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R. Shlomo Carlebach, Input (sa) of MS. Transcript A4 , Part 1
A4	59				  "New Tape Series"
followed by A5
Heading:  "New Tape Series C"
Pagination:  Part 1:  C1--C24
Working from xerox of xerox in BZ Collection
I note on upper left corner, ms. number A4
I inventoried this doc in the Witt Collection, ca. 1989
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In this input, I use a Required Carriage Return* to replicate teh
lines of the manuscript.


Editorial Note:  I'll knowingly if not quite intentionally let
some typos stand:  Like (as R. David Herzberg might say), Even a
Microsoft Daemon can Spellcheck, but unintentionally to create a
double-entendre typo -- that's an (unintentional) art.


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RSC:

I want to tell you something just the most/ 
unbelieveable thing.  THank you for your 
harmozinizing.  You kids are just harmonizing 
so good.  Harmony is the treatest thin in
the world  I always say harmony is the
one thing you can't do by yourself, right.
you can only sing a song.  But harmony?
I want to ell you somethg firends.  You 
know Yaakov Avinu, when Yaakov Avinu sent 
hsi childeren to Yosef ha Zaddik, if you
remember the sotry  At that time our father
Yosef was just an ordinary king.  NOt an
ordinary (might) UNCLEAR king but, little bit
coarse because he knew he was so holy.
Anyway so it says he told them bring
in some gifts and then it says take some from 
the spices of the land.  But everybody knows
there's a whole Torah from Reb Nachman which
is based on teh Zohar.  He says Yaakov Avninu
told him when he goes down to Yosef HaZaddik and 
G_d forbid -- why don't you sing him a song.  teach
him honly songs from the holy land and sing you / [sic]
a song.  And then he'll know who you are.  And
he'll also know who he is.  And then, how can
he be so cruel to you?  So listen to this, most
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unbelieveable thing.  According to our tradition the
brothers of Yosef came to Egypt on Friday.  Yosef
ha Zaddik invited them for Shala Shudas.  He invited
them for the third meal of Shabos.  
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{Comment (sa):  Block that Anachronism.}

You know what
the third meal of Shabos is?  It's very dark, a
different kind of darkness.  You know friends, there's 
a kind of darkness when you're afraid of the 
person sitting next to you.  And there is a kind
of holy darkness that if someone's sitting next to
you, you give them your hand.  Don't even
ask who it is.  Holy kind of darkness.  Depends,
darkness which is full --- anyway.  Story is, Shala 
Shoodus, can you imagine?  The holy tribes. The
way they were singing.  The way they were
harmonizing.  Can you imagine?  Now listen to
this.  The saddest thing in the world.  Yosef haZaddik
I'm sure he was singing to himself all the time.
But he had not heard his brothers singing Shabbusdika
melodies for so long.  Then he hrealized, at that moment
he decided can't go on like this.  Got to tell them
who I am.  So you remember early the next
morning they left.  He brought them right back
and  he told them, I'm your brother.  You know
the saddes part is three days darkness and the
plagues of Egypt, nobody saw the other one.
It was the same darkness, but for Israel it was
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light.  So the ordinary meaning is that for Egypt it
was dark and for the Yiddalah is was light.  But
the real deEper meaning is in Egypt it was dark.
They didn't see anybody else. And for the Yiddlach
what do we do when it's dark?  They look for somebody
else because, I tell you something deep.  When
there is light you don't feel so lonesome.  When it's 
dark you momish need somebody  What do we
Yiddalach do when it's dark? Walk around looking
for people who are lonesome.  You know what the
holy thing is before Meshiach is coming?  Little bit
dark but sudenly we're aware who knows maybe
somebody else is even more darnkenes.  Anyway, I 
just want to wish you all of you, that whenever
you're living a little bit in darkness there should
always be someone sitting next to you.  Holy Shala
Shoodus Nigun.  Nigun out of darkness.  I want
to tell you something this is really a true
story you know but is so simple.  You know
Lexington Kentucky is one of the top top places
for about four or five mental instittuions, the
greatest in the country in America.  I gave a concert
there and a top doctor there from one of the mental 
institutions says I'd like to make this experiment
tomorrow.  I want you to come and play
for the patients.  I want you to play for
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patients who have not spoken for half a year.  I'd
like to try out their reaction.  Then it was a very 
sad thing.  I went there and was playing, no
reaction.  I said to the doctor, you know something?
I know one thing.  Shala Shoodus is the holiest
time of the Shabbos because it's dark.  I says, if 
you don't mind, if you're not afraid something 
will go wrong, would it be possible to pull
down the shades, make it very dark.  Make it 
just one candle?  
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And lets sing.  And I tell you
the greatest thing happened. Next to me was sitting
a woman who was, I don't know. she was, the 
doctor told me she was [TR: NAME UNCLEAR] he had no
right to give out names but this girl was one
of the top singers in that part of the country.
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{Note (sa):  That part of the country is Bluegrass.}

