Travolta is godfather to his children.

Actress Dimitra Arliss, 79, of complications from a stroke.  Credits include Indians, Xanadu, The Sting (1973), Firefox, Dallas, Quincy M.E., and Rich Man, Poor Man.

2012.01.27

Practice indeed makes perfect.  Remain high-headed and high-hearted.

There’s no denying it: the chem-trail project is conspiracy fact.  It’s horrible, and it needs to be dealt with.
Causing nose bleeds—in the air, black spots on the trees, birds dying, harder lightning (according to witness).  Alterations of electrical properties in the atmosphere—all of the EM and chem. pollution is becoming a wholly destructive force.  The ignorance, corruption, pollution need to be dealt with; whole populations of animals are being killed off.  This is bad.  Real bad.  How people can see affected, skin damage— a naïve attempt to curb “global warming”?  Only to promote it and other things?  Lasting for hours, the artificial clouds are still there, says the sub. host on Coast To Coast AM.  Playing god, this is.  There are no holes being filled in this picture.  The CDC has even addressed something on this.  Mass-modification, blind control, national, perhaps international—this detestable practice must be carefully stopped.

Movie

Courage (Kendrick Bros.) is decent.  Maybe incomplete (my opinion), but very decent.

2012.01.26

Know what’s true in your heart before you go blurtin’ stupid stuff out, like me.
Idolatry is a killer—blind agreement passes illness on.  Literal illness.

Anniversary rallies spread across Egypt; some protesters show that they’ve sided with the Muslim Brotherhood, but doubts remain in terms of strength against the military force.  We all know even if the Brotherhood are strong, the military council is still stronger, said S. A. Mohsen, who clarified, What we all want is an end to military rule.  Photo: a masked demonstrator [Guy Fawkes mask, as seen in V for Vendetta] holds a spray can Wed. in Giza, Egypt.

Rome official: finding survivor on ship would take a ‘miracle’; 16 bodies recovered, w/ 17 still unaccounted for.

The Associated Press, Mogadishu: Hostages Jess Buchanan, 32, and Dane P. Hagen, 60, rescued from Somali pirates; nighttime raid conducted by SEAL Team six (that killed UBL).  Commandos slipped into encampment, killed nine captors.  Bile Hussein, who who claimed to be associated with the pirates, said, over the phone to the AP, that three were “taken away,” sleeping over chewing the narcotic leaf gat.  Obama to Panetta: Good job tonight.  The operation was 60-90 min., and included armed resistance (firefight).

Same-sex marriage referendum campaign had ‘devastating,’ lasting effects on Maine congregations, according to William H. Slavick.  U.S. bishops and clergy, including here, have been supinely uncritical in imposing flawed, sexist, often unprovable translations that substitute rote conformity to an undistinguished Latin text for accessibility and decent English prose.

Coast To Coast AM: Spirits of those deceased (or other) visible in photos, and reincarnation proved by many cases of identicality, birth-marks for scars.

Vibrational relativity, flesh to spirit (not to be confused with soul)—all things existence is easier to understand once you get the core basics.  It is in Revelation that the threshold will be raised for a painless paradise, constantly lit by God.

Better souls, worse souls

Part of the error correction process is putting the bad in the past.
(To) Titus (from Paul), 1:15: All things are clean to clean [persons].  But to [persons] defiled and faithless nothing is clean, but both their minds and their consciences are defiled.  They publicly declare they know God, but they disown him by their works, because they are detestable and disobedient and not approved for good work of any sort.  [2:1] You (Titus), however, keep on speaking what things are fitting for healthful teaching. ...

Second to Timothy, 3:1: But know this, that in the last days critical times hard to deal with will be here.  For men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, self- assuming, haughty, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, disloyal, having no natural affection, not open to any agreement, slanderers, without self-control, fierce, without love of goodness, betrayers, headstrong, puffed up [with pride], lovers of pleasure rather than of God, having a form of godly devotion but proving false to its power; and from these turn away.  For from these arise those men who slyly work their way into households and lead as their captives weak women loaded down with sins, led by various desires, always learning and yet never able to come to an accurate knowledge of truth.  Now in the way that Jan'nes and Jam'bres resisted Moses, so these also go on resisting the truth, men completely corrupted in mind, disapproved as regards the faith.  Nevertheless, they will make no further progress, for their madness will be very plain to all, even as the [madness] of these [two men] became.  But you (Timothy) have closely followed my teaching, may course of life, my purpose, my faith, my long-suffering, my love, my endurance...

Not going to get into that

TANK McNAMARA®: nominations on “Sports Jerk of the Year” open Friday; Penn State tragedy victims (or any figures) will not be considered.

Ron Paul to speak at Colby (in Waterville) on Fri., visit Gorham Sat.

2012.01.25

Self-reflections.  In the grand scheme of things, flaws are qualities.
Be honest in heart in mind, be respectful of natural bounds, and never blindly accept false idols.  Do not bow down to me; pray to your true God (Jehovah [Yahweh], in Israel, if you’re Christian), Christ (human soul savior).  Read, as have I, with better understanding of existence, balance, sin and mercy; God always judges fairly.  “Eye for an eye” was not added later, but its appropriate place was moved in certain Bibles...

