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doesn't really matter \\

"I'll be there for you
these 5 words I swear to you.
I'll be loving you always ...
I lie awake, I drive myself crazy
drive myself crazy, thinking of you.
Your soul is like a secret that I never could keep
when I look into your eyes
I believe for you and me
the sun will shine one day
cause you're the girl of my dreams
of my heart, I believe ...
but here I'm so alone,
and there's nothing in this world I could do
let me be the one you call
if you jump I'll break your fall
N I'll never stop !"

That shall be all that remains of anything directed in this aspect. He found too much joy out of recalling how that song was done. Therefore, it stays. He has chosen to forget all and withhold from remembering. As a result, he has never stepped into a relationship with any members of the female species. Memories they were. Happy memories, they shall remain as at the back of his mind as frozen ice blocks.

Sad to say, he thinks that most people of his age group still aren't ready for the real thing. Just look at all those 'can we get back together' category kinda dedications on 98.7FM or 93.3FM. These people know each other so well and yet still had to put up a woebegone look and request for the airwaves to help? Pathetic he says. And that is why he has learnt.

He has concluded that he will not step into any BGR provided that he has desires that marriage will turn out as the end product. In this age of technology where everyone is connected, judging your own feelings will be harder to do so. Someone could have moved your heart today. Another might do so a year later, 3 months later, whatever. If that is the case, then what is the subject going to do with the former? When we can merge feelings, committment and responsibility into one defination of love, then shall we be ready. Only then, may we be able to love wholly with our heart. Otherwise, it would only be a reflection of puppy love. *woof woof*

Is it the need to feel secure or the fear of being alone? Is it the want to pour out some emotions or the want to receive emotions? Is it because of the feelings they develop for each other or rather for the sake of developing feelings for each other? For some of these reasons, humans jump into a relationship when its all really in the name. These relationships usually have weak foundation, standing on those reasons and forgetting what is the genuine backing of a strong relationship. Marriage.

He had enough. Experienced enough of *woof woof*, doesn't find the need to go on anymore. In the meanwhile, he'll just wait till he's ready. Too young to think about such a decision you may say. Time to think matural, he replies. Feelings he shall detain, embedded deep inside that blood pumping muscle conceded in his ribs. But actions, none he'll take.

As of now, he'll just stay cheerful. Free of all worries.

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"I don’t like to be alone in the night
And I don’t like to Hear I’m wrong when I’m right
And I don’t like to have the rain on my shoes
But I do… love… you But I do love you" - Le Ann Rimes, But I Do Love You

 

 

 

 

 

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