Suddenly something happened to her nebach
she -- cut me off and he said she hasn't spoken
for half a year.  But she hasn't even just uttered
one note.  Anyway I was singing next to her
and I really couldn't believe my own ears.
Suddenly after about seven minutes darkness, you
know, just the most unbelieveably beautiful harmony 
came out of her.  I couldn't stop siging it was
just so beatutiful.  Unbelieveable you know. Unbelieveable.
I'd just like to wish myself and you and all
of us, the difference between before Tish Above and
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after Tish A'bove.  I don't know.
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After Tish A'bove
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it will be
less dark.  But I just hope that Tish A'bove will make
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us aware that, just to give each other our hands.
Because the Meshiach is coming that is what will
happen.  Be the same world. Same Baruch_ala, Moish_ala,
Sara_la, Sh[l?]omala.  Everybody will be the same.  The only
thing is, right now, we have about 10,000 walls
between us.  The Meshiach is coming, suddenly we'll
we'll be so close to each other.
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I'll just sing
one more sweet song.  Give me the greatest harmony.
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[TRANSCRIPTION NOTES:  New Tape]

I want to learn a little bit Reb Nachman but
just a litte bit to, to get there I want to learn this 
Musa Vika(?) [TR. inserts the question-mark ] from Reb Cook.
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You know to love is a 
very very deep thing. Very very deep thing.  I tell
you in a nutshell you know its -- the trust is, 
take the backbone.  I don't know so much medicine
like my holy brother-in-law knows better, but the
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spine has tremendous kinds of functions, right.  Keeps
the body going, right. Even while I'm lying down
you know.  So it's not even giving me the standing
upright.  I just need it because like all my
functions go through my backgone.  But above all
you know the backbone momish keeps me up
right.  If you would ask me in a nutshell what
is, whaat does it mean to slove somethng.  To love
G_d.  To love Israel. To love the world.  This is momisch
the backbone.  This is absolutely the backbone.  If you
see a person creeping on all four right on a human level, on a
Jewish level

{Note (sa):  The transcriber consistently spells 'level' as
'leval'.  So if you know anyone who does so, maybe that's the as
yet unidentified transcriber.}

on any leval in
the world.  He'll say you know listen, I love ... 

[3-dots ms. transcript -- usually I assume that just means a
spaceout pause, not an elision of text; but here -- it could be
that RSC alluded to the Divine Name, and the transcriber was
circumspect.  Or that RSC said something that the transcriber
discreetely elided ... }  

it's a lie right.   


Ok, lets go slowly.  

{Note (sa):  Sounds like RSC just said something deep, but then
went back to explicate it slowly.}

I want you
to know something very very deep.  What is
the difference between me, let's say taking somebody
and talking to them about Shabbus

