So whats going on in my life? Well its Olympics time again.. I actually love the Olympics.. Fun too watch and i do get teary eyed during some of the stories and what nots that go on.. Canada has only one gold medal to date and I missed that one.. But I need to watch at least one so I can have my sobbing patriotic moment.. Actually tonight i watched highlights of Tennis.. Canada's Daniel Nestor beating Aussie Patrick Rafter.. :) Was an awesome match.. Then I went to the Bluejays game as the Bluejays completed the sweep of the New York Yankees with David Wells getting his 20th win.. I went to the game the night before as well.. Also its hockey season again and went to couple of Mapleleafs games on Sunday and Tuesday.. Just exhibition games right now though. So thats my life.. I dont feel like a gay male at times because I knew few gay people who would talk to me about Tennis, Hockey, Baseball or even the Olympics.. If there is any out there i need to meet some.. Sounds like im happy? Not even close.. Normally going to Hockey and baseball games put me in a good mood but I think of how alone I feel.. More so then I ever have in my life.. Nothing good has happened to me in god knows how long.. I actually balled in front of my co-worker yesterday.. I dont understand why im here.. I have never wished i was dead but recently it has crossed my mind not that i would do something stupid. Just I dont see why im here.. there isnt much in my eyes to live for.. I hate my job.. i dont like most people i know.. I hate being gay.. Hmmmmm Anything im missing? Well i do have some good friends but havent really seen any of them much lately.. 2 weeks ago my friend Heath had a surprise b-day party for me the week after my birthday.. It was sweet but I almost screwed it up by not going because I was in a horible mood cause of shit in my life and didnt know he was planning on having a party for me.. Oh well.. enough outta me...
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