THE
LINES OF DESCENT, continued - part 2
The London flat was
empty. Patrick had been instructed via a phone call to make himself scarce for
the next few days. The weather forecast was for drastically dropping temperatures.
A frost would be overlaying the countryside and the chance of rain was
ninety-percent.
“That should keep the
brats indoors and out of trouble,” Vincent said as he turned the remote off. He
and Jim had casually eaten lunch in font of the television, making themselves
at home again in the flat.
“Yeah, Blair hates
the cold. Day will be hard pressed to get him scavenging the countryside if the
temperature drops below fifty. He didn’t really bring anything heavier than a
cable knit sweater. I think we’ve got the weather babysitting for us.” He lay
his head back on the winged back chair and closed his eyes. No doubt to Vincent
the soul searching was coming to the forefront.
Getting up, he
collected the plates and glasses. When he returned he sat on the sofa.
Sighing heavily, he
looked at Jim Ellison, tired, eyes closed, head back, a man lost to some
painful fears he could not shake.
“Go get it, James.”
Jim’s eyes shot open.
He stared at Vin as though he didn’t quite hear right.
“You heard me. Go get
it.”
Rising wearily, Jim
did as he was told. Up the stairs to his room, he opened the suitcase and took
out the wooden object Vin had instructed him to pack, him to bring, and him to
be responsible for…the old paddle.
Returning to the
living room, he handed the instrument to Vin. The older man shook his head and
pointed to the coffee table in front of him. The detective put it down within
easy reach of the ex-Lt. Colonel.
“Take ‘em down, Jim,
and assume the position.” Vin spoke in short commands, easily catching Ellison
in the voice of authority and the obedience military men just fall into out of
habit.
Slowly unbuckling his
belt, he unzipped his pants and pulled them off. Taking several deep breaths, he knelt down next to Vin’s knees,
and carefully laid himself across the strong, muscled thighs.
“We’re here to talk.
To find out what’s got you all tied up and upset, we are going to get it out in
the open, deal with it and start you back on track,” Vin said gently as he
rubbed Jim’s back. “You talk, I
listen,” he continued, his voice now taking on a sterner edge. “You don’t talk
or insist on BS’ing me, then I paddle, spank, then stop. You get a chance to
talk again. If you don’t talk or aren't honest, we start the procedure again,
round and round, until you catch on.
Got it?”
“I’m just tired, Vin,
that’s all. The case. It was hard,” Jim said softly, resting his head on his
folded arms resting on the couch. He
knew, even as he spoke, that Vincent Cade could not be fooled and would not allow
him the easy route.
“You’re a cop, Jim,
you’ve been a cop for over eight years now. Don’t tell me you’ve not built up
some protection against seeing some of the cruelty you’ve seen this past
month.”
“No, you never get
used to some things,” Jim said, buying time.
“No, not used to it,
but why did you let it absorb you like you did?”
“I don’t know.”
“Not a good enough
answer. Not good answers by a long shot, my friend.” Vin shifted Jim into a
better position for his attentions. Pulling the boxers down, he picked up the
paddle.
“I think you have
better insight into the problem than you are letting on. You’ve ignored Blair’s
entreaties to eat, his general concerns for your health and well-being. Do you
think that’s right? He’s your lover. He cares about you as you care about him.”
There was only
silence. The stubborn pride of a man brought to this point. A man who could
understand loving someone, but could not acknowledge the same needs for caring
and nurturing that he could so easily give himself.
Vincent Cade raised
the paddle high. Bringing it down without warning, he imprinted a red region to
the right check.
“This isn’t fair,
Vin!” Jim cried out.
In answer to the
fairness of it all, an equally severe swat landed on the left check. Jim
groaned, biting down on the pain, refusing to cry out.
The paddle intoned
itself with a steady rhythm, sound and fury, anger over careless regard for
self and Blair, the equalizer demanded justice. Vincent paddled hard, reddening
the surface in an equally fine measure, toning the skin to rosy hues.
By the twenty-fifth
stroke, Ellison was crying softly.
Cade laid the paddle
on the table and softly stroked the red globes. “Why? Answer me, little boy.
Why did this one bother you so much?”
Jim wiggled seeking
some relief to the region. Vin delivered a sharp spank to settle him down.
“Talk to me or do I continue paddling you?”
“I saw him there,” he broke down. “I saw him
there every time we found another one. I realized how easy it could have been him.
How these boys, these young men..” Jim stopped to catch his breath. Vin pulled
a handkerchief from his breast pocket and handed it to Jim. Blowing his nose,
he paused to regain some composure. Then he continued, “They were a Blair to
someone. There was someone out there who loved them the way I love him. So, in
truth, I failed him. And it hurts.”
“Shhh, little boy,
shhhh,” Vin continued the soft strokes reaching higher now to rise above Jim’s
waist. Comforting, offering solace and understanding, he still held him firmly
down, but he was pinning him with safety as well as the threat of punishment.
“But you still didn’t
answer me. Why did you ignore Blair? Were you taking it out on him? Making him
pay for being a victim, because you couldn’t make those other young men pay
anymore?” Vin went for the throat, toppling the man across his lap into a realm
he was not ready to go.
“NO!” Jim shouted
out. “Damn you, Vin! NO!”
Cade took a deep
breath. This time using his large hand, he started smacking the reddened
bottom, covering the distance with a vengeance, eager to force the issues at
hand. Jim wiggled in a vane attempt to escape the pain. Vincent pressed down
firmly on the small of his back refreshing his memory to the feelings of
helplessness, comeuppance, time to pay the piper. Jim sobbed, gulping large
masses of air, choking off cries of pain and frustration and guilt.
“I hated him!” Jim
let it out, hating himself as he said the words. “I hated him, Vin, hated him
as I hated them for getting themselves killed. I hated him for making me love
him the way I do, for putting me in the position of caring so much that if he
was one of them I would not be able to live.”
Vin stopped his hand
in mid-flight. It was said. The truth was clearing the air and now they could
search deeper. The doors were wide open now and Jim Ellison was a man again,
not a silent super hero bent on quiet suffering and self-recrimination.
Lifting the figure,
he helped the detective rise up, turning him quickly to fall back upon his lap.
Ellison winced as his hot flesh made contact with the rough cords Cade wore.
“It’s okay, now, Jimmy, it’s okay. We
can deal with it. We’ve got a few days and we can find out how to make it
right,” he said as Jim cried on his shoulder, releasing the pain and guilt that
had festered inside.
The late afternoon
sun filtered through the shades, igniting the room with a tribute to the day,
bright shards of light seeking every corner, finding entrance through the
smallest crack---just as a soul will seek the most unobtrusive entrance and
move towards a friend to find some light.
British Gas pulled
out of the driveway by six o’clock that evening. The gas line was severally
damaged and the best that could be done was a shut off of service until the
lines could be repaired on Sunday. The
old house would get pretty damn cold this evening, but Day wasn’t worried about
the chill in the air. His concerns were for the rising temperatures upon
Vincent Cade’s return.
Now as both brats
reflected over their quiet meal, heads bowed into their soup bowls, imagining
the worst possible scenarios upon their lover’s return in a few days, all
enthusiasm was long gone.
The scream pierced
the night, echoing off the walls. Vincent Cade was down the hall in a matter of
seconds, heading directly for the cause of the disturbance. Throwing the light
switch he was on the bed in no time grabbing the flailing arms, calling out
assurances, “Jim, it’s all right, Jim. Wake up.”
Blue eyes focused, turned
outward until they met the rock solid, earth tone eyes of Cade. One could ground yourself in those eyes, for
they were firm and solid, hard and unyielding, yet deep when they wanted to be.
Now they looked into the ocean depths with the quiet calm of logic and
compassion.
Pulling away from the
hands, Ellison wiped a weary hand over his face, drawing downward the pain and
confusion until it fell away. “I’m
sorry. I must have been dreaming.”
“No?” Cade asked,
surprise evident in his eyes, humor softening the expression.
A smile flashed the
somber face, “Didn’t have nightmares about the case before.”
“Could be you weren’t
sleeping very much, enough to have any dreams or nightmares,” Cade argued.
“So it’s a good thing
now?” Jim queried, looking for a fight.
“Yes, it’s a good
thing you’re acknowledging how hard the past few weeks have been on you. No,
it’s not a good thing you’re having nightmares, but that only means you need
more time, more discussion. No, it’s not a good thing to show me attitude at
two o’clock in the morning. And yes, it’s a good thing you’re going to spend
the rest of the night with me.” With that he drew back the covers and waited
patiently for the detective to get up.
Jim opened his mouth
to protest, then a quick hand raised and he doubted a whole platoon would have
been willing to take on Vincent Cade, hair disheveled, look of mild annoyance
and much taller in the shadows of the lamp. He looked powerfully built with the
white T-shirt straining against his muscles. The lightly graying temples only
highlighted his features in the soft lighting.
Besides, Ellison
thought as he stood up, can’t think of a
better place to be when I need to feel safe, than next to Vincent Cade.
“Damn it, Blair,”
Damien said for what seemed to him the hundredth time that night, as he pulled
the blankets up around him, turning on his side on the couch to face the fire.
The house was cold. The gas heating was useless with no fuel and most of the
rooms had fireplaces fueled with gas as well. The large living room was the
only natural log fireplace. “It wasn’t
my fault. You were there. Why didn’t you think of power and gas lines? You were
just as eager as I was to unearth that thing. Huh!” He harrumphed as though
adding more credence to his statement.
Blair slept on the
floor closer to the glowing fire. Cold was not a favored state to him. The
brats had collected just about every available blanket from the house and
brought them into this room. The coffee table was moved away from the hearth,
the couch pushed closer in towards the warmth, and all the blankets piled
around looked as though some giant animal had begun nesting in the great room.
Letting go a long
shiver, Blair, wrapped his feet closer in. “This is so not my idea of a
vacation. Why don’t you just call Vincent and tell him. Maybe we can all go
back down to the flat in London until the heat is fixed.”
“NO!” Day yelled,
getting tired of Blair’s logic. “Not until I find the ring. I just know it’s
out there. I just know it! And this is going to be one of my only chances to
find it!” He would not be swayed.
Blair watched the
fire leap and lick upward, wishing he could sit himself on those logs and be
consumed in the blaze, as cold and dejected as he felt. He was beginning to really
care for Damien St. Claire. He was so like the brother he never had or
childhood friend who never stayed too long in Blair’s peripatetic life. But,
and it was a big but to Blair right now, he could do without the stubborn,
pigheaded, one-track mind that was pulling both young men fast into more
trouble than either one could handle.
“Blair?” the quite
voice lacked the cocky-sureness that had plagued him all evening.
“What?” the
anthropologist asked not turning around.
“I’m sorry. Don’t be
angry with me. Vin always lectures me about responsibility and the right thing
to do and all that crap that puts people in boxes and ruts. I just don’t want
that with you. You know, man, I just want it to be different with you.” There
was so much longing in the small speech that Blair rolled over and faced the
young man lying on the couch a few feet above him.
“Day, we’re in for a
penny, we might as well be in for the pound.” Seeing the grin that spread
across the blonde’s face, he added, smiling himself, “Where do we start
tomorrow?”
That was enough to
set the dreamers off on plots and plans and locality…enough to wile away a good
chunk of the cold, bitter night.
“Oh, man, why didn’t
I see it before?” Day said, his voice
filled with happiness. He was laying on
his stomach, looking down through the floor of the gazebo, the fading sunlight
just revealing the glint of gold half buried in the dirt. “You’re amazing
Blair, fucking amazing.”
“Just saw the glint
as I was tying my shoe. Must have been
the right angle of the sun or something,” Blair said happily. At least they had
accomplished their goal. They would
have that to think about right before their lover’s killed them.
All morning the two
young men had dug small holes in the newly sodded lawn sloping down from the
terraced gardens towards the river. The lawn looked like it had been attacked
by a legion of ground hogs and moles, but neither Damien nor Blair seemed too
concerned about the state of the lawns.
“Now, how do we get
it out?” Blair asked, walking around
the structure. After retrieving a
hammer from the garage, they carefully pried several boards up, allowing Day to
jump down to the ground.
"NO!" he
yelled a second later.
"What's
wrong?" Blair asked, concerned.
"It's an
earring, some old gold earring," Day said, the disappointment clearly
evident in his voice.
Several minutes
later, the two friends were sitting on the edge of the gazebo, both too tired
and too depressed to move.
"I'm never going
to find it," Day said, softly.
Blair looked at him
and decided that the truth was probably the best, "I know Day," he
said nudging him, "I think we've looked everywhere. Judging by the state of the lawn, I think
we've dug up everything that beeped."
Day surveyed his once
pristine lawn. "Vin is going to
have my head."
"Yeah, well,
mine's going to be right next to it," Blair said with a laugh, knowing
that when their lover's saw the destruction, laughing would be the furthest
thing from their minds.
Day flopped
backwards, lying on his back staring at the ceiling. Neither man said anything until Day broke the silence, “Hey, Blair, look here,” he called to his
friend.
"What?"
"Come here,
what's this? He said, lying on his stomach, looking through the hole they had
made. He pointed to a semi-visible
outline of a square in the dirt.
"I don't know,
let's see."
After both lowering
themselves to the ground, they began to clear off the dirt around the
area. Half of it went under the edge of
the gazebo and was covered by the grass.
"What do you
think it is?" Day asked.
"I have no
idea," Blair said, "maybe a bomb shelter from World War II?"
