She's got issues....

Who else but me? Issues and issues aplenty. Well, only about 4 or so really, but they're big enough to be about 50 issues apiece. I'm screwed in a word and not quite sure what's best to do to get out of this screwedness. Making very little sense might be a good plan - or more realistically, might not, but that's the way it's going so far.

Issue number one - This that I'm doing right now... That is, sitting typing stupid pointless shit on a shitty website that nobody ever looks at rather than doing the shitloads of coursework I have to do over the next few weeks. Where's the logic in that? I sure as hell don't know. Yet still I continue to do it. I suck; I'm a loser... and it's showing no signs of letting up any time soon. And I'm even bored of this now so shall leave it be for now... like it matters 8-)

� Jo

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15th July 2004

Isn't it great how someone else's words can relate to your life so well?

1. Aqualung - Strange and Beautiful
"I've been secretly falling apart" - nuff said.

2. Blink 182 - I Miss You
"The unsuspecting victim" - hmmm, sounds all a bit familiar... poor victim... "You're already the voice inside my head"... I'm sorry for that mate.

3. Britney Spears - Everytime

4. Bush - Inflatable
"So pretty in white" - pretty's perhaps a bit feminine... but we get the picture non?

5. Coldplay - The Scientist
"Nobody said it was easy, noone ever said it would be this hard... Oh let's go back to the start" - If only we could...

6. David Gray - This Year's Love
"I've been waiting on my own too long"... waiting for something that'll never come too...

7. Dido - Here With Me

8. Finch - Letters To You
"I want you to know that I miss you" - and I miss you so...

9. Franz Ferdinand - The Dark of the Matinee
"Time every journey to bump into you accidentally" - Old habits die hard!

10. Hoobastank - The Reason
"...To change who I used to be" - A reason would come in useful.

11. Jet - Look What you've Done
"You've made a fool of everyone" - or just me... through no fault of your own...

12. The Killers - Mr Brightside
"Now they're going to bed and my stomach is sick and it's all in my head" but it fucking stinks. Stupid thoughts of stupid things.

13. Letters to Cleo - I Want You to Want Me
Doesn't the title say it all?!

14. Matchbox 20 - Hang
Don't even know how this is related... it just makes me think of things... listen to it - it's cool.

15. Muse - Blackout
"Don't kid yourself... and don't fool yourself" (yet we continue to do so... don't we?)

16. Muse - Unintended
So very, very unintended......

17. Radiohead - Creep
"I want you to notice when I'm not around... You're so fucking special, I wish I was special" + I'm a creep... this is probably just my title song...

18. Rod Stewart - I Don't Want to Talk About It
Well, I just don't... but I do anyway... much too much. Sorry everyone.

19. Snow Patrol - Run
"To think I might not see those eyes, makes it so hard not to cry" - but I manage it... admittedly largely by remembering I will do...

20. The Cooper Temple Clause - Blind Pilots
"I hope you never change..." - I just hope that I do instead.

21. The Cure - Friday I'm In Love
Sometimes my weeks genuinely follow this pattern... screwy...... well, aside from the love bit... of course

22. The Darkness - Love Is Only a Feeling
It is... and the whole song brings back certain memories...

23. The Streets - Dry Your Eyes
"It's hard to take..." but tends not to bring tears... thank God.

24. Three Doors Down - Here Without You
"...But you're still on my lonely mind" - nothing new there...

25. U2 - With or Without You
"Can't live with or without you"

26. Wolfman and Pete Doherty - For Lovers
All in the memories again...

27. Keane - We Might As Well Be Strangers
Well, we might as well... hell, sometimes we practically are...

28. Keane - Sunshine
Again, just a pretty song that suits reflective moods... which I have too many of

29. Maroon 5 - Myself
"I'm trying to control myself" but it ain't always that easy to keep a hold on our emotions and shit...

30. Maroon 5 - Secret
"I know I don't know you, but I want you so bad..."

31. Maroon 5 - Rag Doll
Just a pretty/depressing song which evokes thoughts...

32. The Ataris - Beautiful Mistake
"I hope you're happy and completely lonely" :)

33. The Ataris - Looking Back on Today
No point even starting on this one... Paris comes to mind... meh, I won't go on

34. The Ataris - The Hero Dies in This One
"As I sit here all alone, I wonder how I'm supposed to carry on, when you're gone" - damn it... why will you have to be gone one day?

35. The Ataris - My Reply
"My arms were made to reach out to you" - the reach just isn't long enough to overcome all the darned obstacles and distances and stuff

36. Lonestar - Amazed
Damn amazement :( It does not make things easier!

37. Bon Jovi - Always
It doesn't warrant a quotation I don't think...

38. Whoever - All By Myself
Nobody wants to be all by themselves anymore...

39. The Beatles - Yesterday
Because once "All my troubles seemed so far away."

40. The Beatles - Something
Cos it's "something" that I can't put my finger on that does all this to me...

� Jo

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10th March 2004

Don't kid yourself and don't fool yourself

Ahh, the beauty of random lyrics baby! Just without the random bit cos they have a hell of a lot of hidden meaning. I keep doing that recently - finding more meaning in songs than I should do. I guess I could blame the obsession or something. Obsession is one of those annoying things that both sucks and rules. I won't go into that mainly because there's no point and also partially because it's basically boring as fuck. Wonder why people say that - boring as fuck - I'd have thought it was anything but... Anyways, moving on. I think I did have a point behind actually updating this fucker. Not quite sure what it was yet, but I guess we'll discover that soon.

So why have I decided to come back here after probably over 6 months? I can't even remember how long it's been since I last updated here, mainly because I moved the old posts into old posts and can't be bothered to go and check. Think it was August sometime though. Maybe September... But a fair while ago now at any rate. I digress - as is very common. Point is, I can't really get onto Geocities on my pc anymore. It's been fucked around with a lot over the past few months and is very tempermental. So I'm at school now, and since I'm bored I thought I'd write some rambly crap for any poor unfortunate soul who comes here (which, let's face it, is only going to happen if I tell you to.). Woop! I guess a lot of stuff's happened since my last update. I know there's a new subject of obsession... although I've tried very hard to fight it, there's something more to add to my list of obsessive disorders. Ho-hum. I won't go into details cos for one thing I cannae be bothered, and also it could all be a bit risque if you catch my drift. People shouldn't know about this thing, and too many do already so shhh Lauren shhh.

Moving on, as swiftly as possible, I come to erm... football! Yay! I've been working on my Liverpool site thingy a fair bit recently, also only at school as my PC at home is a right little bugger... so in a little while I might get a link up to that shitehole. I still be loving the football, not suprisingly. And Woohoo! United got knocked out of the Champs League last night, so that's something to add to my limited list of things to be happy about. The Pool have got Marseille in the UEFA Cup tomorrow and in two weeks (also the night of my parents evening which I'm not looking forward to) so that should all be nice and fun. And hopefully a ticket into the next round. Think that'll do for now, cos not only am I still immensely bored, I feel I may have bored anyone who comes here sufficiently for one day. So long.

� Jo

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