State of Union used to promote house refinancing, selective judgment based on class.  Tax the rich more, “resolve” tax loopholes, promises kept only one way.

Sports

USA TODAY: Joe Paterno died at 85, of lung cancer, on Sunday.  Paterno faithful came by the thousands Tues. to see him via funeral, waiting roughly 40 min. in line outside the Pasquerilla Spiritual Center in State College, PA for a public viewing of the late coach’s casket.  10 hrs. Tue, 4 hrs. today.

Moneyball tells the story....and tells the story.  There wasn’t much of an internet in the early ’90s.

2012.01.22-2012.01.24

Love makes how information travels.

Rehab focus: Gabby Giffords will not seek another term.

God, responsible for the life (naturally coming to be), should be thanked for the food.
In continued reading, a no. of ‘books’ in whole, I’ve strengthened some things.  “Love your neighbor as yourself.”  There are also feelings against debt in general; one instance, you should refrain from “owing” to another.

Repetitious words will not be heard in prayer—seen as vanity.  Unrighteous not heard until course changed, with faith in God’s judging (sound judgment) and prayer through one sacrificed for remission of sin (Christ).  Must pray in harmony of God’s will.

What emptiness will do...
Why the middle class is disappearing: family of 3 making min. wage, $14,500 has more disposable income than those making $60K.  And that’s w/o benefits.  Not ‘poor,’ but entitled include scammers.

2012.01.21

Nigerian sect Boko Haram kills over 100 in deadliest strike yet; bodies still arriving at Kano, after bombing(s), the gunning down of police.

Fast-moving snow storm hits PA, CT, moving N.E., 3-5+ in.
I sure picked a good day to do this.

Aliens ’n’ stuff...
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2012.01.20

Twitter users unknowingly take part in Anonymous DDoS attack, after arrest of Kim Schmitz.
Anonymous shut down the DoJ, the MPAA, the RIAA and Universal Music Web sites.  This comes after ICE shut down Megavideo and Megaupload sites, and the indictments of seven individuals, two corporations.  Only a few sites, such as that of the MPAA, have been able to come back up.

NZ police seize Megaupload.com founder’s goods, as four piracy suspects are wanted in the U.S.  Hackers upped the retaliation.

NASA ‘debunks’ triangular UFO theory: they say it’s how light is reflected off Venus, continuously reflecting within the telescope optics, as opposed to the naked eye—an internal optical effect.

Obit

Blues legend Etta James, 73, of complications from leukemia.  Responsible for the memorable ballad At Last (1961), she won six Grammy awards, and brought up Chess Records by signing up with subsidiary Argo.  Her music defied category.

2012.01.19

Snow at 4:38 p.m.

NYT: Supreme Court backs inmate in mail mix-up; “no just system” would allow the missed deadline to be held against the inmate, says Ginsberg.

Mitt Romney, foreign funds, out of Bermuda.
He only paid 15% in taxes, which is actually normal...the Democrat party is the party of paying no taxes.

Coast To Coast AM: 2012, the most serious year since WWII

There is no legal requirement of proving crime or charge under Natl. Defense Authorization Act, something annually passed—the one pushed through Dec. 31 (under the radar) containing the kind of language that’s always abused in history.

First, it contains language that excludes ‘who’ can arrest people as terrorists.  Bernie Sanders pointed out threatening provisions, with ACLU on board, legislators fighting against it, then for it.  Media don’t want to hear—corp. media are in denial; NYT buried the NDAA story.  The new McCarthyism targets those labeled ‘terrorists,’ which includes Communists (eventually).  And this is after the Patriot Act (anyone can be labeled a terrorist).  Congress has no reason whatsoever for this with the death of Osama bin Laden, the unpopularity of terrorism abroad.  The NDAA, is to be used w/o a doubt against protesters, says the guest.  Jesse Ventura’s son, Tyrel, follows David Seaman, Jonathan Emord (constitutional/administrative lawyer), and Linda Moulton Howe.

Either domestic or theater of war, without necessary language (i.e., habeas corpus), it is unconstitutional.  And so far, only voices like Ron Paul have stood up against it, yet it passed, 93-7.  The Provision must be challenged, people must rise up.  There is no legal proceeding until someone is arrested, detained, and we might not know when that happens once it does.  Congress must pull it.  ‘Must substantially support a terrorist group,’ regardless of personal violence or even substantial evidence, the Pres., or whomever can incarcerate, without the ability to even see a judge.  The Fifth Amendment guarantees a public, speedy trial.

Trends analyst Gerald Celente got only 70% of his money back from MF Global...valued less now

Europe is bracing for Greek default, as Greece can’t sell junk bonds.  And then, economic Marshall law was brought up again, where the military is allowed to take over for police when riots hit the streets.  Really?  Only the “bank holiday” discussed after MF Global in the closed media, to either deny your money, or devalue it further.  Using Argentinean model, it would take over a week or so.

