A/n- please be gentle with me and try not to flame…this is my first YYH fanfic…it’s another poem, told in my favorite
character, Hiei’s POV.  As usual, this poem doesn’t rhyme

Alone By Nature

by CyberSerpent
 
 
 

Ever since I was born,

People loathed me

I'm alone by nature
 
 

The reason I don't want Yukina to know who I am is simple

She’d never want me as her brother

I mean, who would?

Once she knew who I was,

She’d despise me like the others
 
 

People never know what I'm thinking

And I'm grateful
 
 

Yes, Kurama, Yuusuke, and Kawabura are all good friends

But once they see what I am inside

They’d think I was just another weakling,

Afraid to fall in love
 
 

So why am I so faint when I see her?

This is wrong

This cant be right

Someone stop this nonsense
 
 

I'm alone by nature
 
 

I'm not capable of love
 
 

Or so I think
 
 

I have a tough reputation

I'm known for my cruelness

I'm renowned for my coldness

I'm famous for my insensitivity
 
 

So why…
 
 

So why am I beginning to thaw inside?

Are the frozen ice caked around my heart finally melting?

Kurama says my eyes are beginning to soften

No longer icy hard like they used to be
 
 

I look inside the mirror

What do I see?

I see a strange, unfamiliar face smiling back at me
 
 

I loathe that person inside the mirror for being happy

I'm supposed to be hard, heartless

Supposed to be
 
 

I pray night and day

Praying that someday I’d find that I was the same

The same cold, unfeeling man I was before

My prayers went unanswered
 
 

Each day that passes

My heart feels lighter and lighter

I even manage to smile once in a while
 
 

Yuusuke says that’s good,

That’s good that I'm beginning to open up
 
 

Kurama smiles at me and praises me
 
 

For what?  I ask
 
 

Kurama just beams and shakes his head
 
 

Kuwabara’s still the same idiot

What Yukina sees in him I don't know
 
 

I long for my old self

The old, pitiless me I used to be

Life’s easier without emotions
 
 

But I feel my mind begin to relax

I don't experience any more nightmares about death

Are emotions actually softening me?
 
 

I hope not
 
 

But I think it is