| Thoughts of a Lifetime A Personal Journal As Written And Experienced By Anthony Swaney Here you will find the story of my life as I have recorded it over the years. I present it to you, the reader, in hopes that by sharing my own life in the spirit of fellowship, it may have some positive effect on your own life and perhaps even be found as inspirational. I must make it clear from the start that God is the largest influence in my life. It is his and Christ's teachings which I hold most dear. I did not always hold Christian beliefs, and even if you do not share the same faith as myself, I feel that there is much that can be related here. For the very premise and ultimate principle that guides my life and led me to Christianity is the Pursuit and Understanding of Truth. And Truth is something that affects us all. For me, that Truth is given a name in the book of John. That name is Jesus Christ and it is in him that I will always trust, who I shall always follow and who I devote myself to in Body, Mind and Spirit. For this reason you will almost always see the word Truth in these pages beginning with a capital T. This is my own reminder, even when I do not name Jesus directly, that he is ever present in my life. |
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| These first six entries were really just random notes I wrote to myself. I had an idea that there would be a journal, but never really had one. I know there were other such documentations, but sadly they are lost. Here are those I did not lose. They did not have titles, but I gave them each one here. Troubled Times-------------------------------Date Unknown: somewhere mid to late 1988 Troubled Times 2----------------------------------------------Thursday November 24th, 1988 On the Road to Recovery----------------------------------------Friday November 25th, 1988 Hope Rising---------------------------------------------------------Monday January 16th, 1989 Stagnancy------------------------------------------------------Saturday September 16th, 1989 Rebirth-------------------------------------------------------Wednesday November 22nd, 1989 My actual journal begins from this point. Entry #1: An Introduction-----------------------------------------Thursday April 11th, 1991 Entry #2: Coming around full circle---------------------------------Friday April 12th, 1991 Entry #3: The best intentions---------------------------------------Monday April 14th, 1991 Entry #4: The Beast in us all--------------------------------------Thursday April 18th, 1991 Entry #5: From the mouth of a Babe------------------------------Monday April 22nd, 1991 Entry #6: Within Satan's Grasp------------------------------------Saturday July 20th, 1991 Entry #7: Life's greatest teacher: part 1--------------------------Friday August 2nd, 1991 Entry #8: Life's greatest teacher: part 2----------------------Saturday August 24th, 1991 Entry #9: Life's greatest teacher: part 3---------------------Friday September 20th, 1991 Entry #10: Thoughts unspoken----------------------------------Saturday October 5th, 1991 Entry #11: Past tense future------------------------------------Saturday January 31st, 1992 Entry #12: Life's Ups & Downs-------------------------------Thursday February 13th, 1992 Entry #13: Honesty is the Best Policy----------------------------Tuesday March 17th, 1992 Entry #14: The winds of change-----------------------------------Monday March 30th, 1992 Entry #15: In God We Trust-----------------------------------------Monday May 11th, 1992 Entry #16: A Rose by any other name-----------------------------Tuesday May 19th, 1992 Entry #17: No Man is an Island-------------------------------------Saturday July 4th, 1992 Entry #18: Bouts of Depression-------------------------------------Monday July 20th, 1992 Entry #19: First Impressions-----------------------------Wednesday September 2nd, 1992 Entry #20: Of Beginnings and Ends--------------------Wednesday September 23rd, 1992 Entry #21: Happiness Is...----------------------------------------Sunday October 18th, 1992 Entry #22: The Second Step--------------------------------------Friday November 6th, 1992 Entry #23: Disciples of Faith-----------------------------------Friday November 13th, 1992 Entry #24: Soul Searching-------------------------------------------Friday March 19th, 1993 Entry #25: Hearts of Gold-------------------------------------------Tuesday April 13th, 1993 Entry #26: Thoughts Evolving----------------------------------Wednesday April 21st, 1993 Entry #27: The Wages of Sin----------------------------------------Monday May 17th, 1993 Entry #28: The Child Within--------------------------------------Tuesday August 3rd, 1993 Entry #29: Mending Fences---------------------------------------Friday October 29th, 1993 Entry #30: Walking With God-------------------------------Tuesday December 14th, 1993 Entry #31: New Year's Resolutions----------------------------Saturday January 1st, 1994 Entry #32: The Whole Truth--------------------------------------Friday January 28th, 1994 Entry #33: Facing Your Demons------------------------------Monday February 21st, 1994 Entry #34: A Journey's End and Homecoming-----------------Thursday June 30th, 1994 Entry #35: Throwing Away the Crutches-------------------Wednesday August 31st, 1994 Entry #36: Jumping the Hurdles of Life-----------------------Friday December 2nd, 1994 Entry #37: Thine Own Self Be True-----------------------------Friday February 3rd, 1995 Entry #38: The Psychology and Mathematics of Dreams------Tuesday April 18th, 1995 Entry #39: Matters of Importance------------------------------------Friday May 19th, 1995 Entry #40: Learning to Grow----------------------------------Tuesday December 5th, 1995 Entry #41: Of Joy and Sorrow------------------------------Wednesday January 24th, 1996 Entry #42: Life's Little Mysteries------------------------------Monday February 5th, 1996 Entry #43: Thanksgiving Revisited-----------------------------Thursday March 21st, 1996 Entry #44: Levels of Awareness----------------------------Thursday December 12th, 1996 Entry #45: Consciousness Crossroads----------------------------Sunday March 23rd, 1997 Entry #46: Visions----------------------------------------------Tuesday September 9th, 1997 Entry #47: Peices of the Puzzle----------------------------Saturday September 27th, 1997 Entry #48: The Essence of Being-----------------------------Saturday December 6th, 1997 Entry #49: The Games People Play---------------------------Tuesday February 24th, 1998 Entry #50: Digging for Gold---------------------------------------Saturday March 7th, 1998 Entry #51: The Power Resides in Thee-------------------------Monday February 1st, 1999 Entry #52: Between Two Worlds------------------------------------Monday March 1st, 1999 Entry #53: Differences of Opinion-------------------------------Monday March 22nd, 1999 Entry #54: Cosmic Divinity-------------------------------------Wednesday April 21st, 1999 |
| Here are my original writings before I replaced them with my journal pages. Heart and Mind: Guarding her Secrets 1-23-00 Links to the past: A place forgotten 4-8-00 Links to the past: Another link in the chain 5-18-00 My Perspective: About affinity 7-5-00 My Perspective: Of mind and soul 7-22-00 Thoughts in motion: A cry to the moon 4-22-00 |
| Some of my views of this world |
| My Early Years: A Summary |
| Insights Into Life: Recordings |
| My First Memories My Pre-Teen Years My Teens: Walking in Darkness The Great Journey: Facing the Light Pre-Journal Era: The Darkest hours |
| From this point on I began keeping my journal on my computer. It is a bit more consistent and is kept in monthly files. Some individual entries do not have titles and there may be one or more entries in any given month. Some are long, most are not. 2000 July August September October 2001 January May June July September October 2002 April May June August September October November December 2003 January February March April May June July August September October November December 2004 January February March April May June July August September October November December 2005 January February March April May June July |