United Fascist States of America: corporate and state merger, esp. media.  Habeas corpus was suspended during the Civil War.  How about this NDAA as proof of a new civil war — the bill finally erects the civ. defense force that was mentioned in these news pages!

Hitler used the military to take over...

Alex Jones: CA law allows schools to inject students, state officials can say it’s none of the parents’ business

Feds can take any land, somehow, and not give it back.  And then it’s back to exec. order #51, under Bush, strengthened by Obama; in case of emergency, including economic or unnamed, the ability to suspend Congress.  We have a police state on the grid— a Federal control grid.  Automatics, lists, ability/means to eliminate 99%— are we talking about a virus, or what?

Air force removes links on Russian spacecraft

15 tons, info on it prior to reentry scrubbed fm. the database.  No wonder legislation to shut down the internet, or parts of it (censor), is being crafted— none of this would be known w/o the net.

Has debt been abolished yet?

The longer debt is regarded as valid, the longer this game will play out.

To switch parties if they think that’ll get people to go to sleep again, the war mongers have to hold the obvious suspects, where the ones who’re actually in power stay in power, gaining more.

Obit

Sarah Burke dies due to injuries sustained on 1.10.  A four-time Winter X Games gold medalist, she was a pioneer of the Canadian free-style superpipe (skiing).  She died following a training accident in Utah, where blood to the brain was cut off, leaving her in a coma.

2012.01.18

Surprise hero emerges fm. cruise ship disaster.
Tally: 11 dead, 21 missing; first victim ID’d.

Tim Tebow suffered rib, lung, chest injuries in Denver Broncos loss to Patriots (45-10), had trouble sleeping due to pain.

Anti-censorship movement

Wikipedia editors question 24-hr. blackout, launched in protest of new legislation, SOPA, PIPA bills.  The Italian version of the site may have stopped passage of a censorship bill, proposed by the Berlusconi government, by briefly shutting down.  Google has a black rectangle over the logo.  Twitter has declined in the trend, considering “national” politics not good enough, even though the global powers that be...well, it’s twitter.

In the mean time, you can use Google to find a Wiki page, cached.

Health

Flu or respiratory infection increases risk of heart attack fivefold.

Bill Weir enters a demo CT scan, doctor finds calcification in his heart— he could “drop dead in five years,” however unlikely w/ current/improving health.

Nearly homeless, one bad turn and I’m dead

Very close to being homeless, I could replace the homeless voice that decided to go out and get drunk again.  I don’t drink.  Ever.  Really.  Hire me.  Oh, they won’t even see this paragraph.  Worse yet, it’d draw media attention...as if anyone watches anymore.  I often do low-register voices... I’m too unsuccessful to be dating, let alone alive.

2012.01.17

2012.01.16

MLK, Jr. Day.

Not quite “the Titanic” (captain doesn’t stick, most passengers survive, ship doesn’t break in two): Costa Concordia, off Italy, sinks after the captain steers off course, abandons ship, w/ 5 bodies found.  He is held under house arrest, charged w/ manslaughter.

2012.01.15

MLK, Jr. would’ve turned 83 today.

WH/Congress working on a bill that gives whomever the right to revoke someone’s citizenship (if declared a terrorist).  Hope that unconstitutional hell isn’t passed!

Acer beats Apple w/ Ultrabook: 3 lbs, 0.5" thin—thinner than Apple’s Air-book, with a large 320 GB SSD, built-in card reader(s), USB ports.

Planet 8 on C2C

A woman travels to places, sometimes other worlds; one race of humanoids’ve actually tried to blend in here.  In an African country, a Tiger spirit jumped into a shaman, where a levitation occurred?  The next guest says the human race is in its infancy, as a species, spiritually.  Don’t I know that.

Movie

The movie for tonight was Fright Night, starring Colin Farrell as the vampire host, Christopher Mintz-Plasse as the friend (Ed), who gets turned (whoops—spoiler)...I don’t remember the name of the male lead, but Imogen Poots played the role of ‘Amy,’ Toni Collette as the mother.  It’s decent.

2012.01.14

Listen to your gut, on Coast To Coast AM

Marion is back, with “Beyond Delicious: Recipes of the Dearly Departed,” a cook book of what those who’ve passed on told her.

Dimensional portals outside structures, negative energy portals within structures, including homes, buildings, opened by divorces, murders—some kind of connection(s) allow people who’ve died in prisons to enter opened portals.  Like, Poltergeist, man.  Those that choose not to atone, don’t care about the light...they just tunnel their way in, and wreak havoc, carrying on the negative energy.  The only good things about this is that portals don’t carry much energy; negative spirits can only be there for tens of hours at best.  Negative energies cannot enter you in your sleep, as the brain is protected during the randomized healing process of sleep; positive energies can.  Negatives can only influence your dreams, promote nightmares, but your spirit guide, guardian angel, or passed-on relatives can enter, if you’re both open.  Getting knocked out or drunk is when your brain’s guard is down; spirits may try to set up certain conditions to try to possess you.  Another reason not to drink alcohol.  Spirits waiting around in the dentist’s office...