{Note (sa): Transcriber consistently spells Shabos 'Shabbus'}

or I'm standing
on Mt. Sinai and G_d tells me about Shabbus?
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What's the difference let's say for instance if I'm
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??k'vais?? [note (sa):  sic, looks like k'vais] opening a book
right and there it says
I should mamish love G_d, or imagine I would be
privileged to hear from the holy Baal Shem you know
I would once hear in my whole lie the Baal
Shem say {Hebrew script with nekudot;  ahAV_TA aEt '' aElokE-kHA
b_kOl LVaV_kha
[love the LORD your G_d with all your heat ]
words right?  But it isn't you know I heard from
Reb Smuale
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there was a little water carrier in Lubovitch.  
And this little water carrier could barely read or 
write but, he could doven a little bit.  He know
just a tiny little bit.  But he knew that 
{Hebrew script:  
ki chen ChaIeNU V_AOReKh YaMe_nu
(for they are your life and illuminate your days)
means this is my life and this give me the length
of my days. And somedays he would come to the
Rebbe and the Rebbe was sharp and he couldn't understand
what he says.  But at one time, the Rebbe said a mimer [or?:
mimei] 
a long Torah on Ki CheN ChaIe_Nu V_AOReKh YaMeI-NU
So he says that
this water carrier momish his whole life you 
know.  He was drawing water and whole time
he was saying to himself, Ki CheN ChaI_Nu -- momish gave
him so much life.  He knew the words all the time
you know, gave him life.  
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Let's put it this way.:
What is Meshiach going to each us that we don't know yet.  The
Meshiach is coming.  He's gong
to teach us.  What's he going to each us?  Moishe
Rabbeinu taught us everything. The things is
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when we hear it from Messiach, it will momish get
into you, you know. Same words, but that means
the way Messiach will be filled with life, like nobody
before right.  Not even Moishe Rabbeinu.  Let's say Moiseh
Rabbeinu also told us keep Shabbus, but it's still
possible that yiddalah should not keep Shabbus.
We'll  hear the same words.  Messiach will say 
Yiddalach, gevalt you know.  Friday afternoon you
better run to the mikvah it's Shabbus.  All the Yiddalach
will run to the Mikevah and all the Yiddalah will ... [3 dots ms.
transcript]  
right?  Cause it will be so real.  Listen to this, if 
someone says I love you or -- 

_____Ok I'm going
back to what I said.  The difference between us
learning about shabbus and hearing G_d saying
it's Shabbus, is, on a very simple leval is, when
I talk to you about Shabbus, I talk about Shabbus
right. Can I take Shabbus and put in in your 
heart?  I can't right.  I can teach you all about
Shabbus. Give you a taste.  Make you interested 
in Shabbus.  Maybe you want to learn about Shabbus
right.  But momish G_d takes, give you Shabbus
right.  You see, it's like this.  There are some peple
who have a taste or loving, who know a little
bit about loving, and some people mamish have
love you know.  They momish have it.  They
really have it.  So Reb Cook [ie, Rav Kuk] begins to say
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like this. To love is not a function.  You know, to eat is
a function.  To think is a function.  To walk is as function.
To love is not a function.  It's much deeper than that.
If your whole heart isn't filled with it, not a function,
just, filled with love, then it's not the real thing yet.
It's not real.  

_____And he says momish very holy words.
The whole heart has to be completely filled.  You have
to love G_d with ALL your heart.  You have to love the
other person with all your heart.  If it's a function, even
loving can be a function.  It'snot real.  It has to be
completely and {HS:  LKOVoD [TRANSCRIBER ADDS (?), A QUESTION
MARK]  This is momish crazy but
it's true.  You momisch have to love everything.  So now
he says which is I'm sure, if I walk down and
would meet some people they would say it's apikorus 

{Comment (sa):  Or if not apikorus, orgy-pourous.  Epicure we were
for sure.} 

but this is the way he said it.  This is the order.
Take it or leave it. 

