I feel absolutely honored to be here. You all do sound like wonderful people!!! I'm sorry to hear your tough roads I know life like that is not easy and never will be, but I have hope and well wishes for everyone who experiences this. I hope I don't crash either and so far all is well.

In fact yesterday I got in a huge fight with my elderly grandparents {not the ones who disowned me} but the other ones anyway usually I would have drugged myself and put myself to sleep so I couldn't harm myself due to spinning depression lows but instead I got over it and walked a way and made the rest of my day useful-BIGGGG MILESTONE for me-I was so proud. So to me that was a good sign.

My new bf is wonderful-he saved my life in the beginning- I had a rope around my neck sitting behind the wheel of my mud truck ready to give it gas and fly over the highest pit cliff I could find-he braved all odds and stopped me. From that day I went into a bad depression I slept 14hrs every day for months-my family wanted to lock me in a hospital. My bf hid me from everyone and took great care of me made sure I ate and took my meds etc for almost a whole year-including all the seizure like anxiety attacks everything he stuck by my side. He also kept his 8-5 job and also on the volunteer fire dept-just amazing he was able to stick through all it. I appreciate him more than everything and hope to make up for all the bad times he went through with me.

As soon as I can get our printer scanner to work with this new computer I will send you all photos of my critters and me!!! Thank you all again for this great place to run to when ya feel all alone- I will do my best to help with advice and good listening skills too!!!!