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| Surrender |
| Sitting on the rocks overlooking the ocean,
I think about what has passed and what's to come. All the regrets I have had, And the many stupid things that I have done. Will I have learned from my mistakes? More then likely not; And my future will end up like my past. More regrets, more stupidity, more anguish and tears, I am stuck in a rut, and no one can save me; life's going too fast. Everyone says I am young, and I have so much to look forward to, But I feel well beyond my years, and I do not see any light. This is not for pity, just a fact of what is. I accept it as such, and I surrender to this fight. The mist sprays upward into my face; I lean toward the sun, the only warmth that touches deep; A northern wind blows, and my warmth vanishes; The cold has come back, and into my pores it continues to seep. The beauty I once held onto, as the sun set over the horizon, Has lost its enchantment, when watching it alone. Just another day has passed, and another lonely night emerges, Something I can always count on, a lasting friendship, together we have grown. I get up and stand closer to the edge; Watching the waves get torn open on the jagged rocks below; I make my way carefully down to the shore, Letting the water splash around me, and cover my toes. I walk further into the arms of the ever constant marine, Letting my troubles get swept far away from me for the moment; Knowing that pain is like a loyal dog, finding its way back home. The time I am here, takes the edge of what was deeply pent. I slowly walk back to my jeep, lost in my thoughts. How quickly the sadness starts creeping into my heart. I journey to my final destination of the day; When I get home, I lay down, thinking tomorrow will be a fresh start. I awake the following morning, doing the same thing I did yesterday; Showering, dressing, coffee, and out the door to work I go. There has got to be something more to this life then what meets the eyes. When finally my work day ends, I sigh as I will do this all again, tomorrow. � copyright 3/23/06 Melia Teka |
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