2012.01.13

The originators of alternative rock: Jane’s Addiction, coming to the Maine state theater.

Radio: it’s a good night for attraction, due to higher confidence.
I’m not there; I’m drawing.  Oh, well.  Power of attraction through drawing?  Even if it turns out “crap” I shan’t quit.  Practicing with the weaker parts of my hands in some parts of it.  And, as usual, not using any rulers or straight edges.  An exercise of patience... If I don’t keep things low-key, I’ll die, huh?

The Merlin graph necessarily meant the fall of Apple (popularity to no one), and will reflect some popularity of the “Restoring Love” event in July.

Fear not, love all.  Fear not, love all.

Fear is a wake-up call to understand something.  Rid of it once you’ve gotten the original thought.
Part of “Do Not Worry,” do not dwell on the past; learn but no regret; resolve regrets ASAP.  Everyone makes mistakes, including those that change intentions.  So long as you move toward good/better and hold firm to the unvarnished truth, you need not worry about anything, yourself; you need not judge yourself, as the good need not fear themselves.

I have had to relearn some things after the rebirth—I’m less annoying, the connections being reworked.  Appropriately?  Or, are they just dead?  I should know from depression that more connections are made than broken...rerouted, new connections made for better reasons.  Hell, I’m still in my 20s.  And not to dwell on my failures in not standing, even though that needs to be fixed.

A relative species (to humans) died off long ago, on Coast To Coast AM

Giants lived for centuries, 125+ years.  They eventually couldn’t mate, right?

Immense project going on, and not w/o protests in India.  They call it in the manner of the mark of the Beast.  Not RFID, but cards for the 1.2 billion pop.  If you stacked the cards, containing information on iris, face and all ten fingers, the stack would reach the moon.

Movie

Caesar is home.—the chimp with accelerated intelligence, in Rise of the Planet of the Apes, played by Andy Serkis.  I promised not to slam the movie, so...
The prequel to The Planet of the Apes movies does its job telling the story, with James Franco playing Dr. Jacobs, perfecting a virus to push the limits of brain cell generation/regeneration, partly to save his father, suffering from Alzheimer’s.  And then the road to hell is paved with the good intentions, mistreatment of Caesar as an adult.

2012.01.12

Snow, as predicted, 4+in. here; mid-west suffers major snow storm; at least one other area buried with the white stuff up to the roof, trapping people in their homes...

Some metal tissue holders (not cardboard boxes) distributed to Bed Bath & Beyond, possibly other stores, are somewhat radioactive.

British leader says photo of troops urinating on dead Taliban fighters does not represent the coalition as a whole.

Doctor at a school reportedly hypnotized many students, possibly teachers as well; raising misunderstanding and sense of suffering, he may be responsible for two student suicides.

Ancient religion, civilizations et al. on Coast To Coast AM

Clusters of red, orange, yellow and purple fireball UFO sightings.

Original sin in original Christianity was simply forgetting where we came from, that we are spiritual beings regardless of of our current material body, that the cure is knowledge and remembrance.

In making contact with other beings you can destroy the construct if you’re not finely tuned in.  Most people aren’t meditation 8 hours a day.

Fukushima kills thousands not even one year later

14K deaths in U.S. linked to radioactive plume released by Fukushima, the nuclear plant that underwent a meltdown of its spent uranium fuel rods after losing power due to the one-two punch of a 9.0 quake and tsunami in 2011.  Fukushima plume launched 5 km high, compared to 2.5 km. at Chernobyl, raiding infant deaths via radiation poisoning by 60% on the oceanic coasts (not just the West coast).  Infants may be most vulnerable to radioactive/ionic iodine.  There’s no tech to clean enough of the radioactive water, water being dumped into Tokyo bay, vaporized rod material 7x that of Chernobyl, up to 42x.  I mn. died over 20 yrs. from Chernobyl, expected to double in 80 years.  The pop. in Japan near Fukushima is 6x.  The radiation may exacerbate illness by 90%.  Selenium helps protect the thyroid.

Out of all the things killing me...

Where’s the love that was predicted?  The 2012 Merlin graph shows far fewer coincidences/lower general popularity.  That can also be described as a slow death— er, I mean, the progressive/(pol. corporate class) policies that ruined the economy won’t be repealed any time soon, right?  I should’ve started on all of this info a decade ago (seriously), ’cause things are inevitably going to very slow, with forced stabilization.  Happiness in Slavery, [whispering] Happiness that controls you..[gasp].

Quit feeling sorry for myself?  But how to get out of the hole?  That’s the question that hasn’t been answered in a long time.  How?  There are far fewer options left, and all of them have their level of humiliation.  Please, tell me, how?

The big ailment that makes it difficult to use the bathroom...is worse, no way to get med. help now.  This is where capitalism fails—you somehow need medical insurance to survive, when people helping people shouldn’t be so conditional.  Free clinics.  Who actually wants pain? ...Except for masochists, who actually wants pain?