Day smiled,
"Want to try to open it?" he asked with a laugh, mischief gleaming in
his eye.
Blair laughed,
"I don't know if we can. Plus,
that wall," he said, pointing to the north side of the gazebo, “is on top
of it."
"Oh, come on, a
little adventure, a little excitement.
I bet we can take a couple of the lower boards off and that'll give us
enough room to at least open it up and see what's inside."
Blair nodded, curious
and not seeing that it could be that big of a deal.
Another half hour wasted collecting tools and
equipment and it wasn’t until around three in the afternoon that the assault on
the Gazebo actually began. Walking down the slight hill from the house carrying
a crowbar, Day was stopped short.
There on the edge of
the lawns stood Mark Coletrane, hands on his hips, eyeing the lawns with a
puzzled look on his face.
“Day veered off track,
dropping the item. “Oh, Mark, hi, how’s it going?” Day started casually as
though torn up sod and mud piles were a common occurrence at Halcyon Heights.
“My God, Day, what
the hell happened here?” Coletrane looked like he could cry.
God, get a grip here, man, it’s lawn just fucking lawn, Day thought. Never one to understand the thrill of gardening,
a pleasure that Vincent was always trying to teach him, Damien liked his earth
natural and on the other side of the window.
“Just a little
accident, that’s all, Mark. Don't go all postal on me. Vin’s aware of it. We’re
looking for a gas leak,” partial truth is
always good, Day reminded himself.
“I got sidetracked
this week with the rain we had at the beginning. Vin said it would be fine to
do the lawn on Saturday.”
“Yes, yes that’s
fine, but just the front lawns, okay? Wouldn’t want the mower to hit that bad
line now would you. Puff!” Day accentuated the situation with a hand gesture
throwing the earth up in an explosion.
“Are you sure?” Mark
still didn’t quite buy the explanation, watching Blair move around the gazebo
with more tools.
“Did you call the gas
company?” the gardener asked.
“Of course we called
British Gas,” Day said exasperatedly.
“Look, do you want me to call Vin out, he’s painting, but if you
insist?” Day bluffed, laying his cards
face down on the table, praying to whatever gods looked out for brats.
Mark looked at him
strangely. He could have sworn that his lover, Peter Bailey, had mentioned Vin
was planning on a trip into London this week with his American friend. Vincent
had wanted to make sure Doc Bailey was in London, too, in case his friend
needed medical attention.
“Fine, Damien. I’ll
do the front and I’ll come back mid-week to finish up the back. How does that
sound?”
“Great, that’s super,
Coletrane, just super.”
Mark turned and
shaking his head at one last look at the ruined lawns, he went around to the
front of the house.
Running to pick up
his tool, Day hurried towards the gazebo, eager for his and Blair's adventure
to begin.
Jim sat on the small
garden swing. Lunch was over and Vin was demanding more introspection. A
mutinous look had shadowed his eyes momentarily, but rather than the command to
assume the position, he was sent outside to reflect in the garden.
Vincent had gone off
to make a phone call. He said he needed to check on the brats.
When Vincent entered
the garden, he didn’t seem too happy. “No answer. That’s odd. I told Day I
wouldn’t call until this evening, but he usually takes the phone with him when
he’s out sunning on the terrace.”
“It’s probably too
cold. Blair hates the cold and he won’t be too keen on sitting out if the
temperatures are as low as they said on the news this morning.” Then thinking
about it, he added, “Maybe they went off to do some shopping. I know Blair
likes trinkets, souvenirs of places he’s been.”
“Possibly,” Vin sat
looking at the flowers reflectively, but not really seeming assured by the
suggestion.
“I just know my brat
and I think you were right about them being up to something. I’ll just try
again later.” Coming over to Jim, Vin
motioned for him to rise. Vin seated himself on the swing and reaching up
pulled Ellison down on his lap. Jim twisted, still uncomfortable with the gesture,
fearing Patrick might show up.
“Sit!” Vin said
sternly. “I want to talk to you, Jim, before we go back inside and give you
more opportunity to express yourself.”
He could feel Ellison
relax, knowing that he was not one to pour out his soul, and Vincent almost
smiled at the simple shift in weight.
So alike all men in facing their demons, so eager to run away rather
than voice their fears and concerns, Vincent knew they sometimes needed a
push---a strong man to back them into a corner.
“I’m just concerned
that you’re not handling your brat right.”
Jim tried to pull
away, but Vincent held him firmly in place, raising a suggested hand near his
bottom in case he didn’t see the reason for sitting still.
“I can’t handle him the
way you do Damien. He wouldn’t respond well to that type of relationship and I
know he’d just up and leave if it came to an iron hand.”
“That might be true,
but I’ve seen him show a lot more attitude than I think is good in the
beginnings of even a mildly disciplinarian relationship. You’re only setting
him up for more hurt down the road. Are you afraid he won’t agree to continue
the relationship?” Vincent forced the issue, making Jim realize his own fears
in the commitment.
“No, if he says he
doesn’t want to continue, that’s fine, it’s his choice. I’ve always told him
that. I love him. I don’t care if he has a few faults, I love him for the
faults, too, but he admits he needs the guidance right now. We’ve had some
close calls these last few months and they could have been avoided if he didn’t
feel so unraveled.” Jim paused as though weighing his next words carefully. “He
wants me to discipline him, take him in hand, but he’s still afraid.”
Looking up at Vin’s
brown eyes, he continued cautiously, “He’s been expressing concerns about how
you handle Damien.”
Instead of the anger
Ellison was sure to see in the muddy eyes, Vincent looked down at him and burst
out laughing. It was a gut wrenching, belly laugh that had Ellison sitting up
thinking Vincent had lost his mind.
Tears were pooling in
the dark orbs and Vincent swiped at them with a huge hand. Coughing, trying to
regain some composure he looked at his friend, “I’m sorry, Jim, it’s just funny
from where I’m sitting, I guess. Day can appear to be the sweetest, gentlest
soul on the face of this earth. It’s so apropos he uses the Saint portion of
his last name in his e-mail name and all, and he’s that, I admit, but he’s a
lot more as well. Blair doesn’t know the brat that I know. Most times after he’s punished or awaiting
punishment, Day will accuse me of being too easy on him. I think he actually
wants the firm hand and if I ease up too much on him, he just keeps pushing
until I have to take him in hand again.”
Looking at Ellison,
he creased his brow in a query-like look of a teacher to a student, finally
asking the one question that’s really going to require some thinking. “Do you
think maybe even by his concerns for Day, that maybe Blair is asking you if
it’s the same kind of firm hand that he needs?”
“No,” Jim said a
little too quickly. Then seeing the look Vin gave him, he thought better of
such affirmation, “well, possibly, but I really don’t believe so, not yet
anyway.”
“Well, we’ll see. I
just think that if Blair truly felt Day was in an abusive relationship, he
would do everything in his power to get him away from me.” Vincent stood up, stretching the kinks from
his back. “Well, let’s concentrate on you again, Jimbo. Come on,” he called as
Ellison still sat there thinking through their conversation, “let’s get back to
you.”
The old gazebo was
barely recognizable. Damien, figuring the crawl space too tight for serious
digging, decided to upend some of the floorboards above. Structurally, it was a
bad idea. Several of the floorboards, which were initially removed with all
intentions of repositioning them when through, were rotted and held in place
with rusty nails. One more floorboard along the outer rim and half the railing
toppled as well.
Blair looked at his
friend growing concerned with the demonic possession that seemed to have
consumed Damien St. Claire. “Day, my God, the whole thing could topple down on
us if we remove any more boards.”
Day stopped prying at
one of the boards and seemed to only then realize how much had been destroyed. "Oh, wow," he muttered,
"Guess I was sort of taking my frustrations about my ring out on the
building here."
Blair gave a small
laugh, "Well, I guess it's cheaper than therapy."
As they finally eased
their bodies down into the space under the Gazebo, they realized they would
have had to bend from the waist to stand.
It was only a four-foot clearance above the soft earth. Day jumped
through the floorboards first, pulling the pick and shovel with him. Blair came
next with two flashlights. The earth
was much softer here in this corner.
Blair’s feet sunk into the thick mud. The earth didn’t get any sunlight
under this portion of the gazebo and no doubt the rainwater flowed freely here
coming down from the house and moving towards the river at the end of the
slope.
Damien started with
the shovel, but soon he hit something solid and hard. Picking up the pick he
stood up over the broken floorboards and angled back. Losing his balance he
tumbled backwards hooking the end of the pick onto some more boards, loosening
more of the flooring of the gazebo. “Ooops,” was his only comment on the
accident.
However, once
striking something hard, he could not be swayed. He leveled his pick again,
this time however he struck home. The pick was solidly imbedded in a large
object, no doubt made of wood. “Are you sure it’s not another gas line?” Blair
asked, looking very worried.
“No…you heard me ask
the British Gas worker if there were any other lines on the grass, he said
no…only around the house, through the garden and again out front. So, we’re
clear, man, home free here.”
“Now, are you going
to help me get this pick out or not?”
Blair laid his hands
on the pick and both young men pulled with all their might. So concentrated on
their efforts, they hardly felt the earth shift, the mud move beneath their
feet as a huge maw opened into the earth. Their last recollection was sliding
downward, Day sitting in Blair’s lap like two little kids on a bobsled ride,
gliding down a hill. Mark Coletrane who was riding the mower off towards the
long driveway could not hear the scream they both emitted in unison.
The time was six
o’clock, Saturday night, and the phone was ringing persistently inside the huge
Tudor home. A hundred miles away, two ex-military men were growing mildly
concerned.
Blair fought the
rising panic during the long slide downward. It wasn’t so much that they
traveled far, but that the angle was directly down. Injured bones would have
been unavoidable, except for the surrounding earth being mostly soft mud. It
did not keep them from landing on their bottoms with a heavy jarring. Day’s
head hit Blair’s chin, causing him to bite his lip. Day tumbled forward and hit
the side of the shaft that was shored up with boards. There was still enough
twilight filtering through the remaining floorboards of the gazebo above to
show both brats that they had fallen into a small, underground room.
Blair eased himself
up into a sitting position. “Are you all right?” he asked his friend.
Day rubbed his head
frantically. Touching a warm, sticky matting of hair, his voice quivered
slightly, “I think so, I’m bleeding though.”
Blair felt along the
pile of earth and planks that had accompanied them down into the shaft. When his hand hit the cold metal he eagerly
grabbed the cylinder. Lighting it
quickly, he aimed the beam at Day. Scooting over on his hands and knees, he
checked Day’s pupils. They were fine, but Day was not encouraged.
“I could have a
concussion,” he pouted, obviously feeling more vulnerable than Blair. He should be partnered with a cop, he’d get
used to the small hassles of life, liking getting shot at, roughed up by
rednecks, and jumping into waterfalls, Blair thought. This is kid’s stuff. However, when Blair aimed the flashlight
overhead, the child’s play was shelved in his mind. This was indeed serious
business. The gazebo had fallen in as well, a muddy mess rimmed the edges of
the hole, boards and earth teetered above. It was too high to climb out of;
yet, the simplest disturbance might bring the whole gazebo and all the
surrounding mud on top of them.
Once again, James
Ellison, detective in Major Crimes at Cascade Police Department was lying over
Vincent Cade’s knees. His butt bared and
vulnerable, red and warm he felt like a little kid in the hands of a loving and
devoted father. Embarrassed by the scenario, yet feeling relieved and open, he
still fought to hold back the one piece of information that weighed heavily
upon his soul.
“What else is
bothering you, Jim? You know what it is. You woke up last night because of
it.” Vincent waited patiently, the
paddle lying on the sofa next to him, ready to be picked up and used again. For
a quick moment his mind’s eye brought another figure over his knee, the one he
was growing more and more concerned with as time progressed. Realizing his
responsibilities to the man now positioned for his attentions, he pushed that
thought back for later analysis. He needed to give his friend his full attention
right now, but in a short bit, he would be more than willing to give his full
ministrations to Damien St. Claire.
“Vin, I’ve told you
everything I’ve felt or thought since this crime started. I can’t tell you
anything else. Let’s just let it go. Let’s forget it.” Ellison didn’t sound
very convincing. There was an underlying desperation in the speech, not for an
end to the paddling, but for the fear of discovery.
“Still not
cooperating, Jimbo. Still not aware of how this particular game is played.” Vincent
reached for the paddle. “Your problem is you’re still too much in control.”
Vin took a heavy and
deep inhalation of breath, steeling himself for the performance. He changed, as
though cloaking himself in another persona. “ENOUGH!” he yelled.
Ellison jerked in
surprise.
“I’VE HAD ENOUGH.
YOU’RE NOT IN CONTROL ANYMORE, MISTER. YOU HAVE NO CONTROL OVER ANYTHING.” With
that final, loud appraisal of the situation, Vin began a hard and rhythmic
assault on the uplifted globes. They were still red and stinging from
ministrations a few minutes before.
Jim began to cry
again at the fist stroke. “Vin, please.
It hurts.” Jim stated the obvious.
“I certainly hope so,
little boy,” Vin taunted. “I hope it stings. You want it to hurt, though, don’t
you?” Vincent asked, gauging the situation by far more than the reddened flesh.
“Don’t you?” he
yelled, delivering several extremely harsh blows.
“Yeessss,” the sob
escaped.
“Why, Jim. Just tell
me why?”
“Because I was happy
they were dead. When it was all over, I was happy it was them and not Blair. I
can’t forgive myself that selfish thought.” Ellison crumbled like a leaf,
brittle to the winds, dried up and lifeless, no more resiliencies in his spirit
to ward off the truth.
