Christy's Bio
I only started seriously cross-dressing in November 1995, after 20 years
of such strong denial, that I was barely aware of my true
desires. These feelings have only fully surfaced in the last few
years, and now, having accepted my crossdressing, many of my
introductory experiences to cross-dressing have come back to me. Each
time I read some of the stories posted on CD/TV web pages, I recognize
many of my own experiences and sentiments long suppressed; things such
as trying on my mothers stockings, girdles, skirts, when I was a teen and
earlier; regular, but passing thoughts of what it would be like to put on makeup,
have long flowing hair, dress-up and just to truly look and feel like a
woman. I must have rationalized that these things were just youthful
experimentation, and absurd thoughts, for until recently, I had
forgotten about most of them.
I think one of the reasons that I had suppressed my desire to
cross-dress, was that I had thought it was somehow abnormal. Luckily,
about 8 years ago I went to a "Pimp and Prostitute" party. This is a
party where the men dress as women and the women dress as men. Before
the party, my three friends and I were helped to completely make-up
and be dressed by our girlfriends. Then and there, I became aware of
how exciting it was to be fully dressed as woman, and, the only reason
I had the courage to do so, was because my best friends were doing so.
The party was electric, the women (and men) seemed more turned-on than
at any other party that I have ever been to. But for me, the real
shocker came when, my best friend Scott freely admitted how much he
liked putting on womens clothing, especially the lingerie and
stockings. He even said that he wished he could do so all the time.
Well for me this was like a dam breaking, I wasn't the only one that
had these desires, desires so hidden, that, whenever I had them, I
would force them from my mind.
Unfortunately, a year or so after the party, my friends and I began
to drift apart, as they married and went their separate ways. Thus
the experience faded and once again my desires submerged, and were
eventually denied.
In October 95, for some unknown reason, it occurred to me
to do an internet search on cross-dressing, and I came across
TG-Forum. Over the course of several months I read all I could and
gradually exposed my wife to some of the more poignant articles that I
encountered. Ultimately my wife has been very supportive of my
cross-dressing, to the point that she now encourages me to dress up
each night, after the children are asleep. She is teaching me to put
on make up and has bought all of my female clothing.
I wish I had had the courage to respond to my feelings 20 years
ago, when I was much slimmer and sureley would have been more
passable. Now, I consider myself barely passable, and regret not
dressing when I could have felt even more feminine. If it wasn't
for my wife, I wouldn't even be where I am now, simply dressing-up at
home, because I am still apprehensive about even buying a pair of
stockings at a department store. I can certainly empathize with
anyone who hesitates at going out enfemme, for, I have had a hard time
imagining myself going out dressed .........
until recently.
I did get up the courage this year to go out on Halloween, and I fooled my neighbors
so well, that I now have the confidence to go anywhere. I even went to Pimblets
(a local CD friendly, English style bar) one night on my own, for a quick guiness.
And soon I intend to go shopping with my wife, when we
get the right babysitter. Unfortunately I don't have my female voice yet, but, for now
I'll let my wife do the talking.