’Dying ADB interface: Now I can’t use the right-shift or escape keys.
I’m running out of tricks in getting around this.

Electronics for sale

I have so much still left in the house, much of them still useful—things RadioShack® used to sell, and yes, a few incand... Note to burglars: these items are useless to the general market (everything whole is either dead or has dead parts now).  The cost of buying will probably be cheaper than that of breaking in!

2012.01.11

Cost of finding out nerves are being pinched, tests in trying to survive: $2,100.

Blasts at a pro-Assad rally in Homs, Syria kill 8, including a French journalist, a Dutch journalist among 25 reported wounded.

Religion, groundbreaking.
Supreme Court decision that church employees can’t sue for discrimination.

Atrial fibrillation: Vitamin D lowers CRP.  After doctors have tried prescribing 10K or higher IU to patients, they’ve gone down to 3-4K IU.

Finance @ yahoo.com: We’re being friendly because we want you to let your guard down: 10 secrets of a Hiring Manager.

Morning: I’m either a nervous/stressful quitter, a fool in love or a dick.

Like the character in Midnight in Paris, yet the wife-to-be is...my mother.  [Gasp!]
No longer a paradox of what to do, the more I learn, the less pedantic I am.  Worse than Grandma’s Boy, “Pathetic, I do less than a dog.”  The best I can, with so many tools taken away— it says something about the rest of the world when I am no longer capable of doing anything anymore once the rest of the equipment fails, the neighborhood treating us like criminals, while they take things for granted,...cheat?  My perceptions run deep, and I am still terrified.  Asperger’s or not,...WTF?!

Noon: Don’t test me... ’cause I’ll fail

As I walked down a hall, another person walked behind me.  The fear/terror kicked in, not so much fight/flight/adrenaline.  It wasn’t paranoia, as I understood the purpose and pattern.

It hit me, in the bathroom to wash my hands, and to put those hands on my face, just why I’m like this, just why I am aversive to crowds, almost as far as to rush to the bathroom to vomit if in a packed theater for too long (during a movie, possibly The Sixth Sense).  It wasn’t so much my “unworthy” appearance (self-conscious, if you haven’t already picked that up) — this aversion comes after the insecurity of not being able to help those in need; I have never been crash-course tested, never tested without there being others.  What I fear: my own personal responsibility.

Back pain from standing over monitor to see polarized image (LCD). Awesome song character’s life better than mine, although I’m better than the character...I hope.  And I drink light beer. —Ha!  Now that part’s funny!

2012.01.10

I wanted love, I needed love, most of all, most of all.

PORTLAND DAILY SUN/David Carkhuff: Maine Today Media announces new investors.  ME AG warns of up-front fees in acting and modeling auditions—scams, that scheduled “Disney” auditions `not legitimate.”

Damage to the body by EM pollution; we can only reduce what we can reduce.  And sugar dependence leads to fight or flight adrenaline production.
After the day of terrifying predictions and reports, a psychiatrist on anxiety!  ...On Coast To Coast AM.  My first breathing exercise, with some walking.  I think I feel better.  And during a program with a medium that says we create our own world as a spirit for when we pass on.  You weigh yourself, you help others and yourself, you love.  There is no general hell.  The best-times, the best potential.  Wow.  Moving slowly.  Fear & manipulation exist on lower vibrations, love on the higher.  Different Earths, different planes of existence, similar spirits with different experiences.  The guest knows when his body’ll die: 82, heart attack.

LOVE, the antidote to fear.  Fear invites fear, and love invites love.  Love to dispel fear, shine light onto the darkness, make contact.  Love conquers because it is the light in the darkness, it is easier (in all regards).  It is initial for humans.

Do not worry; you are protected; in worse case, you won’t feel pain going through.  Do not judge; you won’t know what they’ve gone through, and why they’ve made the choices they’ve made until you step into their shoes.

Life is conditional, love is not, eventually.  Fear is wrong; love is right.

2012.01.09

You’re never the same, after seeing the unescapable darkness.

Warning: some of this content is nightmarish, so be careful when reading it.

First on Coast To Coast AM, a recording, with dramatic music: the voice of the granddaughter of the last Japanese emperor predicts, with third eye (opened in 1976, she says) 72 hours of darkness following 2012.12.21.  She says we’ll be entering the fifth dimension (whatever that means), which will cause quakes, thus tsunamis and volcanic eruptions, ash clouding out the sun, effects cutting off electricity.  Talk about death!  She also says the military knows this, building underground tunnels, but what they’re doing won’t work or be enough.  We must be spiritually fit.  Well, that’s timeless.

Sasquatch rep.

On the other hand, the first guest was a reporter speaking for the Sasquatch people.  A man with multiple degrees talks of human-like people that are only animal-looking in appearance in toleration of the cold environments.  He says they were put there for the purpose of mining something (they wouldn’t say what) for other beings.  No permission for a photo (would come out blurry), only speech, saying any physical evidence would just be used by egos.  They are tired of being harassed and shot at, having to move entire families from place to place.  They’ve said the Earth’s poles will shift a couple of times, from the end of 2012 into 2016.

