| April 19, 2003 1:44 a.m. Hey today is an old friends birthday! Happy birthday Thomas! Today was an interesting day. I came home to an empty house. I loved it. I cashed my check more money then i thought. Always good. Took my Sweetie to dinner. It was so good. Held an interesting conversation about my home life. Everything is good but it was weird. i dunno. I love so much what i have with Daniel and I wouldn't give it up for the world. I want so bad not to screw everything up. Yet I always feel that I can't. Is it possible to find someone at this age that you could spend the rest of your life with? More importantly, Is it possible to find someone at this age that would want to spend the rest of their lives with you? I don't want to jinx anything but it's in my head. I can't not say whats going on in my heart. And I can't openly discuss it with him, or at least I don't want to scare him away. Yet, I get the feeling that it's mutual. I guess for now, I just need to know i love him, so much and that all will work out in the end. Patience. |