Vin pulled him up
quickly, turning him in his lap. Ellison began to cry like a man who had lost
his soul. He mourned his own humanity.
“Talk to me, Jimmy.
Talk to me.” Vincent spoke gently now. A man of many fragments to his whole, he
pieced them into place as the situation called for.
Jim buried his face
deep against the sturdy shoulder, grabbing pieces of the cable-knit Vincent
wore, he wanted to get inside this man, hide beneath him as though he could
find peace there.
“It wasn’t enough
being aware of how easy each and every one of them could have been Blair; it
wasn’t enough hating Blair for making me love him as I did; no, I had to
actually find happiness when it was all over that it was them and not
Sandburg.” He paused, taking the
handkerchief Vincent once again offered him.
Blowing his nose, wiping his eyes, he seemed to gain some composure.
“I remember looking
at their photos when Brickstone confessed. One final look to acknowledge who
and what they were. I’ve always done that after a case is closed. It’s like I
have to give them that one final audience, promising to remember them. But this
time,” the tears started fresh, he choked up, “this time, I remember looking at
them and smiling, thinking I’m glad it wasn’t Blair. Thanking them for being
the victims and sparing someone I loved.”
“Maybe it’s just time
I quit being a cop. I just know that’s not how a cop is supposed to feel.”
“Jim, you can’t
control thoughts like that. None of us can. When I was a Major, I took a
platoon into Viet Nam. We lost one man on that mission. I didn’t like him. He
was brash, and he had a chip on his shoulder. I felt terrible that I had lost a
man, he was my first casualty. And when it was over, I remembered sitting in a
bar and drinking myself into a stupor, because I was glad if I had to lose a man,
that it was him.” Vincent ran a tired hand across his face. Then seeing the blue eyes boring into him he
smiled.
“Yeah, Jimmy, we’re
human. We think things after a stressful situation that we can’t help. It just
comes to the forefront and we have no control over it. It doesn’t mean we are
bad. We don’t even mean it, I don’t think. I think it’s just our mind’s way of
dealing with situations we have no control over. Putting them into some kind of
sense, some semblance of order in the universe. If you couldn’t stop these men
from dying, you had to justify it with some counter balance in the light of
day. So the one good thing to you was it wasn’t Blair…you hung on to that
thought like a drowning man to a rope. Just as I did that day in Nam.”
Ellison slowly eased
himself from Vin’s lap. Sitting next to the solidly built ex-Lt. Colonel, he
felt small and helpless. Vin reached his arm around him and pulled him close,
resting his chin on the other’s head. “We’re not bad men, Jimmy. We’re just
survivors, hoping to rise up and fight again.”
The phone rang
loudly, shattering the silence of their reflection. Ellison straightened,
Vincent stood up, “It’d better be Day,” he ground out.
“Vin, how are you?”
Dr. Peter Bailey asked.
“Fine, Pete. I’m
sorry I didn’t call, but I won’t be needing your help this weekend. So if you
wanted to head back to Salisbury tonight, that’s fine.” He looked over at
Ellison assuring himself that his friend was fine and handling the revelations
well.
“Actually, that’s why
I was calling. Just to make sure you meant this weekend. Mark called me and
said he went over to Halcyon to cut your lawn. Day met him and said you were
home painting. I thought that was strange considering the state of the lawn and
the gazebo.”
Vincent Cade
straightened to his full six foot four inch frame. His eyes slit into fine
lines of burning fire. Ellison caught the look, wiped his eyes with the
handkerchief and rose as well. Something was wrong.
“What state?” Vincent
ground the words out like a wood chipper each syllable edged with concern,
harsh and demanding.
Damien was cold, wet,
and sore all over. The slide into the twenty-five foot pit had brought enough
debris down on their heads, to cause minor cuts and abrasions, but not enough to
climb out. There was still a deep side to the enclosure. Blair had deducted
that it must have been an old icehouse, used during the early twenties.
“I’m cold,” Damien
muttered for the umpteenth time, petulantly jutting his lower lip out.
“Well join the club.
You think you’re the only one uncomfortable,” Blair said, as he tried to stand.
A steady rain had started overhead. It was the icy chill of a frosty night,
picking up the cold winds from the river, it angled down between the broken
boards overhead and fell relentlessly.
Blair eyed the area,
the soft mud dripping along the side walls, the puddles that were starting to
fill the small area. His concerns right now were directed towards drowning.
“Day, we’re going to
have to start thinking of a way to get out of here. It rains a lot in England,
doesn’t it?”
“Yeah, especially
this time of year. Hey, let’s yell. Coletrane might still be here.”
At that, both men
started yelling in turns, “HELP!”
“HELP!”
They kept it up until
their throats were raw. They kept it up while hope still shined brightly in the
corners of their soul. They kept it up until the rains started pounding down.
Then in desperation they sank slowly into the mud, each lost in the misery of
his own self-realization.
“I’m sure you can handle
this car better than this,” Ellison grumbled hanging on for dear life as it
was. “Maybe I should drive,” he suggested, catching the harsh glare Cade threw
his way.
Cade was making the
drive in record time as it was, but he was well aware of Ellison’s penchant for
reckless endangerment when he was mad, upset or worried and behind the wheel.
“It’s ten, we should
be there in another twenty minutes. Here,” he took his cell phone out of his
breast pocket and handed it to Jim, “try Coletrane again. Then the house.”
Ellison repeated the
dialing procedure they had memorized since leaving the flat. Coletrane must
have gone to a pub after his week’s work was done and since his lover was out
of town. As concern grew, Ellison had to
restrain himself as well as Cade from calling in the police. It would have been
highly embarrassing for both young men, but he was just as concerned as Vin.
“I swear, Jim, if
he’s hurt or…” he slammed his palm against the steering wheel.
“You’ll take care of him
and forgive him,” Jim said logically, used to hearing the wild threats.
“Oh, I’ll take care
of him all right, but someplace where he’ll remember for quite some time the
fright he gave me.”
As they pulled in
front of the house, the only lights visible were from the living room. Both men rushed into the hallway and headed
directly for the large room. A fire glowed, barely alive now, illuminating a
pile of pillows and blankets so deep and so widespread, Cade froze on the step
into the room.
Then casting
concerned glances at each other, both men raced forward thinking that whatever
they were looking for must surely be trapped beneath the landslide of wool,
polyester, and down. The realization of
the icy coldness in the house finally struck them.
“It’s freezing in
here,” Cade noted, rubbing his hands together.
“DAMIEN!” he yelled.
“BLAIR!” Ellison
added.
Silence echoed the
hollow halls. The rain pelted against the windows increasing its fury.
“Jim, can you hear
them? Are they in the house?” Cade asked.
Jim’s face was drawn
from the self-introspection forced upon him these last two days. He stopped to
stair off into the distance, and then turned to Vin. “No, there’s no one in the house but us.”
“Can you try
outside? Do we need to go out there to
help you hear?” Vin asked, a little confused on exactly how his friend’s
hearing worked.
“Okay, but you need
to know something. I have periods when I zone out. When I focus so intensely on
one sense that I lose all others. You have to watch me and if it happens, you
have to call to me and bring me back. Can you do that?”
“Jim, right now I can
do anything I need to do to find Day and Blair.”
Walking to the window overlooking the back gardens, Jim concentrated. He heard the rain loud and persistent, then he heard the mewing of a cat. He turned to Cade.
“I can’t make out
much other than the rain, but I hear your cat.”
“Where is that stupid
animal? Maybe she is with them.”
“Outside, come on,”
Jim took off at a run and Vincent Cade was right behind him.
The mud was in his
hair, his mouth, every orifice seemed to ooze with the thick, black goo. Even
the heavy rain that was un-relentless had little effect on cleansing. Blair
cupped his hands together for the third time, leaning his sturdy frame up
against the shored off walls of the pit.
Twice before they had
tried this routine and twice before, like a circus act gone bad, they had
tumbled down into the water now at least three feet deep. The soft earth
beneath Blair’s feet only softened the more with the added weight of the blond
man. There was no way Blair could gain purchase on the soft earth to boost
Damien up to the edge of the hole.
“It’s no use,” Day
said, as he wearily placed his foot in Blair’s joined hands, “we won’t make it.
I’m cold and I want Vincent,” he moaned like a child demanding his mother.
“I’m cold, too, Day,
but giving up is not an option. The guys might not return until tomorrow. We
could drown down here before then, or be buried in a landslide of mud,” Blair
began teetering almost immediately as he tried to help Day up along the wall.
“Hold me, Blair, hold
me. I can’t take another dunking,” Damien whined.
“Then grab onto
something. You have to try harder. You’re not even trying, St. Claire,” Blair
was getting totally disgusted with Damien’s lack of resolve. For someone who
could not be swayed from his objective, for someone who wanted to win so badly
at everything he did, Blair could not believe how childishly reticent he could
be when placed in a dangerous situation.
Where Blair was used
to finding a steel-like shaft within his backbone when necessary, Day seemed
inclined only to complain and bitch. Sandburg’s quick thinking had saved him
just as often as Jim’s intervention.
Day tried to position
his shoe on Blair’s shoulder, but he was so intent on watching his feet, making
sure they were securely positioned, he made no attempt to grab high onto some
anchor. Teetering again, Blair tried to
remain steady, but the added weight with little or no assistance from Day made
it impossible to stay upright. Falling
back again, a loud splash echoed the enclosure as both young men were submerged
below the fast-filling pool.
They sputtered up
together. “God, I’m not doing anything, nothing else,” Damien whined, spitting
water from his mouth, mud plastered to his hair. He looked like a refuge from
the Titanic. “Vincent will come. I’ll
just wait for Vincent.” This was said firmly as he walked the short distance to
the corner and leaned back into it. The water was now up to both men’s waist.
Sandburg rose out of
the water, not like a bedraggled survivor, but with a rage at the
circumstances, the weather, and one very uncooperative friend.
He grabbed Day’s
shirtfront and pulled him forward, pushing him back against the corner of the pit.
“You listen to me, Damien St. Claire, you are not going to sit here on your
laurels and wait for anybody. We don’t have that option. I’m sure Vin and Jim
will come. I’m also sure we’re going to regret our actions today, but I am not
going to let you sit here feeling sorry for yourself.” The hazel eyes rebelled. First slitting into
small windows of contempt. The blue eyes narrowed as well, each fighting the
silent battle for power.
It was Day who
finally broke eye contact first. Looking at the rising water around them, the
quivering blue lips of his friend who was trying to help them, he felt a moment
of shame. Biting his lower lip, he nodded in acquiescence.
“Good. Now take a few
minutes to think. Help me find a way out of here,” Blair said, releasing his
shirt.
The soft mewling was
the only sound Jim could discern with the harsh pounding rain. Rushing out into
the night, Vin on his heels, he tripped as soon as he hit the lawns.
Vin helped him up and
looked angrily around, the lights from the large window in the living room
highlighting the lumps and clumps of sod and dirt piled everywhere. It looked
like small land mines had been set off sporadically around the grounds.
“Damn it,” Vin
growled, “what the hell happened here? Mark wasn’t exaggerating.”
“Come on,” Jim said,
testing his leg. “This way.”
Desi was walking back
and forth in the rain along the side of what used to be a gazebo. Now, though
still standing, it was lopsided and structurally skeletal. Large portions of
the side railings and trelliswork along the bottom, and floorboards, were
pulled up and angled off. Jim’s first
impulse was to run up into the Gazebo, but his foot landed on the step and
Sentinel hearing took over. The whole structure trembled, the frame squeaking
in protest against the added weight.
Extending a hand to
stop Cade who was just as determined to find his brat, Jim pushed him back.
“It’s weak. Wait a minute.” Now he could hear it. It was the one sound that
centered him in the entire world. This was the one sound that assured him of
his own place in things. Sandburg’s heartbeat, steady and strong, called out to
him. The other one was picked up as well, but this one was accompanied by a
soft hitching sound, someone very much upset.
“BLAIR!” Jim called
out.
“JIM!” the answer
came back to him. “JIM, WE’RE UNDER THE GAZEBO.”
“I’M COMING.” Jim
called back.
“Vin, go get a sturdy
rope, maybe some planking if you have it.”
Before Vin followed
instructions, he stooped low looking under the gazebo, past the broken trellis
to the large patch of mud under the broken floorboards, “DAY! Is Damien all
right?”
“VIIIINNNNNNN!” a
loud wail pierced the night. It was so shrill that Ellison cringed at the
assault to his senses.
“ARE YOU ALL RIGHT,
DAY?” Vin still was not assured.
“I’m COLD, I’m WET,
I’m MISERABLE…”
“ENOUGH! I’m COMING!”
and Vincent Cade took off to collect the necessary objects.
The brats were both
dressed in flannel pajamas. The brand new clothes were still in their plastic
wrappers, gifts Cade had received through the years, not recognizing his need
to sleep in boxers and a T-shirt only. Blair wore a blue plaid pair. Freshly
showered in the remaining hot water left in the gas hot water tank, he was now
wrapped in a blanket seated on one end of the couch drinking a hot cup of
cocoa.
Damien, similarly
dressed and ministered to, wore red pj’s with bright yellow flags on them. He
sat on the other end of the couch holding his mug to his lips like a petulant
child none-to-thrilled with his treat.
Seated in the armchair
next to Blair, Jim leaned forward his hands on his thighs trying to watch both
boy’s faces as Vincent Cade marched up and down in front of the raging fire. He
had banked it and fed it nicely as no doubt his own temper was fuming as well,
while the brats were securely wrapped for an audience.
