First and most prominent is my battle with sexual desires. Though not overpowering, I realize that I devote entirely too much time to lustful thoughts and actions. It is a recurring struggle and more often than not, I give in to those desires. This seems to be my largest stumbling block at present. Secondly is the problem of abusing the holy temple, namely my body. I eat improperly, occasionally smoke and give in to those lustful desires. This however, I am working on. I have joined a health club and have been trying to strengthen my body to obtain better health. Compared to the first obstacle, this one will be easy to overcome. Thirdly is that I have been starving my spirit. I have not attended church and have not studied the bible for quite some time. This too I am working on. I have talked to Aunt Diane, sharing beliefs and also with Herb and through this, I realized that I need that input.
I plan on asking Herb if I can go to church with him and Ruby. I have also read some of the bible while researching in it the ideas of the holy trinity. I have found several verses which show me where some of the Catholic beliefs stem from. I also see, through an admittedly hasty discernment, how those interpretations may be flawed. I pray that this research will continue.
These points are not the only weaknesses I have at present, but they are surely the most serious. They are the ones which need to be addressed primarily. I only hope that the lord will keep my mind free of hypocrisy and conceit. I wish to always be learning and growing in understanding. This I feel, can best be accomplished through him.
~FIN