_____The first thing is, you have to
love momisch every creature in the world.  That's
the first level. The first level is that I'm walking 
around and, you know what love means?
That means, not just, it's a very close reltionshp
you know. Very very deep relationshp.  You know
to fear means I don't want to be related.  Which
is the opposite of love.  And love means I want
to be as close as I can.  Closest I can get.  If
I look at the sky, I momish have to love
the sky you know.  G_d created the sky.  It's
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a beautiful sky.  There's something gong on between 
me and the sky right.  Between me and every littele
createure.  I see a bird, and (if) [TR. '(if)'] my heart doesn't
think
momish love you little bird, not with it.  So the first
level is I have to momish love everytihg.  Then, when
I see people it has to be even higher.  Because man is
created in G_d's image.  Besides, man is something
very special. You know, when we say sheva brachos
we say, first we say [HEBREW SCRIPT TIWHT NEKUDOT:]
SheKhaKOL D_BRA L_QODOT?? 
[By Whose WORD all came into being]
and then we say
[HEBREW SCRIPT with Nekudot]:
YOTzeH Ha_ADaM            
[Who hast made Man]
It's much deper than taht.  After that
then theres' something very very special. Super special.
The way I love Israel hoas to be even deeper than that.        
[TRANSLITERATED HEBREW:]
The he says why.  Shaseedin Yisrloel Assakin Es Kole ha Mysime 
koolam.  

Now list to this. Very very deep.  If somoene
asks you why do you love Israel in such a special way:
The answer is, because, because, we yiddalach, we have
the key to the redemption of the world.  And the
more I love the world, the more I love Israel.  The
more I love Israel, the more I love the world.  But if
I hate the world, you know, or I think the world is
nothing.  Suddenly I say, I love Israel.  What, why, 
where, when?  Just completely out of context.  

Then he
says something very strong.  Again, somebody says
Waht do you mean you love.  I say I just love
you. Imagine, say to somebody, you know
I just love you.  And you'll say ok, can you
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[I had marked my xerox of this: A4 - Pt. 2; but then I stapled
that to Pt. 1, so I don't count it as Part 2 now, Drew.]

please do me a favor.  He says no. I don't watn to do
you a favor.  I just want to love you.  You know.  This
isn't right.  So what's the first thing if I love sombebody?
That means momish I want to do anything for them.

     Kids lets momisch concentrate because we have 
to learn a lot today.
Ok what does it mean my
heart is filled, my heart is momisch filled with loving? 

Listen to this.  This is momish strong words.  The first thing
is, I want to do everybody a favor.  Not only I want to
do them a favor, when they ask me, I momish, I just
waant they should have everything good.  And then
the most important thing is ... [3-dots MS.] 

[(TR. NOTES: Noise increases. Classs moves inside] 

[PRESUMABLY SOME REMARKS BY RSC LOST IN THE MOVE]

But Rav Kook is saying something very simple.  Imagine
I'm asking somebody a favor. 
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Can you please give me
a hundered dollars.  And he gives it to me.  And I'm
asking somebody whyo loves me and he also gives
me a hundred dollars.  What's the difference?  But, I
tell you.  It's very simple.  The person who doesn't love me,
it was just a mechanical function.  He gave it to me
you know. There was no completeness in it.  The person
who loves me, there was tremendous completeness in
it you know. Cause he gave it to me with all his
heart.
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    What is the difference between a Yiddalach who
loveds G_d and puts on Tefillen and a Yiddalah who 
doesn't give a damn [sic M'am, 'damn'] 
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he just puts puts of tfillin because
kvais.
[GLOSSARY:  'kvais' = [Don't know yet.  I guess like 'it's
obligatory']
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If a Yiddalah puts on Tefillen who momish
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believes in G_d; loves G_d; when he puts on tfillin.  The truth
is at that moment, he'll do anything in the world
for G_d right.  Whatever G_d told him.  
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So HE told him put
on tfillin, right. But that's completeness, right. 

Anyway, so
he says like this.  
Lets just repeat again. 
The first
thing is that love means that momish my whole
heart is completely filled with it.  It has to be not
just an act.  It has to be complete right.  I don't 
even have words for it you know.  It has to be 
momish complete amd my heart is filled with it.
Then my levels are first I love every creature. Because,
its very simple as it is you know. How much
did G_d put in every balde of grass.  How much did
G-d put in right.  How much does G_d care fore very
blade of grass?  Imagine how much, if someone's
life would depend on me, how much care would
I have to give that person.  Their very life depends on
me. 
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How much does the mother love
that kid right.  How much does G_d care for every 
craweteure in the world knowing that their whole 
life depends on G_d right.  Its a gevalt right.  So
if I have a little taste of that, then I love the
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whole world. Then I have to love people in a very special
way.  And then I love Israel even more because Isreael is the one
who lift up the whole world.  