“I cannot believe
you,” Vin shouted, catching both young men in his glare, “either one of you.”
Blair had the good
instincts to look down into his mug, brushing his still damp locks behind his
ears. Day, never one to sit patiently through one of Cade’s scoldings, daringly
stared back at the man, his mouth forming a tight line of anger.
“Do you have
something to say, little boy,” however Vin raised his hand before the blond
could answer, “well, of course you do. You always have some kind of
explanation. You are the database of explanations for the whole brat population
of the world, aren’t you?” Vincent ranted.
"Shut the fuck
up, Vin!" Day yelled, "I'm cold, I'm tired, and I sure as hell am NOT
in the mood to be lectured!" He
stood up, knocking the blanket that was around him from his shoulders, slamming
his drink down on the table. Standing
there he glared at his lover.
Vincent looked right
back, then taking a deep breath to calm himself, he replied, "And I, little
boy, am not in the mood to be fishing you out from an abandoned ice house in
the freezing rain, worried sick about you.
Not to mention dragging someone out with you and putting them in
danger."
At that comment,
Blair who was sitting there in awe of his friend standing up to his lover,
jumped into the conversation, "Hey, wait a minute. I didn't get dragged anywhere…"
"Blair, stay out
of it," Jim ordered.
"No way,
man. This is important. I went willingly with Day. I am as much of a
participant as he was."
Day flashed Blair a
grateful smile for his loyalty before returning to look at his lover, a
sarcastic smirk on his face.
Vin took another deep
breath and briefly closed his eyes, then walking purposely toward Day, he said,
"Come on, little boy. I am in no
mood to deal with your attitude, your language or this whole
situation." Gripping his arm
firmly, he frog-marched a protesting Damien toward one of the far corners of
the room. "Plant yourself there
until you can find a more civil attitude.
You are already in enough trouble, Demon, I know you don't want to get
in any more."
Day opened his mouth
as if to say something but a hard swat to his bottom and a simple 'don't' from
Vin seemed to change his mind. He
turned and faced the corner, arms crossed, an air of anger rippling off of him.
From his chair, Blair
also seethed. "Vin," he said
angrily, upset by the treatment of his friend and the unfairness, as he
perceived it. "Don't you dare
punish Day for getting me involved, I went willingly, I helped, I encouraged, I
am to blame as much as he is.
You…"
"Blair!"
Jim barked, standing up and towering over his lover. "This is not your business."
"Shut up,
Jim! I can say what I want and I can
stand up for what I believe. You can’t
control that and he" Blair said jerking his head in contempt toward Vin,
"can't lord over me like he does you and Day. I DO NOT see him as the end all of how I should behave." His rant finished, and now facing his angry
lover and an annoyingly amused host, Blair seemed to sink back into his
chair.
"Little
boy," Vin said calmly, "Damien is being punished for how he spoke to
me. He is not being punished for
getting you involved. I allow
disagreement, but I do not allow cursing or being disrespectful to your
partner. Damien knows that and he knows
that he can face the corner until he gets his attitude in check and is willing
to discuss what happened calmly.
Now," he said pausing, "what your lover allows is different
matter entirely."
Holding out his hand
to Blair, Jim said, "Come on, I want to talk to you."
"What if I don't
want to talk to you?" Blair said sullenly, burrowing slightly more into
his blankets.
"Well, you have
a choice; you can either come with me so we can talk or I can haul you out of
that chair, put you over my knee and spank you and then we can talk." Looking at his partner, he added, "I
would think the first option is the best."
"Those choices
suck, Jim."
"So does your
attitude right now and if you keep it up, option number one is going to be
gone."
"Fine, fine,
fine." Blair said, throwing off the blankets and stomping down the hall
where Jim had indicated.
Jim sighed and shook
his head at his lover's back.
As he passed Vin, the
older man gently grabbed his arm, "Jim, he is working things out, trying
to deal with the conflicting sides of what he sees, what he thinks he should
feel and what he actually does. He
needs a firm hand and he may not like it, but he knows he needs it. You just have to let him figure that out for
himself. Suaviter in modo, fortiter in
re---gentle in manner, firm in deed."
"Thanks, I'll
try." He gestured toward Day who was cautiously turning around,
"looks like you have your own brat to deal with."
Vin nodded,
"Give me about 15 minutes before coming back in here, if you would."
"Sure, no
problem. I think it will take that long
with Blair, too. He may be
contemplating his actions in a corner as well."
"It works
well. Bring him back in here though -
don't want a Blair-icle in the dining room." Vin added just as Jim was
turning to follow his lover, "Jim, I do want to talk to you about the
punishment for these two. I want to
make sure we're on the same page. Maybe
when they've gone to bed."
Jim nodded,
"OK."
As Vin watched his
friend walk down the hall heading toward the dining room, he mentally steeled
himself for dealing with his own lover.
Turning back toward the corner, he said, "Are you ready to
talk?"
Day nodded, "I'm
sorry I cursed at you earlier and that I yelled at you."
Sitting down on the
loveseat, Vin held open his arms, “Come here, Demon."
Day hurried over and
almost threw himself into the waiting arms, gripping the front of Vin's shirt
as he curled up.
Bringing the blanket
over from the back of the couch, Vin draped it over both of them, tucking it in
snuggly around his lover. "You are
still cold,” he muttered, pulling Day in closer.
"What do you
expect, you made me stand in the corner," Day said, exhaustion creeping
into his voice.
"Little boy, you
are lucky that you were not standing there with a soapy mouth and a red bottom
after the way you talked to me."
"I know, I'm
sorry. I just got all mad. You were mad, Jim probably will never let me
near Blair again, not that Blair would want to come near me after I got him in
so much trouble. I didn’t want to tell
you I lost your ring and I’m so sorry for that. It means more than anything that you wanted to give it to
me. I couldn’t help myself; I had to
wear it.”
“Well my little
demon, we are in this relationship to maybe get you to start trying to help
yourself when something tempts you.
Right?”
Day nodded, knowing
where this conversation was going and not liking it.
“And you’ve been
doing good about thinking before you do something. Haven’t you?”
Day nodded again,
“I’m trying, I swear I am. I just
forget sometimes.”
“I know and I know
that we are going to be spending this week making sure that you don’t forget
anytime soon. I think spending tomorrow
on punishment detention will help. The
last month or so, you seem to be forgetting more and more---the painting, your
tantrum over not winning, the argument you got into with Mark, just to name a
few.”
“I know and I’m
sorry,” he burrowed his head in deeper and gripped Vin’s shirt tightly. “Don’t be mad at me.”
Vin hugged him close
and kissed his head, “Little boy, I love you more than anything in the
world. I may be frustrated with you, I
may look forward to turning you over my knee and impressing upon you just how
displeased I am with you, but I am not mad at you.”
“Are you going to
spank me tonight?” Day asked a few
minutes later.
“No, not
tonight. Tonight, I am going to get you
tucked into that nest of blankets by the fire with the rest of us. I’ll paddle you tomorrow morning after
breakfast. Sometime this week, I think
we are going to be going down to Bath to see Levi, you need a new paddle and I
think after this stunt, Jim is going to want to go shopping with Blair.”
Day nodded, not
saying anything, simply enjoying being held, being close to his lover.
In the dining room,
Blair was pacing around, hands waving in angry gestures in a futile attempt to
get Jim to agree with him. “But, Jim,
it’s not fair. I was as much as a willing
participant in this as Day, Vin shouldn’t punish him for getting me involved.”
Jim leaned casually
back on the table, arms crossed, “Blair, stop for a minute and listen to
me.” When the younger man barely
paused, Jim uncrossed his arms, reached out and snagged his partner. Pulling him down across his body, Jim
delivered two hard swats to his partner’s bottom. “I said to stop.”
Blair glared at him
when he was allowed up, “Fine, I’ve stopped, stopped trying to defend a friend’s
actions, stopped speaking my mind and voicing my opinion even though you swore
to me that you would never use our relationship or our agreement to do that to
me!” Blair’s voice rose until he was almost screaming, “You swore to me and you
did it anyway! I knew this wasn’t going
to work! I knew you were trying to
change who I am!”
Jim looked at his
partner in almost shock. He had no idea
where this was coming from and didn’t know how to handle it. He reached out, “Blair…”
“Don’t touch me! You swore to me that you wouldn’t change who
I am but you have and you are going to keep doing it!”
“Blair, I have no
idea what you are talking about,” Jim said, trying to keep his emotions under
control, figuring that at least one of them should. “Explain to me what you mean.”
“No” Blair spat out,
“I don’t have to explain anything to you, you’ve changed me and you swore you
wouldn’t. I don’t even want to talk to
you right now. Get away from me!”
“Fine, you don’t want
to talk. Great, we aren’t going to talk,
but I am not going to let you go stomping off by yourself. We have an agreement and this tantrum of
yours is out of hand.” With that, he
grabbed Blair’s arms and moved toward the door back to the living room.
“Let go of me! You are not going to spank me! You…”
“Be quiet,
Blair. No, I’m not going to spank you,”
Jim said, still pulling the other man back toward the living room, “but you are
going to stand in the corner until you calm down enough to speak to me like a
rational person. I am not going to
listen to you ranting without an explanation.”
“Jim…” Blair began,
indignantly.
“Don’t speak to me in
that tone of voice, Sandburg,” was all Jim said.
"I hate
you! Get off me! You promised and you lied to me!" Blair continued to yell as he was walked
into the living room, still pulling and struggling to get out of Jim's
grasp. "You lied to me and I
thought I could trust you and I can't!"
That final revelation seemed to break the younger man, tears sprang up.
Jim stopped for a
moment, and looked at his partner in amazement, "Blair," he said
gently, reaching out to comfort him, "Talk to me, I don't know what you
mean, I don't know what I did to get you so upset, I swear to you, I haven't
tried to change you. I love
you."
"Don't say
that!" he yelled again, twisting to break free.
"Fine," Jim
said, his patience gone. "When you decide to talk to me, I will be willing
to listen, But, until then, you can
stand in the corner and get yourself back under control. I refuse to deal with you when you are
acting this way."
Pulling the still
struggling Blair into the living room, past a startled Vin and Damien, Jim
pushed him into the far corner that Day had recently vacated.
"I hate
you," Blair spat out, "you lied to me."
"Well, you know what,
Chief, you are not my favorite person right now either. Now, I seriously suggest you shut your mouth
and let us both calm down."
The two men locked
eyes until Blair broke first and turned and faced the wall.
Vin and Day sat on
the loveseat, stunned.
Vin spoke first,
"Jim, come with me please."
Leaning down as he stood up, he whispered to Damien, "Speak with
Blair little boy and find out what's going on."
Damien nodded, still
shocked by the amount of anger and raw emotions that had been displayed just
moments ago.
Jim followed Vin up
the step and down the hall into the kitchen.
Once there, Vin leaned against the counter and simply said,
"Explain to me what just happened."
Jim sighed, and
rubbed his hands over his face, "Honestly, I don't know Vin. We were in the dinning room and Blair was
going on and on about how he was a willing participant in the little stunt this
weekend and how it wasn't fair that Damien was going to be punished for his
actions. I was trying to tell him that
he was in deep trouble too and I didn't think that Day was in much, if any
trouble, for bringing him into it but he wouldn't stop. I told him to stop a couple of times but he
wouldn't so, as he passed me, I reached over, grabbed him, bent him across my
lap and gave him a couple swats. They
weren't that hard, more just to get his attention than anything else."
Vin nodded,
"Yeah, I do that with Day sometimes when he isn't listen"
Jim barely
acknowledged what Vin had said, lost in replaying the scene in the dinning room,
"He seemed to lose it. He went off
on how I was changing him even though I promised I wouldn't and he said that I
was and I was going to keep doing it.
And.." he took a deep breath, his voice shaking slightly with the
hurt, "he said he hated me. He's
never said that before to me." He
fell silent for a minute then added in a quiet voice, "what if he really
means it."
Vin pulled him into a
quick hug, "He doesn't mean it, little boy, he is upset and hurt about
something and wants you to be the same.
Don't worry, we'll figure it out and get through it."
In the living room,
Day got up from the loveseat and approached his friend, "Blair?" he
asked cautiously.
"Go away, Day, I
don't want to talk to you."
"I think you
might feel better. Just tell me what's
going on? What happened?"
Blair turned from the
corner, "Jim tried to change who I am and he's done it and I'm not going
to let him do it anymore. Being in a
discipline relationship might work for you and I'm glad but it's not who I am. I don't want to be changed, I'm happy with
who I am." With that, he turned and faced the corner again.
"Ummm….
Okay." Day said. He stayed there a
few more minutes and then walked into the center part of the house to wait for
Vin. Peaking down the hall into the
kitchen, he caught Vin's eye.
Vin motioned for him
to come in. "What did he say,
Damien?"
"Ummm" Day
said, looking between Jim and Vince, "He says he doesn't want to be in a
discipline relationship and that Jim is trying to change who he is and he's
happy with who he is." Then
looking between them again, he added, "But, he's still standing in the
corner. Which would seem to me to
indicate that he still wants to be in your relationship, but is scared. That's how he seemed to me, scared about
something."
"Day, do you
think he's scared that he is really going to be punished for your actions this
weekend?" Jim asked.
Day blushed, "We
both knew we were in trouble yesterday and he didn't seem overly
concerned. I mean," he said
glancing at Vin, "neither one of us is looking forward to being paddled
but he didn't seem to say anything that seemed weird."
