MY-INNER-TEAR-POEM

I keep staring at the razor blade
My heart is racing, my decision made!
My stomache is in knots with anticipation
My mind racing, with a little hesitation!
No one will understand ..... there's no-one to tell,
So much emotion, utter despair, I'm in my own living hell!
I need this pain to be taken away
Feeling like this, I just can't take it another day!
Yesterday .... today, it's always the same, more sorrow
I don't want to wait around for another tomorrow!
All I have ever loved are no longer here
So now I shall back away, never to let no one near!
I feel so trapped, my soul is aching to be free
Why can't all this torment, fear and frustration leave me be!
Every waking hour to me is a total nightmare
To just close my eyes and never wake up, I wouldn't care!
Untill then I need to cry..... need to let it all out
But I can't as my heart is breaking, "Help me" I want to shout!
So now I reach for the sharped edge blade, I feal no fear
Pull it across, slow & deep....I cry, a drop then more!
At last I've shed my inner tear!!

MY INNER TEAR