And then on top of all this,
listen to this.  And above, and above, and a million times
above all this is the love of G_d.  And he says the truth
is, the love of G_d ... [3-dots MS.].  Someone asks you, you love
G_d.  So therefore.  Thre is not therefore.  There doesn't
have to be a therefore.  If I love G_d that maens he
says this itself is such a great, the deepest depth.  The
deepest depths of feeling a human being is capable of
is momish loving G_d.  That's the highest level there is
and this is, he says, that's the highest level of happiness
in the world.  Anybody can feel any momish
happiness in the world, the highest happiness you
can feel if your heart is completely filled with
love of G_d.  Then he says, it is impossible not to 
love G_d.  It is impossible not to feel the sweetness of 
that love.  It is impossible not to love Torah Mitzvahs
because this is mamash this is G_d. This is my KESHER , [Heb.
lit.: Bridge]
my connection to G_d.  It is impossible not to love
justice ['justice' presumably here = Heb. 'tzdaka'] 
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It is impossible not to love and to hope for
the world to come to its highest possible level.  And 
it is impossible not to flow over with great love
for every little creature because G_d makes
HIMSelf mianifest in every little creature. And
G_d's love makes itself manifest and G_d's
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compassion and G_d's sweetness makes itself manifest
with every little creature in the world and then
he says something very strong.  One more thing.
This great love, for the world for G_d and for everything; 
that's the greatest fire in the world.  

Listen, if you
meet someobdy you know, he might be having
a streimala on, and he's says hello to you you know.
I hate to say bad things but it's not their fault
but, maybe some day they'll be real.  
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#l1

You know
you meet a Yid and you say Shalom Aleichem
and he gives you two fingers -- I want you to
know something very strong.  I don't know if I told
youi .  My first encounter with a lot of Hasidim in
Williamsburg was very sweet but, the way they
shook hands with me, I mamash thought that the
way to shake hands you were only supposed to
give two fingers.  Then you make sure they don't 
touch more than the first part of your finger.  I
remember I was telling my brother you'd better
rehearse because that's the way Hasidim shake hands
you know I was very proud.  Finally I got into
it and I was momish able to shake somebody's 
hand and make sure they don't touch the whole
hand.  Just catch the first part of my fingers.  But
listen to this. Then the strongest thing happened to
me I was [rivileged on Shabbos the holy
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Bionna Rebbe, I don't know you know. bionna is one
of the last Rebbes in the world you know. A remnant of
the great kingdom of RIZHEN.  The holy BIONNA came to my
neighborhood for Shabbos, you know Canal Street.  And
maybe some you remember there was a 
Bais Medrish on Empire Blvd.  Big Bais Medrish.  And the
Bionna.  He came there Friday night.  The Tish was a
gevalt you know. And after Friday night, my brother
and I walked up to him, we were just about, you
know sharpening our fingernails.  If a little hasid
gives only two parts of the finger that means that
the Rebbe just touches you like this then it's off.  That's
what I thought you know. But momish, the Bionna
Rebbe momish gave me his whole hand you know. But
you know, sometimes people give you their hand, and
they're momish giving you all they have you
know.  Momish like gevalt you know. Remember
we were learning that one Rebbe says when you
shake someone's hand it's like I swear to you
that I love you.  Swear to you and momish the Bionna
Rebbe gave me his hand so strong you know, I could
feel his handshake for a month after that you know.
Momish shook me up.  
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____Anyway , the question is, sometimes
you shake hands with somebody and nothing 
happens to yuou.  Imagine, what happens to you 
when you plug into electiricty?  Psst.  You'd
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better get a shock.  Otherwise something wrong with the
electricity you know.  The truth is, when you're in
touch with somebody who really loves G_d, really
loves the world, in the order that Rav Kook says, there's
such a great fire that -- it's the greatest fire in the world.
Two things.  First of all it make you warm and it
puts light into you, you know. And the sweetness
has no end.  