Vin nodded,
"Okay, I'm going to go talk to him and get what's bothering him
out." As he pushed off from the
counter, he said to Jim, "And, Jim, if I even get the hint that you are
listening in, I swear, I have a strap upstairs and I will use it on you so hard
and so long that you will be feeling it next week when you leave. Understand me?"
Jim nodded,
"Yeah, I got it."
Damien jumped in,
"Come on, Jim, we'll go back into Vin's studio and I'll show you some of
his new stuff. This way you won't even
be tempted to try to listen.
Okay?" Slightly tugging the
other man's arm, Day led him through the swing door that separated the kitchen
from the breakfast room and Vin's studio.
Vin watched as they
went through the door and then walked upstairs to the tower room. Opening a drawer in a low cabinet, he
studied the instruments inside.
Deciding finally on a small paddle with more sting and noise then actual
pain, he carried it back down to the kitchen.
Pouring a glass of water and adding ice, he carried both into the living
room. Setting the paddle down on the
couch, he carried the glass over to Blair who was still standing nose to the
corner. He was hunched over slightly as
if in pain, his arms wrapped around offering himself comfort.
"Blair,"
Vin said softly, turning him around but the shoulder, "here, drink
this. You need to calm down."
From the look of
Blair's face, he has been crying since the argument. He tried to turn away, embarrassed to be seen, but Vin wouldn't
let him. Taking the glass, he sipped a
little before handing it back to the older man.
"Come on, son,
let's sit down and talk and figure out what's going on."
"I don’t want to
talk. Jim lied…."
Vin held up a hand,
"No. Stop. First rule, we are going to talk, but first
we are going to sit down on the couch.
Second rule is that you have to explain yourself, not just make general comments
like 'Jim lied' or 'Jim's trying to change me.’ Now, come on, let's sit down and we will talk."
Blair allowed himself
to be lead over to the couch, his eyes widened when he saw the paddle sitting
there, pulling away, he said, "You are not going to paddle me."
Grabbing the other
man again, Vin’s voice grew hard and no-nonsense. "Not if you talk to me.
If you don't talk to me, then I will take whatever action I feel is
appropriate to get you to talk."
With that said, he placed the glass on the table within easy reach and
sat on the couch. Pulling the
unresisting man down with him and settling him on his lap, he wrapped his arms
around him and held him tightly.
Blair sat stiffly,
not wanting to relax into the comfort that seemed so natural to accept.
"Now, little
boy, tell me what's going on in that head of yours."
"Jim is trying
to change me. He's done it already and
I don't want to be changed."
"How, little
boy?" Vin asked softly, one hand rubbing Blair's back in an effort to get
him to relax some.
Blair bit his lip as
his eyes filled with tears again and simply shook his head.
"Blair,"
Vin said, his voice growing sterner, "I asked you a question and I expect
an answer: how did Jim change
you?"
Blair shook his head
again, slightly this time, but still not answering.
"Okay, little
boy, I guess we are going to do this the hard way." Quickly, with the ease of someone long
accustomed to the action, he stood Blair up and then resettled him face down
across his knees.
Feeling himself in a
position he knew too well, Blair screamed and began to struggle,
"NO!! STOP!! You can't do this! Jim won't let you! Jim is
the only one who can spank me!!"
"No, little boy,
you told him that you didn't want that sort of relationship with him, so I am
treating you like a houseguest, a friend of mine, who is being rude, and acting
like a brat when we are trying to help him.
Jim has nothing to do with this."
In the studio, Jim
shuddered and gripped the edge of the table he was standing next to at the sound
of his lover's scream.
"It's okay,
Jimbo," Day said quietly, "You know how it is. You know he has to fight some and let
whatever is bothering him boil out of him before you two can fix it. You know Vin won't hurt him."
Jim nodded, not saying
anything, willing himself to dial down his hearing as low as possible and
concentrate on the scenes of beauty around him and not focus on the other room.
Back in the living
room, Vin had wrapped one of his legs around Blair's to hold him down, a strong
arm was around his waist to keep him close, "Now little boy, are you going
to talk to me or not."
Blair did not answer,
only struggled as little as he could against the strong arms holding him down.
"Your
choice." With that, Vin tugged
down Blair's pajama bottoms and underwear until both were well below his now
bare butt. Leaning over slightly, he
grabbed the paddle from the cushion next to him and raising his hand high,
brought is down sharply on Blair's exposed bottom.
Blair screamed long
and hard, much longer than the simple swat deserved. Vin knew he was screaming and struggling against something much
greater but until he told him what it was, he would be unable to help him. Delivering three more stinging swats, all to
the center of the exposed bottom, he laid the paddle down again and began to
rub the red spots. "Tell me how
Jim changed you, little boy," he said gently.
Blair was sobbing as
if his heart was breaking, "I need him," he said through the thick
sobs.
"What do you
mean, 'you need him'?"
"I need him to
be there for me," Blair said, still crying. "Please let me up, I don't want to talk anymore."
"I'm sorry,
Blair, but we are going to talk. Does
that scare you that you need him to be there?"
Blair did not answer,
only laid there and cried.
Sighing, Vin picked
up the paddle again and gave the bare bottom a half dozen stinging swats
scattered across the surface before Blair finally yelled out "YES!"
"Why?" Vin
said, not putting down the paddle, "You love him. He loves you, you need each other."
"I don't
know."
Vin raised the paddle
and brought it down hard several times, saying, "Don't give me that,
little boy. You know why. So tell
me."
Blair was sobbing
hard.
Vin put down the paddle,
and lifted the younger man up and situated him on his lap. Blair hugged him tightly and cried. Vin stroked his back and said quietly,
"Tell me, little one, tell me what's got you so upset."
In a quiet voice
filled with tears, he said, "I need him to be more than just my
lover. I need him to keep me in line
and I hate that." That admission
seemed almost too much for him and he cried harder, struggling to get away,
"Please let me up, please let me go and handle this by myself."
Vin hugged him closely,
"No, you are right where you need to be.
You don't need to go and handle this by yourself."
"But before Jim,
I could have handled it by myself. I
was strong and self-reliant and I didn't need anyone telling me what to
do. I was independent and my own
person. But now…." His voice
trailed off, the tears still going, the self-hatred so evident to Vin.
"Blair, you are
still strong and self-reliant and your own person. Did Jim change you in that way."
Blair nodded but
didn't say anything.
"How?" Vin
asked gently.
Not answering, Blair
shook his head.
Vin sighed and after
pulling Blair's hands free from his shirt, he quickly flipped the younger man
over again. This time delivering two
hard swats with his hand, he said, "Blair, talk to me. Do I need to use the paddle again?"
Still face down,
Blair talked. "During this case, when Jim was so tied up, and upset and I
couldn't reach him, he was so distant and I couldn't reach him."
"Yes," Vin
said encouragingly, rubbing his back with a large hand.
Blair continued,
"I could feel myself after a couple of weeks almost testing him, doing
stuff that I knew I shouldn't just to see what he would do! I was causing stress for him just to get a
reaction out of him! Have you ever
heard of anything so selfish, my lover is hurting and instead of helping him, I
am causing him more grief. What sort of
horrible person would do that! I would
never have done that before we got into this relationship and I hate it."
"Okay," Vin
said.
"Jim changed me,
he turned me into this horrible person who needs him, who is dependent on him,
who wants him to have some control over his life! He swore to me that he wouldn't change me but he did!" Blair broke down again, the anguish and
self-loathing that he felt toward himself coming to the forefront. "I don't want to have the same
relationship that you and Day have, I want to be my own person and I want to be
independent. I'm sorry, I know it's
right for you and him, but I'm scared of it.
I'm scared of giving Jim too much control because what if he leaves me
or dies or something and then I'll be left alone and I can't need him that much
or be too dependent on him because even now, I don't think I could stand it if
something happened and he wasn't there any more." The last of his fears spilling forth in one
long cleansing breath shook his body with tremors.
Scooping up Blair
again and holding him close, Vin slowly rocked him, rubbing his back, allowing
him to cry out his fears.
"Shhhhhh, it's okay, little one.
Let it out. That's an awful big
fear to have kept to yourself, no wonder you are all upset. Shhhhhh, we can deal with it." Slowly
rocking the younger man clinging to him, Vin thought about his next step.
Vincent sat with Blair for some time. Gently stroking the distraught young man’s back he held him as any man would hold a confused and frightened child. Slowly rocking back and forth, interjecting a “shhhing” sound when he knew nothing else could console his guest.
When Blair had
settled down enough, Vincent pulled him up, “Come on. You need to get to bed.”
Helping the
anthropologist up, he walked him over to the cocoon of blankets and comforters
and pillows. Leaving him standing on
his own long enough to make two separate beds in front of the hearth, he
positioned one of the numerous pillows down in the middle and helped the
pajama-clad younger man down.
Pulling the covers up
and over him, he brushed the hair away from his eyes.
“Where’s Jim?” Blair
said, still needing the man he loved more than life itself.
“He’ll be along,
shortly. He’ll be right next to you, here. Just rest. Let it go and give
yourself up to sleep. Lord knows you’ve had a trying day. The Demon can try the
best of men.”
He saw a small smile
twist itself into view, despite the red eyes and tear-stained cheeks. “He does
have a way about him,” Blair said, though there was a fondness in the
accusation.
“He has a way all
right, but his way usually heads him towards hell.”
Blair yawned and
nodded his head as he turned towards the fire, hugging the pillow. Before
Vincent could even say “good night,” he was fast asleep.
Vincent found Jim and
his brat having a half-hearted discussion about heating problems in old homes,
nothing as obvious as over-zealous gardeners digging up gas lines, but Damien
seemed to like to bitch and moan about things he knew little about.
“Jim, he’s sound
asleep, but I wouldn’t push him for any answers just yet. He’s dealing with a
lot of fears and self-recriminations right now. I don’t think he can even pinpoint exactly what’s gotten him so
upset. I think I need to sleep on
it.” Then looking at his own brat,
eager-eyed and no doubt glad that all attention was taken off him for a short
while, he narrowed his gaze.
“I need to think on
Damien’s punishment, too. Both our boys have been through a great deal today. I
think all of us could use a good night’s rest.” Damien smiled, glad for the reprieve. However, when Vin jerked
his thumb towards the door, Day ran like the fires of hell were lapping at his
heels.
Shaking his head at
the antics of his beloved, he smiled at Jim. “Don’t worry, I think I have a
good grasp on Blair’s problem and I think I know just the way to make him see
it more clearly.”
Extending an arm out
he put it around Jim’s shoulder and both men followed after Damien. The fair-haired young man was already
crawling beneath the blankets next to Blair.
Jim took his place on the outer side near Blair and Vincent eased his
tired frame down next to Damien, sandwiching the two younger men in for the
night.
It wasn’t long before
Vincent Cade could discern the even, restful sounds of three exhausted men at
peace. Only then, with a firm plan set in his mind, did he join his comrades in
the distant land of dreams.
The next morning,
Blair awoke to the tempting smells of coffee, sausages, scrambled eggs and
English Muffins. The cold house was
quite the deterrent for rising, but someone had rebuilt the fire in the hearth
and there were extra blankets wrapped around him. He also noted that a chair had been placed near the large hearth
and on it his jeans and a cable knit sweater were toasting just for him. Jim, he thought, you know how I hate the cold. Thanks, man.
“Good morning,
sleepyhead,” Jim said from behind him.
Rolling completely
over, not yet willing to abandon the nest, he saw Jim sitting on the sofa
hugging a hot mug of coffee, still steaming. He was dressed in jeans and a
thick, Irish-cable-knit sweater, the chilly English morning obviously even
piercing Ellison’s thick skin.
“Good morning,” he
yawned and stretched beneath the covers like a cat preparing himself for the
tortures of dressing in a cold room.
“Come on, Chief, it’s
not as bad as it looks. Once you have your clothes on, it’s actually quite warm
in here.”
“Morning, Blair!”
Day’s voice reached him from far behind Jim.
“Good morning,
Blair,” Vin’s deeply resonant voice followed.
Blair winced at Vin’s
voice, no doubt recalling the appropriately childish measures he needed to
employ last night to bring him under control.
Jim noted the
embarrassment. “Come on, Sandburg. It’s a new day.”
Vin took the cue.
Rising, he headed towards the hallway. “I think I’ll get a plate ready for
Blair. Make sure he has a nice hot cup of coffee ready for him, Day,” he called
over his shoulder as he left the room.
Damien immediately
took the pot from the electric coffee maker that they had set up in the living
room and eagerly took a cup over to his friend. Blair was sitting up, still
wrapped in the blankets.
“Here ya go, Blair,” Day
said cheerfully, obviously not the least bit perturbed over the threatened
punishment due him this morning.
“Thanks,” Blair said.
Instead of leaving,
Day sat down on the couch next to Jim.
He watched Blair sip
the hot liquid. “You know, Blair, it’s really okay.”
Blair put his cup
down on the quilts, holding it between both hands. He looked up questioningly
at his friend, then at Jim. Jim nodded his head in concurrence.
“I’m going to get it,
but I’m okay with it and you should be, too. I just want it to be over with. I
want to know I’ve been punished and I’m forgiven.”
Blair didn’t answer
for the longest time; instead he looked at Jim as though he held the answers.
Turning to Day, Jim
offered him the support he wanted from Blair. “You’ll be fine,” and he patted
his knee as he rose, deciding maybe Blair felt awkward in front of him, he
added, “I think I’ll help Vin in the kitchen, Chief. He might not be aware of
your terror of cholesterol.”
