This year, I thought again, ' I love singing.'
While we were doing the drama, it was a really boiled down time for me, separated from
music. Since it was so boiled down, I had really wound up nervous energy. So
I didn't know what to do with myself. Of course I coudl return to music by listening to it
when I got home, or going out for karaoke, but something was different. Thinking 'What
do I do?!' I'd return home, and every night I'd be in confusion.
But, even doing that, you can't come to any resolution. So I though, 'I've got to search
for something by myself.' My mood changes alot day by day. (laugh). So, a moment after
I'd been freaking out, I though. 'That's it! I can go to voice lessons!'I thought, 'That
way, I can put myself at ease.' So I decided to go for lessons when I wasn't busy with the
drama.
I only thought, 'It'll be a good change of pace.' But the time during those hour and a half
lessons was really fun. So I was really cheerful on days when I thought 'I can go
tonight.'
Letting my feelings out by going out to play? Oh, I never thought of that at all. I never
had the reverse of having the spirit to go over there. Anyway, I really wanted to calm my
soul. So I think, 'I wonder if I could have gotten anything else than a good change of
pace.'
But the drama turned out to be a good experience. I mean that not only from the point of
view of work, but from my own feelings as well. I really glad that I found a place to calm
my soul, and what is the most fun for me.If we'd just had a concert, and returned to
normally to our jobs as singers, I might not have realized all that. Because, going to a
different place, I really understood once again what I really like, my place in the world,
and the warmth of music...things were boiled down, but I also think I became stronger.
I've been told alot that I do crazy things, (laugh) but when I went to lessons this time, I
thought that as well. It definately came into my mind then. And, I do things that are
wrong, but when I get something right, I think 'Alright! I got it right!' and I go higher
because of that. My probability of getting something right? Umm...I hit the mark about
80~90 percent. And, I'm the kind of person who loses interest if I don't do something
right away when I think 'This is it!', so I resolve to do things really really quickly. I work
with my intuition and not planning? Maybe so...
Huh, what if someone comes and grabs my arm to stop me as I go to do something I've
thought of? I'd drive them away! Because this is my path. (laugh) At times like that I feel
like 'No matter what you say, I want to do this, so I'll do it, just watch me!' And if I fail,
I can always begin again. That's one thing I've learned.
But... I do love this, eh heh heh. If I can be here, more or less....more and more, more
than when we talked last year, I think 'I'll sing, even if anyone says something.' With the
end of the drama, and 'Grace of my heart' the feeling of our songs has changed too. So
my motivation now that I've returned to singing is very great. Right now, I'm having so
much fun I can't stand it.
Have I become stubborn, in a good way? Definately.
(laugh). There are some thing I won't give in about. So more and more, I want to do more
things with our songs, and furthermore when I think 'I want to do this' I do it. (laugh)
Even as we do the recording for our album, I basically never use falsetto, but I really
want to now, and I made an appeal about it, and things like that, because I look out
thinking'The next thing we do will be interesting, no matter what it is.' Up untill now, I
think I've also gotten sort of stiff thinking 'We'll make one album', but now it's gotten
so I'm having a great time doing it.
Something about the Ameku Minako of right now? What should I say...I guess, 'I love
singing so much I can hardly stand it.'. If I'm holding the mic, I won't let it go (laugh),
even if no one's listening, when I sing, I'll make then notice me! To tell the truth, I want
to sing everyday, I want to have a concert everyday. Because I think my face is the most
wonderful when I'm doing this.
I can't be separated from music. I go to see other artists concerts alot, and when we went
to N.Y on our time off, we saw a musical and had voice and dance lessons. (laugh) To
be in music where ever I go, that feels so good. So, next time I move, I want to do some
extravagant thing for music. Like buy good speakers, and a mic and mic stand, make the
aucoustics and sound-proofing really good, and make it so I can sing to my heart's
content, even at home. I wouldn't care how the bathroom or kitchen was, first priority: a
room for music!
Age 20. Looking back, I hadn't really thought about it. People have told me, 'You seem adult now.', but I don't think that I'm like that because I'm 20, reversely, I feel very young.I want to play around and frolic a lot more, and go at things with all my energy. But maybe I think like that because the 4 of us are together. If I was alone, maybe I wouldn't feel like that. Because everyday, the four of us excite each other, and the place I am now, with the four of us, and with music is really comfortable. I say, 'MAX is a good group'? Of course! Because I love it!