| YOU THINK YOU KNOW, BUT YOU REALLY HAVE KNOW IDEA By Shandi |
| Chapters 1-3 |
| CHAPTER 1 Why is it that when all your life you have had it rough that it just continues to get worse as time goes on? I guess I should start at the beginning, or so Dr. Smith wants. My name is Lexi and I am 24. I am a patient, rather an inmate here at University Psychiatric Institute. I have been here for over two years now, which is a record for this place. You�re either supposed to get well and go home, or get worse and go to the State hospital, which I hear is a living hellhole. I came in here just before my twenty-second birthday. I do not remember any of it. Dr. Smith says I couldn�t open my eyes or talk, or at least I didn�t. He�s not sure which. I slept for thirteen months. I finally opened my eyes and I remembered everything and at that moment I wished my eyes were still shut and I could be senseless once again. It hurt. It hurt to remember the most tragic day of my life. Dr. Smith wants me to write down everything from beginning to end. He says it will help the healing process. I know it won�t. I can�t be cured against my will. But Smith says you care I will tell it to you. Slowly. From beginning to end. Don�t expect miracles. CHAPTER 2 I was downtown at the local mall here in Orlando. I needed some new clothes and mom offered to take me. There was a large crowd of girls standing in the center of the mall near the food courts. That�s when I first saw him. Him being Nick Carter. Nick was in this up and coming group called the Backstreet Boys. They were traveling doing mall shows to help them make it big. I slowly walked toward the stage to get a closer look at this beautiful young man. I got in line for an autograph. As I got closer to the end where he was my knees started to feel like Jell-O. I never felt that sensation before. There I was standing in front of this blonde hair blue eyed man. It turned out he was only a year older than I was, which hardly made him a man. That's when he asked my name. �Lexi.. Its Lexi� I said. � Lexi, is that short for Alexis?� He asked. � No, my mom thought I should be different and just keep it Lexi.� I said with a smile. He laughed as he signed his name to the picture in front of him. � Lexi how bout after I get done here we grab some ice cream from that place over there, I have been watching them serving it for about an hour and its really starting to look good.� He asked. � Ok I would like that. But it would help if I actually new you name.� I said. �Nick.. Nick Carter a proud member of the Backstreet Boys.� He said with a big smile flashing his pearly whites. � Ok I will meet you over there when you get done on stage.� I said to him as I grabbed my picture.� You better be up front in the audience so I can see you Lexi, or you�ll have to buy your own ice cream.� He yelled as I was walking away. �What ever you say Nick, what ever you say.� I said looking back over my shoulder with a smile. I made sure to get as close to the stage as I could. I ended up four rows from the center stage. The lights dimmed a bit as five guys slowly walked onstage. � Welcome to the Backstreet Boys Mall tour. My name is Kevin and here we have Brian, A.J., Howie and last but not least Nick. We all want to thank you for coming out and supporting us today.� A.J. interrupted, � your support today is what is going to help us make it big. But if we do, you will always be in are hearts forever as our first real fans and true supporters. Ok enough mushy, lets sing for these people.� A.J. said. After two songs Nick spotted me in the crowd. He gave a wink and smiled. Finally the show was done. 10 songs and 2 hours of waiting it was done. I waited at the counter for Nick. � I knew the ice cream threat would make you sit up close in the audience.� Nick said with a smirk. � No it didn�t, I�m just poor and didn�t have the money for my own ice cream.� I said sharply. �Ouch little kitten has claws, be careful now.� He said putting his hand to his heart with a hurt look on his face. � Would you hush and buy my ice cream now.� �Cookie dough.� I added. CHAPTER 3 After that day Nick and I were always with each other. Since I was home schooled my Mother lat me travel with Nick. His Mother traveled with him so that is why my mom allowed me to go. Of course Nick paid for everything which was also a plus for me. In June I went with Nick over to Europe. Wow was the word for it. I am glad it was summer because Nick and the guys had to stay for 3 months. So I was glad I got to stay. On days off Nick took me around town. He bought me all kind of odd stuff. He had a special necklace made for the both of us. That was a lot of money, but Nick wanted something that brought us both together when we were apart. Like we ever were. I hated the day I had to leave Nick in Europe. I had to leave three weeks before him. It was my Mom�s fault. She had planed a family get together. I Hated her for making me leave nick. Even though I was only 14 I felt I could not be with out Nick. Call it love. Call it lust. I don�t know. I was just 14. New to the whole falling in love junk. I cried at the airport. � Blossom baby it�s just three weeks then I will be home, right back in your arms. Please don�t cry Blossom.� Nick said as he held me and let me cry on his new shirt. � Ok I am off. I will see you in three weeks. Bye baby.� I said kissing Nick slowly. Lingering on the taste of his lips. I could never taste them enough. I cried the whole flight. As Nick promised he was back in my arms the minute he was home from the airport. � It is so good to be home. The land of the free. The same language. No naked men running around.� Nick said as we hugged. �So how did my Blossom do with out me?� He asked. � Well I called those 1-900 numbers and those nice men took very good care of me.� I said. �Liar. Your Mother would kill you and you know it. Plus it was me talking all the phone sex to you. Oh you didn�t know I worked for them part-time?� Nick said with a wink. � Don�t you wish baby.� I said kissing him. Chapters 4-5 HOME |