“Very funny, very
funny,” Blair said.
When they were alone,
Blair pushed the hair behind his ear, and decided to say what was on his mind.
“I guess I kind of made a fool of myself last night. I never realized how eagerly you can search your soul when you’re
over someone’s knee.”
“Vin really cares,
Blair, that’s why he pushes and forces the issues. He’s only trying to help you
and me and Jim. You have to learn not to fight it so much. Just be happy in your relationship with Jim
and you should even be happy that Vin cares enough to back you into a corner.
I’ve seen him just write people off he doesn’t feel are worth his efforts.”
“I know. I guess I
haven’t been the best houseguest in the world.”
“I’m having a great
time,” Damien said happily, apparently not upset in the least about what the
day held for him.
After breakfast, Jim
volunteered them for KP Duty. Collecting the trays and dishes, he and Blair
headed for the kitchen. Damien and Vincent remained in the living room, to
conduct the promised business of the day.
Once privacy was insured,
Vincent said in a matter of fact voice, “Go get it.”
Damien hesitated for
a brief moment, but a hard look from Vin sent him hurrying out of the living
room and up the stairs. Moments later
he returned with the paddle.
“Okay, little boy,
you know the why’s and the wherefores and the how comes. Do you have any
questions or anything you want to say on your behalf.” Vincent sat on the sofa, as he took the
paddle from Damien.
“I just loved it,
Vin. It was so beautiful and sentimental and I don’t even care if you paddle
me. I feel miserable over having lost it.”
“Well, little boy,
all you had to do was come to me and tell me. A simple little, ‘Vin, I’m sorry,
I snooped like I shouldn’t have and then I took a ring that I really had no
idea was going to be mine, I wore it and I lost it.’ Vincent looked at his very
miserable lover.
“You still would have
spanked me,” he mumbled.
“Oh, yes, indeed, but
not as severely as you are going to get it now.”
“I don’t care. I want
another one, Vin.”
“Whoa, hold on, you
do not dictate to me, little boy. I’ve told you that there are two things you
really have to break yourself of. One is the need to win all the time, the
other is your insatiable curiosity into things that do not concern you.”
“But this was my ring,
Vin. You were going to give it to me. I just wanted to wear it for a little
while. Show Mark that I wasn’t just a boy toy.”
“What?” Vincent
asked, unsure he heard his significant other correctly.
Day had the good
grace to look down at his shoes as he scuffed the threads on the large area rug
in front of the hearth. “A boy toy. That’s what he thinks I am. Just a
brainless boy toy. He’s always thought that. Just because his mom and I were
close.”
“I can’t deal with
that right now, Damien. I’m not even sure this is a legitimate complaint.
Knowing you, you are simply trying to confuse the issues and get leniency and
it is NOT going to work.”
Damien’s face dropped
in a short veil of anger and disappointment, confirming Vincent’s suspicions that
his little imp was once again trying to run rings around him.
“Drop them and over
my knee. NOW!” Vincent took on the voice of authority. It was the angry,
no-nonsense voice that Day knew better than to question or rebuke.
The blond hair fell
forward over his forehead as he unbuckled his belt, dropped his pants and two
stepped nearer to Vincent. The large man, losing patience, reached forward and
pulled the penitent across his lap.
Damien stiffened,
knowing the routine, but unable to relax. Fully aware of what he was in store
for he clenched his cheeks tightly and stiffened his spine.
The large man raised
the sweater above the slender waist.
Pulling the boxers down he saw the white globes tensing and dimpling as
the younger man prepared himself for the expected pain.
For a brief moment,
Vincent’s heart tightened. A deep and abiding love for this troublesome brat
overrode any and all frustrations at behavior that oftentimes had him clenching
his jaw in determined anger. Whatever
hollows echoed off this young man’s heart, whatever occupied the barren halls
of his past and made him chase after the prize of winning, the need for some
show of affection to wear like a badge of honor, were imbedded deeply into his
psyche. Time alone could not heal them, but Vincent was damn determined that he
be patient and never give up the effort to win that trust.
Raising his hand, he
delivered several sharp, stinging slaps to the soft, white flesh. Damien jerked
more in surprise at the hand spanking his bottom than the pain. Vincent always
started long, hard spankings with his hand. Warming up the flesh with his own
personal touch kept Damien constantly aware that Vin was there, not some
executioner who cared not a whit for the boy.
Groaning at the
promise of the severity this punishment would take, Damien tried to throw some
stones of reason into the pond, perhaps to veer the tide of anger in another
direction. “Mark saw me digging. You
know, Mark could have helped me look. He could have helped and put the grass
back.”
“I’m well aware of
the stories you told Mark Coletrane, little boy. You wasted the man’s time,
sent him off with lies about me being here.
Well, you are going to apologize to Mark. You are going to pay for lawn
care for the rest of the month so Mark won’t lose his income; but Mark is not
going to be doing our lawn work, Damien, you are.
“NO!” Day had the
audacity to yell.
The spanking
intensified, the flesh bounced and reddened as an angry Vincent reminded his
young partner of who was in charge. “Ugh, No, Please, Vin. Please. It hurts.”
“Hurts? I’m just
getting started, Day. Surely even you know that.”
Damien pressed his
face into the cushions, praying that Jim and Blair could not hear him. When Vincent gauged the flesh hot and
stinging, he rested his hand on the small of Day’s back, allowing him to
compose himself before the final chapter of his spanking began.
“Any thoughts you’d
like to share at this moment, Mr. St. Claire?” Vincent wanted to pull the brat
back out. Concern for the crying figure over his lap compelled him not only to
rub small circles in the back, but to bring out the feisty youth who challenged
and amused him most times.
“Only that life sucks
big time,” Day mumbled as though he were the philosopher for all ages.
Letting out a signature
Vincent Cade laugh, he recognized the returning truculence and spirit. Picking
up the paddle he turned his attentions on the final lessons to be learned.
Blair and Jim were
trying to keep their conversation light. Still not willing to voice any concerns
to Jim, Blair talked about England, the Salisbury Cathedral and Stonehenge as
he grabbed a plate Jim handed to him. Wiping the dish, he winced every time a
cry or sounds of the paddle reached them from across the huge house.
Jim’s own hearing was
turned down, blocking out the painful sounds that often accompanied the
resounding smacks. His concerns for the victim were long shelved after hearing
the soft comforting sounds Vincent made every so often or the warm advice
tendered to the young man receiving all of Vin’s attention.
Even in anger,
Vincent Cade demonstrated a warm caring for Damien St. Claire.
“Gentlemen,” the
voice broke through their strained conversation, the intercom connecting them
to the two men across the house. “Would you please join us in the living room.”
Blair looked
questioningly at Jim. Grabbing the towel from Sandburg, Jim wiped his hands and
put a guiding hand on Blair’s shoulder. “Let’s go, Chief.”
Upon entering the
huge room, Blair eagerly sought out his friend. Damien was crying miserably,
face pressed into a corner, his pants were pulled up, but askew, his sweater
still high above his waist. His hands
clenched at his side, frantically wanting to rub at his bottom.
“Damien has something
to say to you, and especially to you, Blair,” Vincent announced, though it was
said more as a command than a documentary comment.
The figure turned
from the corner half ways. Lifting his tear-stained face, he looked at Jim and
then at Blair. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry, Jim for ruining your vacation and for
causing you concern about Blair’s safety. Thank you for saving me.” Then
casting a quick glance at Vincent, who stood with one hand supporting his frame
against the hearth, he continued, “Blair, I’m sorry for ruining your vacation,
for getting you into trouble and almost killing you. I’m not a very good
friend.”
Damien then started
to unleash fresh tears that coursed down his cheeks in a strong and steady
flow. Blair rushed forward and put a
hand on Day’s back as he turned back into the corner.
“Is this necessary?”
Blair asked harshly. “I mean, he’s sorry and he’s been punished, what more do
you want from him?”
“Blair!” Jim
intervened, but Vincent raised a hand.
“Blair, Day is well
aware of the routine when he steps out of line. He’s due a day of punishment.
He stands in the corner for one hour. Then he will go outdoors and try to make
amends to the natural world for his harsh treatment of her. After lunch, he
will be in the corner again for some quiet moments of reflection. Back outdoors
and then corner time again before dinner. He will eat by himself as children
are often made to do and while we dine he shall stand in the corner, quietly
repentant. Afterwards he will receive a bedtime spanking and be tucked away by
eight thirty.”
Blair paled, “You
can’t be serious.”
“Day, am I serious?”
Vin asked, quite pleasantly.
“Yeah, he’s serious.”
Blair’s jaw tightened
at the perceived mistreatment of his friend. Noting the slight shake of Jim’s head,
he raged out of the room, not sure how long he could contain a sharp and bitter
tongue.
“Damien, do I abuse
you?” Vincent called out, making direct eye contact with Ellison, noting the
blue eyes hardening into him, demanding an explanation.
“No. You just put me
back on track. Take the steam out of my engines,” Day let out a little
laugh. Then rubbing his butt, he lost
some of his humor, “but you paddled awfully hard today.”
“You almost got
yourself killed and you almost took your friend with you. I think it was
deserved attention.”
“I know,” Day sounded
genuinely sorry. “I really am sorry, Vin, Jim.”
“No more talking.
Quiet reflection is what you need now, little boy.” Vincent put his arm around
Jim and walked him over to the small tables by the window. Looking out onto the driveway, they could
see Blair walking towards the trees, no sense of direction, lost in thought.
“I think I might lose
him over this,” Ellison said, sadly. “He needs the discipline, but seeing
this,” he waved a hand that was meant to pull in the quiet blond in the corner,
“he’s scared and confused.”
“Tomorrow I think
he’ll see things a little more clearly. Why don’t you take him into town today.
Lunch at the tavern, some gift shopping for friends. Day won’t feel like
civilized company anyway. He tends to get pouty and sometimes quite petulant on
a punishment day and I’ll need to tend to him immediately. Dinner will be
around seven. I’ll send out for pizza. It’s Day’s favorite. The least I can do
for him.”
Jim Ellison smiled.
There was no doubt in his mind that Vincent Cade, hard ass ex-Lt. Colonel loved
the golden-haired youth. For all of Day’s wild ways, his irritatingly childish
attitude towards life, there was one man who loved him with all his heart and
soul. Why was it so simple for him to
see, yet so difficult for Blair to piece together the puzzle that relationships
often were.
“I guess you’re
right. He’ll only get upset seeing Day punished when he feels just as
responsible.”
Vincent placed a hand
on Jim’s arm. “He’ll come around. He’s afraid he’s changed. We need to show
him, if he’s changed at all, it’s only for the better and it’s not diminished
him in any way. I know just how to do it.
Plus, he has no closure. He feels just as responsible as Day and he
won't be happy until he’s paid his dues.”
“I can’t really
punish him when he’s so put off by it. I know we have the agreement for six
months and we have another month, but he was only helping Day.” Ellison sighed, then
the blue eyes
returned to the window watching with loving concern the troubled young man with
the gentle heart.
Jim and Blair spent a
pleasant day in town. The shops were busy, but they took their time studying
small items, judging the value of certain purchases, filling spaces in the loft
with treasured memories of this trip and their time in England. A pleasant lunch in a more tourist-catered
restaurant and more shopping for Simon and Darryl filled their afternoon. Blair
insisted on buying a wind chime that danced with different colored cats each in
a different position of springing or running. Jim cautioned him that Vin might
find the noise of chimes irritating, but that sealed Blair’s determination all
the more and he decided to drop it. In
turn, Jim picked up a black onyx paperweight for Vincent’s office. It was a
natural stone, roughly cut, jagged in parts, but smooth and shiny in others.
The Demon’s day was
not so enjoyable. Close contact with the earth was not something Damien St.
Claire enjoyed at any time. He felt death alone should deliver him into a close
enough relationship with the earth and until that time, he liked to view it’s
wonders from afar. This thought often sent Vincent into long periods of
reflection on a man who was introduced to him while fighting for environmental
protection. There was no accounting for the colors that painted St. Claire’s
world, but colorful as it was, it was shadowed and tinted in areas that
sometimes made the colors run and fade. In the eight years he knew the young
man, he was still seeing patterns in his prism.
A slight altercation
at lunchtime when the truculent prisoner decided corner time was not for
reflection, but better suited to bitching and griping. A quick turn over and a
well-placed hand soon had him eagerly seeking the solitude and relative safety
of the quiet corner. Damien knew the
day would continue as Vin had decreed no matter how much he complained, but the
persistent little demon in his head popped its ugly head up enough to bring
added discomfort to the sorrowful young man.
When Jim and Blair
returned to the house it was five o’clock. Both men were exhausted from the
pleasant but tiring day of gift purchasing for friends. From the huge foyer,
they could see out in back upon the lawns.
They spotted Vincent Cade, hands clasped behind his back chuckling,
standing under the staircase watching the toiler in the fields.
Blair could see
Damien St. Claire, dressed in jeans and ripped sweatshirt, golden hair blowing
in the wind pounding a shovel flat against the grass. The furious expression on
his face, the vindictive exuberance of every blow, did indeed look comical. Jim
pulled Blair close as they walked up to Cade.
“He’s taking that
well, I can see,” Jim said in a mildly conversational tone.
Vincent let out a
loud laugh that was trademark Cade. “Day takes everything with charm and good
grace….” Casting his hand toward the window for effect, “as you can see.”
All three men
laughed. Even Blair shook his head at the determined petulance of his friend.
