COLD I'm in my own world Because no one will let me in theirs I am alone I am nothing I am everything no one wants I am less than garbage All I feel is loneliness and Rage and Pain and Anger and INSANITY and LIVING HELL and DEATH and COLD HOPE A ray of hope through the darkness Shines upon me All who share this hell with me Feel jealousy TRAPPED I go here and there I run everywhere Yet I am trapped In places unmapped I am trapped in my mind Because people are unkind Rage has caged me And I have lost the key All I feel is pain It made me insane If you just love me You can set me free The Heart of Darkness Into the heart of darkness That is where I wander I am alone on this journey For only the insane travel here And I am insane For I have no soul Since I have no soul I can not claim to have sanity Without sanity All you are is alone Rage Rage is my friend Rage is my only companion Rage has eroded my soul Rage has stolen my sanity I am alone I am a shell I am empty I am dead I am death I am a machine A killing machine I am pure rage Title Unknown So passes into Death the Wiseman with no fear in his heart For he knows that Death is not an End But another step on an Endless journey Night screams A cry splits through the night An animal just died It's killer howls with joy The sweet taste of victory And blood in it's mouth It is the supreme predator The Shotgun Schuck klick Ka-BOOM BOOOMM BOOOMM A shot rings out A sound echoes It's raining feathers Feathers A bird sits in a tree It hears schuck klick Ka-Boom booomm booomm The tree is painted red It's raining feathers The Right to Arm Bears The prey runs from the predator The bullet screams from the gun The gun kicks the hunter The hunter chases the prey The hunter is the predator The prey is the hunted The hunted die It's an endless cycle Where the man with the gun seldom loses It isn't fair Animals don't have guns Maybe we should give them the guns Let them hunt us See what it's like in their shoes Are they the smart ones? Death I am human no longer For I have been eroded away by rage I have no feelings I having no conscience I have no soul I am Death in human form That and nothing more I am empty I am a shell I am dead Years go by People die I care not That is the way of life Death I'm rotting away Day by day I see no light Day or night My life is gone Traveled beyond My soul is free It was stripped from me And I ponder Where my soul as wandered My soul has fled I am dead Eroded Hell This is a place of pain This is a place of nothing This is my place This is my hell Everything hurts Nothing hurts Everything is nothing And nothing is everything This is a place of misery This is a dark place This is my place This is my Eroded Hell The Dream He ran through the forest He ran from what he had yet to see He ran from the sound, the smell of the beast He heard the deep breathes The air was heavy with the smell Of the sweat of the beast He heard the twigs crack and the Leaves rustle with each of the beasts steps The beast was getting closer The smells were stronger The sounds were louder Suddenly there were no smells Other than the crisp night air And there were no sounds Except for the crickets And the rapid beating of his heart He was in his room Sitting on his bed "Whew, it was just a dream." A howl cut through the night air Or was it? Dreamscape The ground shifted He floats through space A space that was continually changing Brilliant reds and blues flashed All around Dull green and yellow objects Floated by He was in his dreamscape Where everything seems real But nothing was Dreams He floated through his dreamscape He floated through his dreams He floated through everything He floated through his mind He saw things most of us couldn't He saw monsters and heros He saw his dreams He saw what he wanted to He had a pet dragon He had a castle He had an imagination He had everything He was a kid Title to be Determined The world revolves around the sun The moon revolves around the Earth The moonmen revolve around Death With revolving Death in hand The scream of the Banshee Splits the night As the protectors bring The revolving lights Pain I run I play I have fun I feel pain Pain is nothing Pain is everything Pain hurts Pain goes away Pain is inside Pain is outside Pain is a friend Pain is a teacher Teachers are a pain Eachers Tachers leern us Stuents do'nt laarn Teaches