_____!Then he [Rav Kook] says, how cruel of a person
to himself to be involved with so much thinking
that he completely forgets what he is born for.  In
the mean time he walks and -- half his size.  Oy.
[ That is:  one who cannot recall his purpose in life, and strive
to fulfill it, walks around through life with only half the
stature that belongs to him. (sa)]!

It's a gevalt.  

_____Ok, one more thing kids. 

__________It's very hard 
to love people, you know.  Very hard.  Don't kid yourself.
Sometimes people look so ridiculous to you you know.
So disgusting and so stupid right.  Let's put it
this way.  A cockroach is a little bit hard to love
right.  It's not so hard.  You look at a little cockroach
you see its cute you know.  OK.
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_____That also takes a
lot out of you right.  Because you momish have
to love every creature of G_d.  But it's not so hard 
yet. But momish to love people believe me it's the hardest hardest
thing in the world.  And to
love them with this complete love is the hardest
thing in the world you know.  Sometimes you
meet people you momish -- chh -- gevalt you know.
Takes a lot out of you.  Rav Kook says it takes
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a lot of learning.  Takes a lot.  

Now something very deep.
           
Imagine if I'm a great scientist you know, and I 
did my little studying and I realize you know its
good for me to love people, to love G_d.  Can be on
a scientific level you know. Like without mentioning
names one holy master somewehre came out
with a book -- 'The Science of G_d' -- you know .  And he
gives you fiftenn levels and then momish you
reach G_d you know. You go up fifteen and if 
you have connections you skip a few and
you go up faster.

[APPARENTLY A QUESTION:] "Was that Maimonidies" 

No, G_d forbid.
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{Comment (sa):  No need to invoke Divine retroactive intervention;
a few revisionist historians will do.}

Maimonides.  Maimonides was real.
You know thdre are a lot of people where for $200 they
initiate you and maybe for $150.  Some people
promise you Heaven or Hell you know.  But Rav
Kook says something very deep.  What's behind all
this?  Behind all this is Amunah shlemo you know,
believing.  Believing doesn't mean you now, believing
from Reb Nchman.  Believing is theat deep thing which
has no words right.  This is something so deep you
know it be ... [3-dot MS.].  
I'll tell you somethign very very
deep.  If I love you that means its an emotion 
right.  I can feel it.  I can describe it.  If I tell
you I believe in you, it's deeper than all this.  This
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is momish so infinite.  This is absolutely touching the
ifintite.  Loving G_d is a very holy thing.  It's also
infinite.  Believeing in G_d. 

Now listen to this. Tell
you in a very deep way.
If I love G_d it's still 
I, love G_d.  Right.  When I say I believe in G_d it's
completely it has no I.  Believing has no I.  If I say
to someone I believe in you, I'ts not I, the big person
believes in you little water carrier.  Then it's not believing.
Believing has no I you know.  It's just, I believe in you.
Believing is the deepest, most holyest, most gentle, the 
most refined, the most spiritual thing in the world.
And he says AMUNaH is the highest thought a human 
being is capable of.  Imagine if I would refine my
thoughts higher higher higher higher higher.  The highest highest
deepest thought I could have in my head is, mamosh,
I balieve in G_d.  Or the highest thought I can have
about another human being is momish I believe in
them.  

_____And he says somethgn very strong.  Believing 
in G_d you know momish has to give you such
high wings in the most unbelieveable way.  And if
you have no wings, then you don't believe.

[QUESTION:]{TRANSCRIBER NOTES QUESTIONS WITH "Quotes"}
"What do you mean?"
[RSC REPLIES:] {TRANSCRIBER NOTES RSC'S REPLIES MERELY BY
REVERTING TO UNQUOTED FORMAT}

Wings, you're flying you know.  Something so
open about Jews so deeps so high.

"Enough to make you fly?"           

If you really believe in G_d.

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[QUESTIONER CONTINUES:]

"Who really believes im G_d then?"