“Did you gentlemen
have a good day?” Vin asked smiling at the way Jim and Blair leaned into each
other.
Jim winked, “Great,
we have some gifts for you and Day, but I think they’ll be well-received on
another day. Right now, I think we’re
due a nap. When is dinner?”
“Seven thirty,” Vin
said, then looking at Blair he added, “Day has corner time and a bedtime
spanking due him, then an early night.
He’ll be a free agent after that so I imagine, Blair, he’ll be in need
of a fun day tomorrow.”
“I imagine he will,”
Blair said, with just a note of sarcasm in his voice.
“See, Blair, Day will
feel fine tomorrow. He’s vindicated himself and he knows I love him enough to
call him on his conduct. He pays the dues, then he’s allowed the joy of a clear
conscience.”
Blair looked
nervously at Jim. Pulling his lover by the arm, he commented from a distance,
“We’re actually quite tired. I think that nap sounds good.”
Vin merely smiled
recalling how Blair could manipulate situations to his advantage.
“I’ll see you at seven-thirty,”
he added, totally fine with the escape.
The pizza was
delicious. England didn’t separate itself from this American pleasure by
much. Day was positioned in the corner
near the blazing hearth, nose pressed firmly into the narrow area. He had
showered and now dressed in his pajamas, he was ready for bed, like any brat
after a spanking.
Vin had stood by as
he showered and dressed for bed. Exiting the shower stall, he threw his towel
down in a pique, tired of being denied the pleasant company of his houseguests.
“Pick it up and hang
it to dry,” Vincent said as he sat on the closed toilet seat.
Day stood there
naked, arms folded across his chest, taking his stand.
“One, two, three,”
Vin said quickly, never allowing Day warnings on Punishment days, he pushed the
brat over the sink, grabbed the large wooden bath brush and applied a series of
hard swats to the now pink and rosy globes. Day kicked and tried to push up,
but Vincent held him firmly by his neck.
When released, he
angrily picked the soppy towel up and threw it over the shower door. Vincent
relented and allowed the temper tantrum as he neatly straightened it and
followed his brat into the cold bedroom.
Vincent had laid out
the Dr. Denton pajamas that he had bought for Day last Christmas. Day loved the
cozy and warm pj’s, but embarrassed with Jim and Blair sleeping next to them,
he froze in his tracks.
Anger still visible
in his demeanor, he picked up the pajamas and threw them into Vin’s face.
Needless-to-say, his bottom was once again attended to, his outcries only
exacerbated his kicking and screaming. Vincent sat the brat on his lap. A
moment of staring each other down, and Day dropped his hazel orbs. Vin picked
up the Dentons and dressed his brat. Putting his feet into them, he pushed him
off his lap and raised the bottoms up over the reddened flesh. Day winced, but
didn’t struggle, didn’t cooperate either as he stood stock still, but he knew
better than to put up a fight.
Now standing in the
corner, remembering his own lonely meal in silence. The tasty pizza, reminding
him of days of camaraderie with his earth buddies over a beer, only boiled the
resentment all the more.
His eyes remained
tightly closed as he listened to the pleasant chatter going on in back of him.
Vincent was eagerly questioning Jim and Blair about their day in
Salisbury. A small shop noted here, and
Day wanted to jump in and add his comments about his experience there. A
pleasant memory chalked by Jim’s remembrances, and Day had to bite his tongue
to keep from adding more substance to the experience. Finally kicking his feet
angrily into the wall, he brought attention upon himself, unfortunately, not
the kind he wanted.
“Do you want some
attention over there, little boy? I can assure you, it won’t be the kind you
are thinking of.” Vincent quickly brought a finger up to his lips, to keep Jim
and Blair from objecting on the penitent’s behalf.
No answer, a low
groan and some mumbled words of expression. Jim’s hearing allowed him to catch “controlling
bastard,” but he hid the smile that threatened to break across his features.
Vincent caught the save and merely shook his head, knowing full well the image
Damien had of him right about now.
“Do you?” he repeated
the question.
“No, Vin, I don’t
want your da…your attention.”
“Good, because I can
assure you, Demon, you will regret it long into tomorrow.”
“I regret it
already,” Day persisted, having to have the final say.
“ENOUGH!” Vincent
took back control.
“Not by a long shot,”
Day had enough himself. He turned from the corner, stomping his encased feet
like a brat beyond control. “It’s not fair, Vin. It’s fucking not fair. Fuck
you!”
Vincent rose swiftly.
Placing a large hand on the back of Day’s neck he guided him forcefully out
into the hallway towards the bathroom, placing sharp smacks to his bottom as he
urged him along. “NO!” Day wailed, well aware of this procedure, “please, Vin,
I just had pizza, don’t ruin it.”
“You ruined it
yourself, little boy.”
Vin sat the
disgruntled captive on the toilet seat and closed the bathroom door. Opening
the small cupboard under the sink he took out a paper-wrapped object. It looked
like a Popsicle or sucker, but Day starting whining immediately; still hoping
against all hope that Vin had only taken him into the small room for a
spanking.
“Vin, please. I won’t
say another word, I promise.”
“I know you won’t,
little boy,” Vin ran water on the object which was approximately three inches
long and one and half thick inches thick. “Open,” Vin directed as he glared
down at the petulant mouth.
“FU!!!”
Vin shoved the
foul-tasting Backtalker into the smart mouth.
Day’s face twisted
into a contortionist expression of anger, resentment, distaste and acquiescence
in a matter of seconds. The hard look on Cade’s face promised a really bad
evening if any more antics were displayed. St. Claire of the quick mind chose
surrender.
When Damien was
ushered back into the living room, a sucker protruded from his closed mouth.
However, upon closer inspection the foaming soap that bubbled at the edges of
his mouth and the sour expression on his face were evidence enough that it was
soap in his mouth, no child’s sweet treat.
One final hard smack
to his bottom, a groan from Damien, and the blond was once again cornered for
reflection and some savoring of the moment.
Vince joined Jim and
Blair at the table again. “Backtalkers,” he said, by way of explanation.
“Excuse me,” Blair
asked, bristling.
“Backtalkers---it’s
soap. Actually made in Phoenix. Soap on a stick with a particularly foul taste
for brats who can’t control their tongues. I’m afraid we buy them by the case
lately.”
Jim and Vin resumed
their conversation while Blair’s mind went off down avenues that crossed at every
juncture.
After the meal was
over, Vincent excused himself from the table in the living room and grabbed
Damien’s shoulders. Damien rushed past
him and water could be heard running in the bathroom as he rinsed and spit and
coughed up the foul-tasting soap. Vincent met him at the entrance to the living
room and marched the dejected figure over into his office and closed the door.
The loud cries coming
from Vin’s office were punctuated by a wince on Blair’s face. Each harsh stroke
against the bare flesh, resounding in sharp slapping rhythms, followed by an
equally forceful wail, left the young anthropologist wringing his hands.
“Sit down, Blair,”
Jim finally said, as he pulled his passing lover from the path he had worn on
the large area rug. “He’s fine. It’s almost over with, the whole day. Damien
knows what he can expect when he misbehaves. It’s all part of the routine. He
finds safety and assurance in that fact.”
“Meaning I don’t,”
Blair answered sharply, trying to pull off of Ellison’s lap. A large hand
landed a reminder to his own rump. Blair groaned, but settled in easily and
looked up with a pout at his own lover’s angry face.
“It means, Chief,
that we can work on our problems, but it doesn’t mean you can work on Day’s and
Vin’s. Do I make myself clear?” Gone was the Ellison who was trying to cut him
some slack, give him that inch or two of leeway to concede his own needs and
desires for the relationship. Now James Ellison was in fact stating where the
line ended. Blair bit his lip unconsciously and nodded his understanding.
Vincent’s hand
relentlessly met the target area with a force that hopefully instilled a long
remembrance into the brat he loved.
Feeling a sense of relief himself that the long-tortuous day was almost
over, he allowed his only feelings of irritability to make their statement. The
brat deserved this treatment and he would see he collected all his points. A
final hard swat on each reddened cushion sent a long howl into the air. The
figure deflated and lay motionless across his knee.
Pulling the warm
pajama flaps up and over the hot flesh, he started making small circles on his
back, soft reassurances to the distraught young man. When Day quieted enough, Vin pulled him up and onto his lap as the
leather sofa in his office cracked and snapped with the movement.
“I’m sorry, Vin. I’m
so sorry. Do you love me? Do you still love me?” Damien was a little boy again,
a lost soul unsure of his place in the scheme of things.
“Oh, little boy, I
will always love you. I don’t like your actions, there are times I don’t like
you, but I always---always Demon---love you.”
Day broke down even
more; as though once the damn was broken the major flood now pushed down all
defenses and was determined now to drown out all false pretenses. The tired,
bedraggled figure clung to Cade with a childlike intensity, the fingers
grasping his shirt in large clumps, the legs pulled up tightly, knees into his
chest, curling himself into a ball hoping to fit into this man’s pocket.
Cade rapidly rained
kisses on the top of his head; brushing the wild locks away from his forehead
he marked every area with the reassurances of love.
“I love you. I love
you so much, Vin. Don’t ever stop loving me. Pleeeeaaase!” he wailed out the
last.
“I should spank you
again for that, little boy,” Vin said harshly as he pushed the sniffling brat
from his chest. But the hazel eyes looked so sincere so disbelieving that Vin
merely grabbed the face with both hands and planted a hot, possessive kiss on
the quivering lips.
The young man, in
total denial, found faith and assurance in that one hard kiss. As he pushed the
face back the hazel eyes looked droopily up into his own brown ones.
Laughing, Vincent
lifted the small figure to his chest and raised himself from the sofa. “It’s
bed time for you, brat. You’re not of sound mind right now. No court could
convict you of any transgressions the state you’re in.”
Day’s head fell onto
his chest and he cuddled into the warm hammock the arms made.
Vincent carried the
semi-sleeping form to the fireplace and laid him gently into the nest of
blankets. Kneeling down he smiled
benevolently as he tucked the feet and hands beneath the blanket and captured
his prize with one final good night kiss. The day was over and the healing
would begin.
Returning to join
Blair and Jim at the table, Vincent sighed heavily. “I think he sometimes
enjoys punishment day, because he knows I suffer right along with him.”
Jim gave a quick glance
at Blair. Smiling he noted the confused look on his young friend’s face. “He’s
right, Chief, in these relationships there’s a great deal of sharing...some I
don’t think you’ve even begun to imagine.”
Blair nodded, trying
desperately to deal with his confused emotions. The trouble with enlightenment
is that it comes from out of the blue and it’s never what you expect it to be.
Lying down in the
nest of blankets, Vin tugged the sleeping form of his partner closer to
him. Day opened his eyes at the
movement, “Shhh, go back to sleep
little boy. It’s late,” Vin said in a
whisper, not wanting to wake up Jim and Blair.
“Are Jim and Blair
asleep?” Day whispered back.
Raising his head a
little to look over Day, he saw the two other figures. Blair was asleep on his stomach facing
Jim---his hand inches away from grabbing hold of the other man’s T-shirt but
still not able to cross that line. Jim
was on his side, facing Blair fast asleep.
“Yes, as you should be.”
“I can’t.”
Vin sighed, he was
tired and as much as he loved his partner, he really didn’t feel like talking
tonight. It had been a long day and he
was physically and emotionally spent.
“Why not little boy?” Vin asked,
his voice carrying the edge of impatience.
“My butt is too
sore.”
Vin shook his head,
“Damien, I did not spank you that hard.
Roll over on your stomach and you’ll be fine.”
“It hurts,” Day said
pitifully.
“It’s going to hurt a
lot worse if you don’t roll over and go to sleep. I mean it, young man.”
Day sniffled spicing
the show with self-pity.
“One more sound out
of you and you can spend another day on punishment duty.”
“Okay,” came a small
voice.
Just about to drift
off to sleep, the figure next to him squirmed out of his grasp and sat up.
“What the hell are you doing now?” he
whispered, completely annoyed now.
“I have to go to the
bathroom,” the indignant voice answered, “it’s either that or I can pee right
here.”
Vin sighed wearily;
it was going to be a long night. “Come
right back, I do not want you up roaming around in the cold.”
Vin reached out a
hand to help steady his partner, easing him up among the blankets and pillows
scattered about. He watched as Day made his way to the bathroom, fully aware of
the reason for the small act of defiance under the pretense of nature’s call.
After spending all day by himself, his brat was in need of attention and
reassurance that all was forgiven and he was as loved and cherished as
ever. Getting up quietly, Vin stole
into his office just off the living room, returning a minute later with a small
tube and a towel. Getting back between
the blankets, he waited for Day’s return.
A few minutes later, the bathroom light shut off and he could hear the
soft sounds of his lover returning to the nest.
Day quietly slipped
back in front of his lover, once again sandwiching himself between Vin and
Blair. However the extra cushions positioned between the two younger men kept
them from touching. This precaution had been necessary when both brats had
started fighting on the first night.
“Are you all settled
for the night?” Vin asked in his ear.
Day nodded.
“Good,” Vin said, as
he began to tug down Day’s pajama flaps.
Day wiggled away,
“No, Vin, I’m sorry. I’ll be
quiet. I promise.”
“Damien, hush,
relax.”
Day’s squirming had
helped the movement and he was now bare in the back.
Pulling Day close so
that he was lying almost spooned directly in front of him, Vin gently stroked
the now bare butt.
The younger man
groaned softly, arching his back, opening himself up to the exploring fingers.
