December 2003

• Tuesday, the 30^th
      Today I got my new computer... a notebook. But I have to learn how to use it, configure it and install a lot of things... so I'm still using the old one. I was so excited to have it! I've been rearranging the furniture in my room and all... I wanna check if I can sleep in this way!
      Here's the summary of the last weekend of 2003...
  Wow! it's been such a cool saturday!!! Late in the afternoon I went to the cinema with my bf to see "Love Actually" and it was so fun! It was the first time for us to go to a movie.. Very cool! :)
      Then, as usual, we had dinner at my home, then we went to the Jungle Club. There were lots of people (at least much more than those supposed to be there). I danced so much!!!!! The DJs have played almost all my fav songs, and I was tired and my muscles hurt but I didn't care, I just kept on dancing and dancing. It felt great! After the pause I'd taken for a few weeks, I really needed to be there again.
      At the very beginning I talk with Alesh, a 19 y-o boy who thought I knew everything about lots of goths.. He told me everything about some "popular" people.. and also about his love troubles, hehehe! he's so sweet. I really had fun yesterday night, yeah! We came back home after 4 a.m. And I slept till 1 p.m.! I even managed to study a little bit, now I'm searching some mp3s and that's all. Tomorrow's kinda busy day, so I'm going to sleep as soon as possible. Laterz..
  
  
• Thursday, the 25^th
      Xmas. It's almost over. Boring. Sad. Lonely. As usual on this day of the year. I'm just looking forward for the next week (or maybe two) when I will get my new computer. 
      So: yesterday I went shopping a little, I just bought the present for my mother, then spent a couple of hours with Lo at his work, then I went at Vittoria's work and stayed there one hour talking. I came back home at 5pm. The evening's been weird. I had dinner at 10pm, while my mother was on the phone. Then at 10.30 my friend Claudio arrived and stayed here for a couple of hours. I was so tired! This morning I've been obliged to go to church.. bah.. I was yawning all the time! Then the terrible lunch with my grandfather and his brother. Afternoon spent watching a movie, now I'm on internet. I'm nervous. I hate xmas. I hate not having money. I hate this town. 
      I need to sleep, at least 12 hours.... ehehehe!! I'm going to bed soon, and keep on reading Memnoch the Devil. I just wish I had some more strenght to write to my dearest friend Elliott, and maybe to talk on the phone with some other people I know.. laterz..

• Monday, the 22^nd
      I've had the most beautiful weekend since a very long time! On Friday night Lorenzo slept here, so that we spent the whole Saturday together, here at my home. Slept 'til late, stayed in bed 'til late.. :) had lunch at 4 p.m.! Then in bed again. At night he went dancing at the usual club, but I stayed at home, being too tired! On Sunday I was supposed to go the Auditorium for a concert of the choir of Santa Cecilia Academy. But the public transport were on strike.... so I found myself in the centre of Rome and I had to go back home on foot. It took me 2 hours, under the rain. My muscles still hurt! By chance the tramway started working again in the afternoon, so I was able to go the station, take the train and reach my lovely bf. We cooked our dinner, watched Friends, then we... :) and then just slept. This morning we came back to Rome, he went to work and I went home. That's all. (my English sucks right now!)

• Wednesday, the 17^th
      I'm stressed. I have too many things to do. Things for other people. I have to be kind, gentle, nice. I can't bear this any longer. Thanks God (LOL!) tomorrow is the end of the term. No more confusion making photocopies, going from one class to an other, meeting my mates, etc..       Yesterday I wrote an explication-email on my friend Giuliano's Mailing List. I was glad to know they still care for me. Cool. I'm just looking forward for the weekend. Something interesting could happen, if only we would let it happen.. Wow...
      The other online-diary I have is more uptodate than this pages here. 

• Monday, the 8^th
      We went away at 2.30a.m. Fucking early, but we were tired of all that mess. We stopped at the Maritozzaro and I had a "pain-au-chocolat". Excellent! It was freezing cold, windy, but the sky was very clear and the stars were shining bright.. Ok, I'll stop this!
  
  

• Sunday, the 7^th
      Today's been terrible. I was oh so fucking depressed.. I even wrote a letter to my mother telling her all the things I hate about my life. I was trying to get a little drunk, hard thing to do with a Campari Mixx and some chocolate wafers.. 
      At night we (Lò and I) went to the Jungle. There was a party for Gothica.it a goth community. I didn't like it. All the "new" people were so rude and violent, lots of punks..! I just was happy to dance some old Apoptygma Berzerk and Calva Y Nada. The post-punk pit was impracticable! I loathe italian Goths! Oh my goth, am I one?!

• Thursday, the 4^th
      At night we went to the "Qube" because some Lorenzo's friends were playing live there. Despite some technical troubles, they've made a good show, I really liked their songs!
  
  
• Tuesday, the 2^nd
      Lorenzo made me a surprise! He came at my university at 4p.m. and we went around together. I really missed him!
  
  
• Monday, the 1^st
      Today the public transport was on strike. So the easiest thing to do was to sleep 'till late. Just did it. My university mate came at my home to pick me up with his new car! (Mercedes Classe A). We had lunch at his house, talked, listened to music. Later in the afternoon he gave me a lift to my oculist. I went back home alone. I had to think a lot, I was feeling very sad and confused. - At night I saw the last episode of E.R.
  

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November 2003

• November 30^th 2003
  Saturday night. Lorenzo was busy with his friends. So I went dancing on my own. The worst moment was from 11p.m. until midnight, when the music went loud. I talked a little with Diegus and Vincent, the DJs. I danced, I wandered from one room to the other, but I wasn't having so much fun.Then, at 1a.m. I sat down to rest and the girl who was near started talking.. she was very nice, and her boyfriend too! So we (kind of) made friends and I had a good time with them. I came back home at 3a.m. more or less. At night the traffic jam is much more than during the day!!!
  
  

• November 28^th 2003

I haven't been doing anything really all day long..Yesterday night I went out with my friend Giuliano. It was ages since we last met! We went to a club called "Qube": there was "Red Shift", a cover band of my beloved Porcupine Tree. We had fun, talking a lot about everything we'd been doing during the last months. Before going back home, we stopped at the "Maritozzaro" to have some croissant, pain-au-chocolat, maritozzi... very good!!! :-)
So, I woke up this morning at 11.30 and since then I've been hanging on the computer, downloading thousands of mp3. I'd like to write something, a short story, a poem, or the lyrics to a song maybe.. yeah, it would be very useful now. We'll see. 

• November 27^th 2003

This is the first day of my cyber-diary. I've been thinking about putting it online for a long time. Several reasons pushed me to do this:

1. I need to improve my written English

2. I need to write down what I've been doing during the day, in order to remember events, people, feelings, thoughts, etc..

3. It's a nice way to keep in touch with those friends living very far from me.

4. I want to start my own fan-club!!! ahahahah! LOL! :-)

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