Questions

Where are you going?
He asked with a frown.
Where am I going?
Just out for a while.

Do you still love me?
I really must know.
How can I answer?
I just have to go.

Why must you do this?
Why walk out the door?
Something is missing
It's becoming a bore.

Don't I do what you like?
Make you happy, not sad?
How do I know?
You're the best that I've had.

Isn't that enough?
You could settle down.
I would if I could
But
Not in this town.

Is there someone else?
A better lover?
There's no one I swear.
But
There could be another.

Why? What are you seeking?
What is so wrong?
Nothing
But me.
Will you be gone long?

You know I'll be back.
You can't stay away?
Why ask that question?
Then why must you stray?

I must know the answer.
What question was asked?
I just want to know
Can I live with the past?

Can't we discuss it?
Why search by yourself?
Why must you leave me
Alone
On the shelf?

Because you are able
Even willing to wait.
You say that you love me
yet the pain won't abate.

That's part of the pattern.
Can I ever change?
I love you regardless.
Through anger?
Through pain?

Come back.
Let me hold you.
That's something
Tonight
I just can not do.

Will I see you
Tomorrow?
Who knows where I'll be?
You know I'll be waiting?
I know, I can see.

You've always been honest
But I tell you,
This sucks!
All those others
Were
Just time-passing fucks?

I thought so.
I hope so.
I really don't know.
Am I just another?
That's why I must go.

To search for the answer.
To find if it's real.
To answer the question,
Is this the big deal?

And here in our bed
You can't figure it out?
You don't understand
What my search is about.

Do you?
Are you sure it's not fear?
Afraid to change
Settle down, here.

It could be that
That
Is just how I feel.
Running from something
Honest and
Real.

Go.
I won't hold you down.
I know.
You'll still be around.

But I won't wait forever.
Who would?
Someone who loves you.
Someone who should.

Don't take too long
On your wild quest.
I rode into the sunset
Far in the West.

Was I right to leave him?
Would I ever return?
The real question is,
Will I ever learn?

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