ore booreing Stodents sleps Techers giv homwork Sudents egnore Teacers gev datention Studens d'ont shoow up Teahers yeel Studets moth uff Teechers go krazy Tudents smele end noodd I telled ya studants dont laern The Idiot I run,I play I speed on the highways Going 95 in a 55 zone Talking on the car phone Swerve around cars with pets I'm flying faster than soaring jets My radio is blaring People are staring Speeding past low flying ducks I never saw the trucks They were passing each other While I was talking to mother The trucks left no room We found our doom Me and my date We meet our fate People heard the explosion for miles around While I go down Hell is cool! You fool Noises High pitches Low pitches Baseball pitches Loud sounds Quiet sounds Ultrasounds Loud noises Soft noises No noises Lots of noises Lots of noses The Cookie God Oh we oh, Oreos Oh we oh, Chips Ahoy Oh we oh, Oreos Oh we oh, Nabisco Oh we oh, Oreos Oh we oh, Keebler Elves Oh we oh, Oreos Oh we oh, Cookie Monster Oh we oh, Oreos Oh we oh, chocolate chips Ka-BOOM Oh we oh, fire Oh we oh, fire crackers Oh we oh, M-80's Oh we oh, matches Oh we oh, gasoline Oh we oh, Zippo Oh we oh, paint thinner Oh we oh, lighter fluid Oh we oh, bottle rockets Oh we oh, Roman candles Oh we oh, Lady fingers Oh we oh, Ka-BOOM Oh we oh, pain Fire Crackers How do I love thee? Let me count the ways The way your fuse fizzles The way you explode The way you make me stitch my fingers back on The way your fuse doesn't light until the match burns my fingers The ways I can throw you The way you blow up just before you leave my hand These are the ways I love thee My fire crackers Bambi First Blood Bambi runs, Bambi plays Bambi finds the highways He sees light He hears noise He charges He hit a house Bambi no like houses Bambi no see lights Everything dark Except for the circling birds Everything dark Bambi passes out Bambi is dense Bambi meets Thumper Bambi wakes up Bambi stands up Bambi falls back down Bambi retreats to the woods Bambi is dizzy Bambi trips Bambi eats grass Bambi sees birds again Something hits his head He looks up and sees... A rabbit with... A big club. "People call me Thumper" He brought the club down The birds were back Bambi is dense Bambi's Revenge Bambi stands up Bambi looks around Bambi finds target Bambi charges Thumper goes flying Thumper thumps against the road Thump-thump thump-thump The car drives on Bambi stands triumphant Thumper just lays there Thumper jumps at Bambi Thumper swings the club The birds are circling again. Bambi is dense. That Which is Unknown I stand side by side with Death Always afraid for when he will turn to me Suddenly he asks me "Is it that you fear Truth That you fear me. For is not death the only truth of life." I ask back "Which is it you fear more, That which is unknown Or that which is known" Descent Into Madness Falling forever into my fears In this dark pit That is my mind A giant blackhole Where I know not Which way is up And which is down And as I float in a river Of my own blood I wonder what happened To the boy who loved to play in sun And why I am now condemned To this eternal darkness That is my curse And as I choke and drown In a pool of my sins I see a light, an image Of a boy playing in the sun And as my eyes forever close I see the happiness in his eyes And with my last breathe of life I whisper "What happened to me?" Unnamed Poem The blood of the wolf Pounds through my veins Pushing me ever forward Faster and faster 'Till everything is a blur My heart pounds away A drum beat no hands could recreate I am blind, I am deaf I feel no pain My mind blocks all I move on Faster and Faster Forever forward Never to look back I am a robot Set for one task Move forward Gain speed Break limits Faster and faster 'Till I break myself All is nothing Move on Faster and faster There are no limits Just push on forward Short Quote We move like water flows Sometimes quick, and sometimes slow Chill of Cellar Standing here A living statue Frozen here In this hell Rebirth The spectre of Death Approaches to sweep Clean this Eroded Hell Of all the Vermin and Vagabonds. The filth Wiped cleaned from The surface and the Heart. The shivers Of all shake the Foundations and tumbling From their pedestals Fall the Gods of old The believers long since Stop believing and the Truth separated from The lies. The Flaming Skull of Hell