Informed Jury: grand juries, of 23, initiate charges

The last guest dealt with the Fourth Amendment, how, in strict interpretation, the Police Department is unconstitutional (sheriffs are, however).  Dr. Roger Roots reacts to judges telling jurors what to do, threatening contempt if they don’t follow their rules.  (Jurors may find the defendant guilty, not must.)  In some jurisdictions, jurors are not even allowed to read the constitution!  Police forces didn’t exist until the 1830s, after debtors prisons (we’re somewhat heading back to those now).

The new era of fascism: National Defense act nullifies certain constitutional rights, giving the Executive branch, w/ no oversight, power to arrest and detain indefinitely any citizen, also giving ability to —rendition— ship them overseas.

The U.S. can now be described a Prison state: blacks in NY up against walls, now everyone.  No benefit of the doubt on innocence.  Unlike civil offenses, criminal penalties used to be a mere fine!

2012.01.08

Verifying Suicide of a Superpower.
MSNBC chief Phil Griffin said on Sat. he hasn’t decided whether commentator and author Pat Buchanan will be allowed back on the network after Color of Change decided to boycott the network over contents of Buchanan’s book.

Merlin: proof that coincidence does not exist.

On C2C, Merlin... but not before John B. Wells mentions the chem. trails, in the crude attempt to replace ozone with artificial clouds (not his words, mine).  When it’s not raining, like, all the time, the sun burns the skin...  You can’t look at the sky for more than 3 mins. without feeling the ye pain, says a caller.  And another caller calls the trails ‘vapors.’

The Merlin software, developed since the 1980s, has proven time after time just when information travels on Earth.  The two guests make it a matter of time in the universe, as if information is organic (well, I guess you could say that), but I contend that it has to do with the timing of the Earth around the Sun being so consistent for millions of years.

The Time Traks for Glenn Beck and Sarah Palin fizzled out some time ago; they both have close birth dates, and fell out of general popularity once each of their message became consistent enough.

Merlin Projections, 75%: M. Romney/Rico Rubio vs. B. Obama/H. Clinton.  50% chance that Ron Paul will run as a third party candidate.  Predicted by the guests: Europe then China, China to run out of money to give to the U.S., and have its own housing crisis.  All in the grand scheme of banks...and the inevitable failure of the concept of debt (let’s hope it goes).

People have entered false dates, and some of those people blame it on Merlin...so, then there’s birth date reverse-engineering, for those who want to know when they were born.  That is done by lining up the important life events with their Time Trak, et voila.

MerlinProject[at]gmail.com; ProjectMerlin.com; TimeTraks.org.

Playing subatomic shtuff in my head, figuring

I’m not editing this text much anymore, so, so here goes almost exactly what was written.  A genius today, built over personal exercise.
I stumbled on something: gravity isn’t a particle force.  There’s electric (direct) force, and magnetic (parallel) force.  There are a number of holes to fill in the model.  The orientation of the photon is crucial, as I see there’s no such thing as the electron particle; it’s the electric force of the photon.  While the side is repelling, the front (electric) is attracted.  This makes a fixed orbit regardless of speed.  With similar forces for each, photons naturally repel each other doubly.  They eventually fall into place, forming shells.  And as they aren’t really particles, they have non-local properties (i.e., quantum entanglement).  Electricity is the direct compensation, and induction is the parallel compensation—possibly half-weak, a shift occurs in the circuit instead of a continuous flow.

Semi-conductors take advantage of physical orientation from the molecular point up.  Transistors allow direct flow (electricity) only when the magnetic flow passes through the base.  It is only then does the collector/emitter connection lower its resistance.

In the case of electric-weak, magnetic properties take over.  You get dark matter when photons are unable to orbit the matter, but their course is altered (no reflection, but refraction).  Gravity operates under the same formula because it’s the same force, essentially.  Just one is attached to an electric force, and the other isn’t or is otherwise neutral.  Another reason to get away from nuclear fission power: God knows what is being created!  To switch to natural gas...and switch our enemies to the Russian, leaving Saudi Arabia to collapse under the weight of the strict Muslim-only (democratic partial) Arab Spring.  A reason why we haven’t switched.

Finally, the Final draft thing of “Non-fiction”

Mostly written in bed...

2012.01.07

On this day in 1942, the Japanese siege of Bataan began (WWII).  3 mos. later, the notorious Death March caused Bataan’s fall.

Someone who has paranormal experiences, Marion on C2C.  Good entities that warn or pull people out of danger, and not so good entities.  In short, don’t buy/use a Ouiji board.  Followers, paralyzers (in bed, seizing, seeing blackness coming out of the bathroom—those who’ve touched the window and doorway.  Objects thrown across the room too.  Ouiji boards give whatever’s looking to attach itself to your mind/body permission to do so.  You’ll get both the good and the ugly.  A life more interesting and terrifying, your angel(s) should protect you from the evil so long as you acknowledge the warnings and allow it to move your body in rare circumstances.  In order to not overwhelm the good guys, don’t go overboard.  Don’t get a board, on any piece of it.  Spirits from other planes of existence.

