As I was walking to the Locke lounge from my sign language meeting, I saw an acquaintance of mine. There, sitting by the entrance was Jeff Marshall. Now Jeff was no ordinary acquaintance, for he was one of those four people so far in my life that has had what I call the �destiny effect� on me. This effect varies in strength from different individuals. It has happened with about a dozen other people, but to a much lesser intensity than the four.
So far, this overwhelming feeling I get allows me to know in advance that the person causing the effect will have a measurable influence on the course of my development, varying with the intensity caused by the effect.
In the first revelation of this effect, I found that Jim Shelly had some Quality about him that I needed to discover. In effect, the relationship I built with him turned my life completely around. As much for the good as the bad. This was the first major stage(as an adult) of my development. Shortly after Jim(within days) the effect was thrust upon me by my already known friend David Yniguez. This was of an intensity far less than that of Jim, but seemed more permanent in nature.
The third and strongest of the four was when I met one Allen C. Winco jr., who now I feel I am soul-bonded to. And the fourth of course was from Jeff.
The intensity of the effect with Jeff is stronger than that of Jim, yet weaker than that of Allen. It seemed to have a very harmonious tone to it, but yet also dangerous. It was one of such power that I felt completely compelled to let him know in some way of that effect. So I had written him a letter telling him how I felt. I found that I was involuntarily avoiding him however as if I wasn�t ready for the experience or wasn�t capable of dealing with the events it would surely bring. So, for a time, contact was lost.
Every time I would see him in passing I would be very uncomfortable and knew nothing would come of a conversation, but yet felt that there would be a time. Then finally, as if I knew it was time, I spoke to him and was sure that a new adventure was beginning to unfold. It was nearly a year later from when I first met him. So once again the sequence begins. Something I always knew, yet doubted. The effect has come around full circle. Only experiences lie ahead...
Prologue:(an omen?...) Add in 4/12/91
After my discussion with Jeff I went to work, which is usual for a Friday. However, my experience at work seemed to have some relevance to the story. It seems that for the first time in my history at 7-11 I had a temporary lapse of self control. It seems that all things were against me and stress was piled high on my shoulders. Everything I did seemed to backfire. For some reason my mind set to my newly beginning relationship with Jeff. I found myself asking if this is how that relationship would be. It seemed to me that I was being tested. During that bit of time that everything was haywire I became very frustrated and was greatly showing it. But in the end it all worked out with the help of a kind word or two from my boss Nick. Once again the balance is held.
Because I thought of my relationship with Jeff at that time, I found myself wondering if meeting him would be a test in my life. Perhaps, in order for me to have complete harmony with God, I must endure these tests or perhaps I will again, as with Allen, gain another soul-bonded friend because of hardships faced. Only time will tell.
Fin.~
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