falls From the Heavens to Eradicate the hopes and Dreams of the masses. Cries of "The Bells Toll for Thee" are heard From the roof tops as the Precession crawls upon the Serpentine roads of this Now dead jungle. The Life sucked clean as The marrow of bone Unknown Name Hold me Embrace me Become one with me Become me Spread through me Spill into me Join with me Inside the Mind of a Genius Of what mysteries does it work. How many theories and strange quirk Pass through those eyes and in those ears. Of what does it hear? This of you do I ask. Be this no simple task. What revolves in that head? Be it spirits of long dead That stirs in that brain, Forever protected from thy rain? This of you do I ask. Be this no simple task. Flag of the Dark Light The flag flies through The sky on its lance. The black field with The bird of Phoenix Rising from the fire And Brimstone bounces Along with the soldiers Who cheerfully ride home On their whores and Horses. Street Cleaners This pain I feel Consumes me as the Waves of a hurricane The pounding water Push me down, telling Me I can go no higher Be no better. Yet I Fight against it in a Futile struggle to overcome The odds, the public opinion I fight to stand up in a Crowd of robots, mindless Zombies that are to scared To think for themselves. I Struggle to be myself In a world of conformity. Every day an infernal battle To be different than the Rest. And I suffer taunts And Public humiliation of Outrageous misfortune for My individual and anti-conformist Style. I died a thousand deaths Everyday, yet I survive. That's What I do, survive the battles And wars to defy the world, To keep free-thought alive In a world that pressures Us into slavery of the body And Erosion of the mind I grip in my hands The free will of thousands Struggling to free this Enormous responsibility I Chose upon myself. The masses oppress me At every curve to stay Happy in their slavery I hold in my breast The unknown pains of Millions The light sears my Eyes in its brilliance. The hidden energy of Their slavery Rage Its red eye glare at Me from the darkness. The Fire behind them burn Through my soul and sear My mind. It sits there Feeding from the Anger Pool. It could wander anywhere But it just sits there Growing and expanding as It feeds off my anger It threatens to consume Me at any moment It stares at me with its Blazing fire tree eyes. The Light showing some of its Features. It's nose sticks Out from the darkness. Seeing it only makes me Angrier and It steals this Anger and feeds upon. And It grows bigger and bigger It stares at me with Its bright, white eyes. The light so bright that It blocks out the sun As the sun blocks out The stars. Yet I don't Turn away. I can not turn Away. I am fascinated by It. It seems so familiar. And as I squint through The light, I see that which I fear the most. It stares at me with Its black eyes from The black mirror. The black eyes sunken In its dark face with Its long, hooked, dark nose And its large black maw. Its dark face runs with Thick dark blood drips Forth from every facial Orifice. 753 I dance alone to a Song played only in my Head telling me to do Things stuff of notorious Evil Drain the mind of Useful information and morals Strip the body of it's Pride and grace. Steal From the soul the secrets And Life Press random buttons and Laugh as the puppets jump Gliding over the river of Stone on a steel horse Run with the grace of geese Fall with the stumble of a moose Test all alternatives and Dance with Enemies at Midnight In Fear of Blood Mist standing Alone in Starless Darkness with Tales of Halfling's Streams and Songs of Dark Knights Written in Crystal Spurs Rusted brains rot in Piles useless and empty Bare the Soul The lone dancer So beautiful, so graceful Spinning, spiralling, leaping Dancing to the silent music Of her own hidden heart Creating beauty and joy In those who watch Silent rythm of the music Beating the drum The dancer leaping higher Dancing faster Singing out her happiness As she spread her beauty And grace through out The room Expanding her joy and Dance to all who watched So that she no longer Dances alone A crowd of movement Choas and beauty The dance spreads Filling everyone with The choatic beauty 8-28-98 You dance alone through My heart and mind You step lightly on My feelings You leap through My dreams You land just right in My thoughts