Shape-shifters, skin-walkers: real.  Fearlessly tell shape-shifters to leave, as they do not belong there.  They may show up as any organism, with disproportional figures—impossible features for an animal type.

Things in the final hours: Zero-point energy, with fluids, via some molecular acceleration...and the guys who use that tech. somehow all got cancer?  Various other experiences and info.

2012.01.06

With no high school diploma, Barbara Lynch built a cuisine business with $19 mn. in annual revenue.

Warmongering media & institutions: Gingrich says, blacks shouldn’t have to rely on food stamps, dumb NAACP battle ensues.

My despair isn’t alone: people trying to commit suicide in the news, including the suspect in the topless coffee shop arson, via strangling.

On Coast To Coast AM, what government forces have done that you, of course, don’t know about, including confiscations of fuel found underground (staking claims, blocking off access).  And the man/institute that predicted the housing bubble collapse (obvious) and the 1991 collapse of the Soviet Union.  He now sees a “clear” picture of economic Marshall law, and extensive cyberhacking... It was a great idea signing up on site(s)...  Trends Journal.

Bankers gambling, CEO Henry Paulson running things before.  And those who think they know Christ becoming violent over stuff?  (The guest’s phrasing may have been a little offensive; this is my cleaner interpretation.)  He acknowledges the warfare, but doesn’t see the ones who refuse the warfare except the 99-percenters.  When people lose everything ... there will be blood in the streets.  Crackdowns on ‘belligerents’ already, and not being able to take out large sums of money because it doesn’t exist due to banks tied to a system of debt.  Well, that’s true.  $7 mn. gone; Europe is six times worse in its crisis.  Another Lehman Bros. collapse, he predicts, with more blame on Europe, then China.  Trust Switzerland?

$800 tn. represented in the books, only $100 bn. guaranteed in backing, and they couldn’t come up with $1.2 bn.  One big Ponzi scheme of debt.  Retail market to fall after Europe and China.  Gold was $187.50 when the guest bought it.  And now brokerage firms are raided, past significant loses.  Even if you sue to get it back, it’ll take months to years, and it’ll be worth much less.

Gold could be the break-out year if technologies like fusion take off.  Imaginary covers, more internet controls, false flags used to shut things down in the name of security.  And as they’ve said, Net Neutrality doesn’t go far enough.  The more the so-called absolute powers screw up the worse they get.  And now you have, what he calls, the Hot War against Iran—Carter started the effort, Obama signed “an act of war” with sanctions in the National Defense act, a bill that grants the executive branch the ability to arrest, detain, and/or ship overseas anyone they label a terrorist.  Gerald Celente: all DC wants, is, repatriate, repatriate, repatriate.

2012.01.05

Arrogance does have its ties to short-term memory loss.

The relationship bet. the social and the personal is as broad and diverse as the human soul.
Too bad I confused the two for many years.

Continuation of journey, poorly edited still.  You know it’s depression when you eat little to nothing.
“Demons are fallen angels; they kick your ass for selfish reasons.”  I was born in an — but not ‘the’ (meaningless existence) — place, where the shivering function would automatically accelerate my brain, as opposed to doing it manually.  I’ve wasted most my life for material forms of communication.  I think more broadly in bed, more frankly, more, more.

And this gem: “Talking to yourself is okay so long as it’s for the learning experience, and you haven’t lost your social speaking skill(s).”  The frickin’ college dictionary put the number of continents on Earth at six.

2012.01.04

’Cause I..found a way.. to Steal the Sun from the Sky..
Long..live that day.. that I decided to Fly From the in-Side..!

Oklahoma City: 18-year-old woman shoots intruder(s)

Sarah McKinley says that a week earlier a man named Justin Martin dropped by on the day of her husband’s funeral, claiming that he was a neighbor who wanted to say hello. The 18-year-old Oklahoma City area woman did not let him into her home that day.

On New Year’s Eve Martin returned with another man, Dustin Stewart, and this time was armed with a 12-inch hunting knife.  The two soon began trying to break into McKinley’s home.

Judge rules KKK shop pay black church owning building

AP: S. Carolina: A judge rules the rightful owner of a building housing the Ku Klux Klan “Redneck Shop,” w/ racist T-shirts and Klan robes is a black church; judge orders the store pay $3,300 in bills to the owner.  Rev. David Kennedy visited the place.

The earliest protest of the shop’s opening was "malicious damage to property"—a Columbia man plowed his van through the front windows.

Ent., Sci.

Bankrate.com: more scammers using social media sites to use friends against friends.
Keep s/w up to date, mind URLs (esp. if short), and Don’t Take Social Media Offers at Face Value!

Longest-living organism alive said to be an ancient lichen from Greenland; younger, a 405-year-old clam found near Iceland.

Scientific American: Professor finds ‘zombie’ fly parasite also killing off honeybees—takes over bodies, uses them for developing larvae; up to 13 fly larvae escape the corpse’s neck.

