| Constant Acheon |
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| My heart aches as I see happy couples walk by I yearn for someone to come, but one comes, I wonder y Am I so ugly? AmI trying to hard? What should I do I let no one know about this treachorous lonliness that engulfs my soul, heart and mind too I long to feel, touch and kiss the one I grow so fond of At night when I sleep, I dream about being someone else, I pray for someone to answer my prayers from above To have what is called a true, everlasting love Each day I wake, go to work and hope for someone Each night I cry, knowing I still have no on My only escape from this nightmare I have, is to hope, dream and write Hoping for morning I wake up and not think of a lonely night Im not asking for passion or lust, but just holding someone tight Knowing I can tell him my most secret desires, to my most riveting nightmare To laugh with when Im happy, or run to when Im hurt or scared I put up a facade of acting to tough, where I dont need anyone or anything Bt deep down its killing me, eating away at me, like a drug used constantly How the thought of razor+wrist=such relief of my misery There is no getting passed what would probly be burning for all eternity I do not think what I ask is alot Since love is divine, and human am I not? When I write these words I feel something give How for another day I want to live If anyone ever got into my head to read my thoughts Would they laugh? go mad? or pity my distraught I shall sleep now and dream of him, my soulmate, love and friend And pray, hope and wish everything turns out right in the end (c) 1998 |
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