“Demon, be quiet,”
Vin ordered softly, stopping his fingers just before they dipped into the
opening clef.
Day nodded and bit
down on his lip as the fingers began to move again. Reaching down and unbutton some of his front buttons, he started
stroking his own cock in rhythm with the other fingers in back.
Vin smiled at the
soft sounds his lover was making and the slight movements under the
covers. Removing his hand, he quickly
opened the lube and spread it on his own hard cock.
A soft whimper
escaped Day’s lips at the absence of his lover’s touch.
Not saying a word,
Vin positioned himself behind the younger man, the tip of his penis barely
touching his lover’s opening.
Wiggling back
slightly, Day was halted by Vin’s hand on his waist. “Noooooo,” he said, frustrated by the lack of movement afforded
him, his hand stilling in order to prolong his excitement.
“Little boy,
hush. Don’t make another noise or I’ll
put a ring on you, shove a plug up your ass and let you stay hard all night.”
Day could not control
the small laugh, “Oooohhh,’ he said, “I like it when you get all rough and
kinky with me.”
Vin leaned in to
whisper in his love’s ear, “You are just going to have to be patient, little
boy, this is going to be quiet. We are
not putting on a show for everyone.
Think you can do that?”
Day nodded his head,
“What do I get as my reward for staying quiet?” He whispered innocently.
“This,” Vin said,
shoving himself deep into his lover.
Already relaxed, Day’s
body allowed the large, hard member to slide home with little resistance. His breath caught for a minute, no matter
how many times they did this, it still took several moments for the feeling of
tight pressure and fullness to be replaced by the glorious feelings of being
entered and made a part of his lover.
He tightened his muscles to indicate to Vin that he was okay.
Vin slowly began to
rock ever so slightly inside of him, moving his hips just inches but enough to
send waves of pleasure coursing through both of their bodies.
Day reached back with
one hand and gripped Vin’s hip as if to help with the movement, his other hand
rapidly bringing about his own climax.
His internal muscles tightened and his hand turned talon as it hooked
into Vin’s hip as he came hard.
Vin could feel the
slight tremors course through the younger man’s body. With three harder thrusts---each one impaling him on his
lover---he came hard. Letting out a
quiet moan, he felt himself pumping into Day and the returning acceptance and
reward of their union.
The sensation of
drifting held both men for several moments, complimenting their lovemaking with
a sense of peace.
Day could feel Vin
starting to get soft and pull out of him,
"No," he said, "stay with me."
"Sorry, little
boy, not in this position, I can't. My
arm is asleep already." Vin said, regretfully.
Day rolled over so
that he was now facing Vin and forcing his legs in-between the larger man’s, he
curled up close. Sighing contentedly as Vin’s warm breath brushed the top of
his head, strong arms securing him in place, he came home.
"I'm sorry I was
such a brat today," Day whispered.
"I know. It's over."
"I love
you," Day said, "Those words don't even begin to express how I feel
about you. They're inadequate to tell
you just how much."
"I know. Now, go
to sleep, little boy, you've had a rough day.
I love you, too."
Within moments the
contented drifter settled into sleep and his older lover joined him in tandem,
closely entwined in the afterglow.
Blair Sandburg eased
his breath out in careful silence. Confusion heightened his already distraught
state. His friend, lorded over and strictly held in line, was complacently
accepting in his chains. So much so, that he seemed genuinely contented with the
way things were. Tonight, for all the punishment endured by his blond friend,
Blair Sandburg was the one most upset. The young anthropologist snuggled
beneath his blankets, guilty and upset, wishing for all the world that it was
he who had been punished and forgiven.
Sunday came into
their world with a golden halo, warm and promising. Damien dressed quickly and
with very little cajoling convinced Blair to join him for services at the
Cathedral. Amazed at the good cheer and enthusiasm with which his friend met
the day---following the emotional storm he weathered just the previous
day---Blair wanted to please Damien---be there for him.
The Gas Company
workers were arriving just as they were getting ready to go so Vin and Jim
stayed behind in case there was trouble. Day glanced guilty at the arriving
truck as they left the house. Shaking
his head, he muttered to himself, "No, don’t go there, it's over."
"What did you
say?" Blair asked, not having caught the softly mumbled words.
"Oh, I was just
telling myself not to get all guilty about the pipe. It's over, it's being fix and Vin has forgiven me. When I get caught up in my guilt about
something, I get really bratty until Vin catches me and sets me back
upright." He glanced at Blair,
"so, what's going on with you and Jimbo?
You off the hook for the gardens?"
"I don't
know. I need to think about what I want
and make some choices I guess, tell him what I want," Blair replied
quietly.
The other man made a
face and said, "Glad I don't have to do that. It's hard to ask to be punished.
I've only gotten my nerve up a couple of times."
They pulled in the
already crowded parking area for the Cathedral and got out and began to walk
in. Suddenly Day stopped and laid a
hand on Blair's arm, "Just remember my friend, what you want and what you
need is not always the same thing."
With that, he started off quickly into the church.
They emerged an hour
later, neither one really talking. Day reflecting
on the sermon and still struggling with his feelings about organized
religion. Blair struggling with his own
feelings about Jim and their relationship and how to get out of the mess he
seemed to have created.
Day seem to shake his
contemplative mood by the time they reached the house fifteen minutes later,
bursting into the kitchen with a loud "We're home!”
Vin looked up from
the frying pan full of bacon and glared at him briefly, then turning to Jim he
said in a mock upset voice, “I thought I told you to change the locks while
they were gone!"
Jim laughed. Day stuck out his tongue and crossed his
eyes at his lover, who unfortunately for him turned around in time to catch
him.
"Didn't your
mother ever tell you not to do that or your face could freeze that way, little
boy?" Vin asked, waggling a finger in the classic no-no gesture.
Day broke into a huge
grin and fell into his lover, burrowing his face deep into his chest, "But
you would still love me, right?" he asked, completely sure of the answer.
He was rewarded with
a kiss on his hair and a gentle, loving, "Of course, little boy,
always."
"Where is your
partner in crime, Day?" Jim asked, encompassing the grounds with his
hearing trying to locate his guide.
"I don't know,
he said he would be in shortly,” Day said, snuggling up to Vin and totally
unconcerned with the outside world.
"I'll go see if
I can't find him before breakfast gets too cold." Jim slipped quietly out
of the kitchen, giving his hosts a few minutes of privacy.
After breakfast,
since gas and heat would be returning to the house before the morning was out,
it was decided to clean the living room up and return it to its normal
neatness. Throughout the cleaning,
Damien practically hung on Vin. Several
times Jim caught Blair’s attention with a wink and the young man would turn to
see Day, arms wrapped around Vin’s waist from behind, head resting on his back
practically being pulled along as Vincent tucked cushions back on chairs and
folded blankets.
Then a resounding
swat to the brat’s backside and Day would---with grudgingly good cheer---resume
his own ministrations on the labor force. It was as if the young man could not
get enough of his hard, unyielding lover.
When they were
finished, they walked out onto the terrace for a bit of fresh air. “What are we doing today?” Blair said as he
looked out at the beautiful grounds, the green lawns crisp in the September sun
as it burnt off the last layers of English mist.
“You guys are on your
own until Noon,” Vin said.
“Oh..I know just the
thing,” Day said, excitement coloring his eyes a light green. “There’s this rocky crag off about two miles
along the river, the view is spectacular.
Remember that painting in The Art Critic, the one with the mist blanketing
the river, this is the landscape Vin painted. It’s quite breathtaking and there
should be just enough mist left when we get there to duplicate the painting.”
“Great,” Blair said,
“I’ll get my camera. Jim, you up for a hike?”
Jim looked to Vin for
an indication of any planned discussions between them, but Vin merely shrugged
his shoulders.
“No, Chief, count me
out on this one. I think I need a quiet Sunday morning with a cup of coffee,
the newspaper, and I might give Simon a call and find out how things are going
back in Cascade. You go ahead and have some fun. Besides, I’ve seen the place
before.”
With that and little
else by way of encouragement, both young men headed out into the slowly warming
countryside.
Jim hugged his cup
and waited for Vin to put his paper down. The older man tried to read, but
several times he scrunched his face in irritation, aware that his friend across
the small breakfast table was anxious to talk.
Finally, sighing
heavily, he folded the paper and laid in dramatically down on the table, “Okay,
Jimmy, what is it?”
Laughing at the
obviousness of his concerns, he shook his head, “I guess fooling you is just
about impossible.”
“I’ve dealt with more
than my share of brats and I’ve come to know the looks of guilt and uncertainty.
I’d say yours is more uncertainty now…the need for reassurance. Spit it out.”
“I’m just not sure
where to go with Blair right now? I’m about ready to call the whole discipline
relationship off. It’s just too hard on him and me, emotionally.” Ellison took a long swig of his coffee and
put the cup down. Rising slowly he walked to the window that overlooked the
driveway, and watched the Gas Company's truck slowly pull away from the house
and back onto the main road, their work finished.
“Jim, the relationship
would be working just fine if you had stuck to the promise you made the young
man. You’ve been vacillating this whole time, so much so that Blair is
confused; he’s not sure any more where he stands. You should have paddled him
Saturday morning when Day got his punishment. You screw up, you get
punished…right away, no time to think about it, no room for discussion, simple
cause and effect. Now he’s pulled away and you need the whole courtship dance
again, like a trial lawyer presenting your case and convincing your jury. Well,
the way I see it, when Blair agreed to six months, he was sentenced and he
should have served his time. The only negotiations allowed will be in one
month’s time when the contract gets renewed or not.”
“Well, it’s not going
to be easy convincing him of anything after he witnessed Day’s punishment. I’ll
never get him to recommit now and I just can’t bring myself to spank him when
he’s so torn by the whole relationship.”
Ellison came back to the table and sat down.
"Jim, he wants
to be in this relationship with you.
He's hurting right now, he is confused and unsure of himself and what's
going on. You need to take him in hand,
make him live with the relationship like you agreed. You have one month left to show him the joys and peace of being
in a relationship like this, be strict, be demanding and he will respond. Have you done that or have you been fooling
around the whole five months?"
"No, this
summer, I really had him on a short leash.
He has a tendency to run himself ragged so I made him keep a time
sheet. He was not allowed to work more
then 45 hours a week. If he was putting
in long hours at school, that meant he spent less time with me at the station
and vice versa. When his 45 hours were
reached, unless it was a special situation, the books got closed and the
computer was shut off."
"And how did he
respond to that?"
"It was hard the
first week but he settled down and things went smoothly. He got everything done on time, he was able
to work with me, but it was at a normal pace.
There was very little stress and he seemed happy…” Jim's voice trailed off.
"What?"
"He told me he
was happy because he knew where the stop sign was and didn’t have to look for
it and he knew he was going to find it and there was nothing he could do about
it."
Vin smiled,
"Exactly. That is what he needs;
you know and he knows it. He needs
someone to put boundaries on his behavior, on his actions, so he can enjoy all
that he has accomplished instead of focusing on what hasn't been
accomplished."
They sat in silence
for several minutes, Jim, thinking about the summer and his actions now, Vin,
simply watching and waiting.
“You said something
Friday night about knowing how to fix this problem, what did you mean? I think I need some help with him,” Jim said
softly.
“So, James Ellison is
not afraid to ask for help when he needs it,” Vin laughed, his voice kind and
nonjudgmental, “seems the sessions over my knee worked just fine.”
The detective shook
his head, laughing, remembering all the times that Vincent Cade had made him
see himself, understand himself, and pour out his deepest thoughts most times
looking at the floor or carpeting with his butt blazing sore and hot.
“No, I’m not afraid
to come to you and ask your help. You’ve always been there and you always make
it right.”
It was the larger
man’s turn to laugh and Ellison smiled at the wonderful sound. The strong, deep
resonations of his good cheer when something struck him funny was an indication
of the man’s love for life and friends and family. Cade never did anything insincerely or halfway.
“You’ve met Peter Bailey before, your last trip here four years ago.”
Ellison nodded his head remembering the quiet, unassuming young doctor.
“Well, you might not know
it, but Mark Coletrane, our gardener, is Peter’s partner.”
“Coletrane? When you
mentioned him before I’d wondered where I’d heard that name before,” Jim said,
rubbing his jaw trying to piece together the puzzle.
“The inimitable Mrs.
Coletrane, no doubt comes to mind.” Cade let out another belly laugh as he
watched his friend’s face open in amazement.
“NO?” Jim said
shocked, “not his mother?”
“Yes, indeed,” Cade
laughed harder. “Damien’s own fairy godmother, the one and only Mrs. Agnes
Coletrane, storm trooper, nursemaid and disciplinarian in her own right. That
woman was an angel. There were times when I first brought Damien here that I
swear, Jim, I would have killed the brat if it weren’t for that woman’s
intercession.” Vincent paused and frowned at some sad memory, “I think there
were times when she came pert near to killing him herself, but he ate out of
her hand like the wild birds and squirrels I saw her tame.”
“I’m sorry, Vin,” Jim
said, realizing how much his friend missed the strong, forceful woman in his
life.
“I think Day started
thinking of her as a mother and he took her death pretty hard. Hell, I took it
hard.”
Then as though
realizing how far off track the train of thought had gone, Vincent cleared his
throat, pushing back his emotions, “Peter and Mark are coming here for a
barbecue this afternoon. I called Peter and he was kind enough to pick up some
great steaks before he left London from this shop where I have an account. I
think your brat is about to be in for a little self-realization.”
<end of part 2>