Pol.Garb

Ron Paul skips an event to focus on NH, a state that already supports him...
And he has Soros support in “blindly break up the military industrial complex.”
Rick Santorum could easily beat Obama in debates—run circles around him.

Indoctrination: to avoid original sources in promoting an agenda.  It took 100 years to fill all media with propaganda..  Advertising and education..  And they can smear David Barton all they want, but he has the actual documents to back up everything.  No, Van Jones isn’t radical; he’s at Princeton...and how that’s irrelevant now.

Michele Bachmann steps aside: cancels SC, short of cash, says it was up to the voters, and now she’s out.

Not “Yes We Can,” or “Yes I Can,” but “Yes I Will.”  That is when things move.

Personal income under Bush dropped 3.2%; under just the last 2.5 years under this admin., 6.7%.
Obama taking advice from Jimmy Carter,...or, rather, Carter giving advice: don’t take one controversial topics, he said.  A man that lost 43 states to Ronald Reagan, and promoted the 1979 Iranian Revolution.

John McCain endorses Mitt Romney.  A gift and a curse.
I wonder how the media will try to smear the calmer one, Rick Santorum...as an extremist?

Media take democracy out of the equation in saying two things: it helps Obama that the Rs’re going after each other; did it help Obama for Hillary to compete with him.  Talk about having no sense of responsibility.

I emotionally saw the abyss of despair.

Warning: minimal edits made with this...
Doing something over nothing got me to see just how dependent I am.  Thoughts slowly racing through my head of how I observe more than live.  This explains only one factor of my blindness, and much more overall general health.  It keeps coming and coming of how, if everything’s fine with the world, I could be comfortable dying in my sleep?  My, my, my.  Either I’m a prisoner or bum or a machine or a hopeless soul, or I have another severe disease that can only be cured with social interaction with others, new people.  I have no problem talking with a loving stranger, but there’s little contact.

My personality disagrees with individualism.  F—kers.  Life always requires more than one.  Always.  I’ve been making moves too slowly.  I’ve left a complete mess, ethic-wise, and must clean as much as I can.  I will not do another’s bidding if it’s evil.  And then I went from “I’ve found a way out” to despair, to getting over the “honesty dilemma” to coming up with conclusions, in part logical.  Beliefs.  The more balanced insanity, if not tepid or dull by how I set the boundaries.

I might as well get it over with then and just believe I’m brilliant, even if it’s not true.  I may not know all of the symbols or have the greatest short-term memory, but I can run circles around Stephen Hawking on other things.

Spirit is one with consciousness, and memories can be added outside the body.  Time is linear for the physical universe/world, as observed by the organism only.

I’ll skip the eternal damnation stuff....  Yes, I’m shipments of indecisiveness.  Before cardiac arrest, as the pains got worse—kicking myself in the ass hasn’t helped/done much good.  Ass-burgers.  I will not kill.  Enjoy the challenge of improvements, and appreciate it!  And after nothing visible with the request (details spared here), nothing visible happened to me.  The last part: I guess I can do it myself.  Thanks.

2012.01.03

Sri Lanka’s Ghosts of War details “deplorable conditions in places ‘littered w/ dead bodies and carcasses of dying animals,’” land mines and shattered windows.  The Tigers recruited child soldiers, killed dissenters, especially those Muslim, and went as far as to kill Indian PM Rajiv Gandhi in 1991.  They were defeated in 2009, but the toll shows a couple thousand killed each year on average for the three-decade war.

“Sri Lankans should no longer pretend the army didn’t shell civilians.”  Certain areas are still restricted to civil life, despite deadline.

Discovery shows sharks may be adapting to cope with a looming threat... scientists like to say scenarios of doom without checking the numbers on how many humans manually kill each month.

A sense of confusion was heightened last week—2 suspects in a ‘run’ of arson fires in Hollywood, but police see no connection of that to what started early Friday.

Last para. sent back to [private], after mentioning that I don’t have a camera: Heh, I may be good enough at drawing to possibly render and scan a photo-realistic self-portrait. Now placing foot in mouth.

2012.01.02

Interest rates expected to remain law this year, with inflation under control?  Two psychics say 2012 will be okay, full of love.  Easier said than...on Coast To Coast AM.

Expletive-loaded statement(s): Katy Perry splits with Russell Brand.

2012.01.01

No TV

Book

In David Livingstone Smith’s “less than human: WHY WE DEMEAN, ENSLAVE, AND EXTERMINATE OTHERS,” Smith asks, [I]f our future can be less hideous than our past?  Then he answers thinly that, Nobody knows because nobody’s ever tried.  William D Barry (Maine Sunday Telegram) urges people to read and wrestle with this all-consuming keywork.

Bull-Science

Jobs Spotlight: BS (Bachelor of Science) for web building skills.  Talk about B.S.  I need money to prove the skills I already have...15 years ago.  Old Excel/Office experience.  Either way, I’ll have to clean toilets or remain broke.

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