Chaotic Meanderings Clear the mind Rest the body Prepare the soul The time has come The beginning has ended The middle is near Warp the space Bend the time Smash the dimension The hole has been made The darkness approuches The light is pressed Change the pattern Descend the hole Forget the world Universal Beauty Swaying in the wind a sapling maple trying To hold its ground against extreme pressures Leaping through the air the gentle goose takes Flight in the azure blanket that is our home Pinholes in the Curtain of the Night I behold the beauty Natural and unmarred by man So distant and near Enhances the simply beauty Radiating beauty in its light Never to be touched by mortal hands Molded to its simply beauty by forces unknown The mystery added to the beauty Oh, how sweet it is to delight In your pleasent radinance To glance upon your past And wonder about your future Shall anything compare to thy beauty? Shall ever thy beauty be recreated? To see your radinances gives Pleasure beyond measure. Your radiate carresses. Your gentle beauty How I wish I alone could Gace upon your radient beauty But you are not mine And I must share your beauty with all But still does you radiance fill me with joy. Random Thoughts Random thoughts course through My mind dogs blue birds and Earthworms defecating in my yard that sickly aroma that Conquers the air and strange Materials that combine to Form gunk under finger and Toenails gyrations of pulchritudinous Endowed females vociferating The theft of others minds In the attempt to conform To society or at least the vision Of conformity in the eyes and minds Of others blossoms of the rose Stretching to embrace the sun Inner Self Confusion Choas Emotions Fear Happiness Love Escaping from what I want Running to what I hate Decisions going unmade What to do? Where to go? What to say? How to say it? Simple words Complex thoughts Shifting morals Steady honor I fear to be myself I hate myself to be someone else Just say the words Conquer the fear Relax and be yourself Truth Coward Quiter Loser Say what you want Do what you say Mean what you do Say what you mean That Light I See That light I see Reaching out for me Stretching out towards me To the point where I explode That light I see Filling me Expanding me To the point where I explode That light I see Engulfing me Consuming me To the point where I explode That light I see Standing before me Being more than just me To the point where I explode That light I see Wait a second! Where did the light go! Listen here people! I am trying to talk about the Light! Wait! Maybe I exploded What the ... This wind that blows through my soul Howls in my mind Brings me my understanding My joy, my pain, myself I embrace this zephyr Hold it to my consciousness So that I may eternally enjoy This connately experience Staring into the Wind Sitting in the shade Envolped by its darkness I am burning from the inside out Suffering in my moral drought Climbing this ladder That leads to my insanity I fear nothing but the Overwhelming conformity of the norm The Eagle It soars through the sky. Diving, twisting, flying high. It dives down to its prey. Down to where the little things play. The mouse died instsntly. But what is death But another step on an endless journey Life? What is it? What is the meaning? Why are we stuck on this shithole of a planet that we make even worse? Why are we alive? What is the point? I have no point Its just a fucking word that means Nothing Good Question? So falls the gods Of old to the fiery Pits of thier own hell Yes 'um I am but a leave Tumbling in the wind Floating upon this Path of Life Unfinished So blooms the moon into full light In this star Glittered night And opens my heart To the world ... And so it Begins So falls the sky in flakes Little bits of white descending on the winds To gather and cluster on the ground The messiest poem I ever wrote yet Panther eyes stare at Me from withen. Floating imagery projected On my eyelids. Life I stare blankly While life passes Me by. Then comes The day that Death Visits me. I plead That I didn't get All the stuff I Wanted to get Done. Death stares Through me with those Fiery eyes and simply Says "You had your Chance. Its not my Job to give you Another." Staring into a Black Hole Staring into a black hole I see the light Of burning coal In the night
Copyright 2001 Nathan A. Olmstead