I hope you, I hope.  You know, I don't know.  I hope
we'll get to it you know.

"Who actually flies constantly?"

Why?  Weren't you flying when you stood by the Holy wall praying?

"Yes but not necesarily flies laater."

Ok. So G_d blessed me.  
{a4a-26}

You had one moment of flying.
It's also great you know.  I tell you what .  How
much do you eat?  You eat a little bit and it
keeps you going.  You don't eat all the time.  You 
know, maybe one prayer by the Holy Wall keeps
me going for my whole life you know.

Kids, I have to tell you something very strong
you know.  OK.  I don't know if I should say it 
anyway.

I want to tell you something very deep.  Everybody
talks aboaut believing in G_d right.  But the way we
Holy Holy Israel are believing in G_d, it's a completely
different thing.  Completely different thing.  Again
there is no words to describe it because believing has
no word. But it is so.  Momish.  I believe so I know so
It's the utmost refind.  The utmost utmost refined of
this holiest thought a human being is capable
of believing in G_d was given to us on Mt. Sinai.
It's given to us in every holy book you know.
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Torah.  Sometimes heartbreaking you know.
Kids get lost and they don't know where they 
belong to you know.  Heartbreaking.

     Now he says even believing has to be refined
you know.  Listen, if you were already on the level
you wouldn't have to live anymore.  Everything
needs so much refining.  And G_d gives you so 
many hours and so many days and so many
weeks to live to refine everything.  And the
holyness, the holyness is the strangest thing in
the world you know.  Maybe sometimes we
Yiddalach as private individuals are goofing
off, you know.  But as a whole, as people, as a whole,
we're top right.  In a whole we are top.  You
see, it's very simple as it is kids.  To whom did
the prophets talk to?  You know, whom did the
prophets talk to?  To us, right.  Prophet is the utmost
of truth and helieving together.  what is prophesy?
The utmost -- beause a prophet has words right.
But he has to believe that it is so right.  Future.
The utmost of non words and words, the utmost
of meeting of truth and believing is prophescy
right.  This was given to us.  This was momish
given to us.  And maybe some kids don't know
where its at you know, but I'm telling you, take
it or leave it.  You know the most heartbreaking
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ting there is -- whEn people come to us Yiddalach
and they have to tell us what the prophets says you
know.  Biggest joke in the world you know.  
{a4a-27}

Let
them take off their shoes and learn first what we
Yiddalach have to say, you know.  They read a
little Biblela somwhere you knw, heartbreaking
you know.  I'm just telling you kids.  Before you
learn from somebody, listen to somebody you
know, just think for one minute is this the
person who stood on Mt. Sinai and heard about
believing in G_d in its utmost purity.  Utmost purity in its
utmost depths. ... [3-dots MS.] 
[TRANSCRIBER NOTES: "[SIDE ONE ENDS]"

[TRANSCRIBER NOTES: "SIDE TWO"]

I'll tell you something very very strong you know,
on a simple level.  Imagine you know.  I can have
a date with a girl, I ook at her and I say she
has a beautiful nose.  Exactly like this other girl
I met in Los Angeles.  I look at her eyes and I say
Oh, she has beautiufl eyes just like this girl I met
in Hawaii two years agok you know.  And then, she
really talks very sweet like once I heard some
girl reading poetry in the Village [i.e. Greenwich Village] you
know.  And
then, I compare everything she has to something else. 
{a4a-28}

It's very sweet and very cute but obviously you
don't love her.  Don't kid around. Cause if I cared one
ounce for her, then it's just she you know
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When I talk to someone about Yiddishkite and 
he can tell me you know, that's very sweet, yea I
heard this from another religion.  And I tell him
something else and he tell me that's very sweet I
heard it in another religon.  That's very sweet and very
cute but obviously you're not a Jew.  Obviosly you're
not.  I'm begging you you know, I don't know what
you do all the time , just for these few minutes we're
learning I'm begging you.  Otherwise we're just wasting
our time.  You're wasting your time.  Obviosly, if G_d
could have told us something without Mt. Sinai, HE wouldn't
hae taken the time to take us to Mt. Sinai right.  And
obviously if there are people in the world who know as
much about G_d as we do, how come the Prophts didn't
talk to them   How come G_d didn't take them back to
Isreael. So anyway I was just begging you 
for a few minutes while we're learning Reb Nachman,
empty your souls you know.  Really make a place for deep things. 
Don't tell me after that that you heard
it somewhwere else.  If anyone would tell me that
they heard it then with all due respect don't waste
my time or your time.  Don't waste G_d's time.
{a4a-29}

Ok, it's very deep things.

The world is far from G_d.  
{a4a-30}

____ Why aren't we
getting close to HIM?  Because they have no Yeshum Vadaas.
Yeshum Vadaas means the mind never sits down
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A person can think a lot, can think day and night.  
You can have a mind which goes as fast a seven 
four seven {a4a-31} yet, get you nowhere.  There's a time
your mind has to sit down.  Your mind has to
stop, and sit down and think.  
{a4a-31a}

{a4a-31a}
{Comment (sa):  Cf. Leary, speaking of being trapped in the mind
chakra.}

And you have to
sit down, your mind has to sit down and think,
what is really my purpose.  What good is all the
things I'm running after in the world.  This is my
purpose?  Am I born to eat a lot, to sleep a ot?  Even
on the high G_d level, the relgious level, am I born
jut to knock off a little Shabbus-le.  Amd I just born to
knock off a little prayer or am I just born time to
time to do somebody a favor?  
{a4a-32}  For that my soul
has to descend from high heaven into this world? 
You see, if I really believe I'm the higheset creature in
the world and that I'm created in G_d's image, this is
all I'm capable of?  And for that G_d had to take me
to Mt. Sinai and talk to me?  You know.   This is a 
child of Abraham, Issac and Jacob and this is all I
can do?  So I have to think and sit, sit and think.
Listen to this.  First of all what is with all the things
I'm eating, I'm sleeping, all the things which I take
in , I'm longing for, I'm desiring and all the things
which are outside of me?  I love honor, I love attention.
This is all I need?  OK, so I've been invited by a UJA 
{a4a-33}
meeting, and I'll have a great dinner in my honor
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So therefore.  So what.  So someone give me fifty
titles, someone gives you so much honor.  So what.
But then he says, you have to know something very
strong.  When you're sad, you're not the master of your mind.  Let
me contine and you'll understand in a second why.  
{a4a-p24a}

{a4a-p24a}
{Note (sa):  The term of Reb Nachman's which RSC translates as
'sad' -- here and in many other teachings -- would, I reckon from
context, and regardless of what Hebrew (Yiddish?) word Reb Nachman
used, better be translated 'depressed'.}

_____ Therfeore you can not sit down
with your mind.  Only when you're filled with 
joy.  Completely filled with joy.  Then you can tell
your mind, listen brother mind, let's sit down.
Start right here and tell me exactly what am I
doing in this world.  

Now this is the deepest depths of 
Reb Nachman you have to remember it all you life.
Where is joy coming from?  Joy comes from the highest
world there is.  Joy comes from the world of freedom.
{a4a-24b}

What does sit mean to be sad?  Sad means to be a 
slave.  To be filled with joy means to be completely free. 
Completely free.  Because it says with joy you'll go 
out.  From all your slavery. With joy you'll go out
from exile. and therefore when you tie your joy
to your mind -- because the when you tie your
joy to your mind them momish suddenly something
happens to you, your mind is free.  A very
strange thing you know. The strangest thing in 
the word is that .. 

[apparently 2 dots on my xerox transcript, unless the flies got
into the prune juice]

You know physically to be in
exile means that I can't move right.  I'm tied.
On a mind level it's the other way around When
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[I ARBITRARILY BROKE THIS TEACHING AT THIS POINT, BECAUSE MY
STAPLING MACHINE IS LIKE HUMBLE.]
[I'LL CONTINUE INPUT OF THIS TEACHING AS SC_A4B]
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sa, Mevo Modi'in, 2 Av
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