bullied and teased
relationships all gone down the drain
when I was 12
I once thought about it
when I was 13 I once acted upon it
I tried suicide
I really wanted to die
no care for a anyone
not for myself, I wanted it done
I kicked the chair
though everyone wouldn't have dared
that I would have done it
then the sound of my snapping neck hits
as I twirl in the air
I wish, nobody would have dared
everyone�s actin' like a bitch
I think I�ll do it
I will, I�ll cut my fuckin wrist
watch it bleed
gay ass bitch
all actin like mutherfuckin' witches
thinkin' they know it all
actin' like they own it all
God damn it, fuck it
see I stopped caring
stopped give' a shit
I don't believe
I don't wanna keep on this life
me trying to live is just one big ass LIE
so as I watch the blood from my wrist
my knife slides from my hand and tings off the floor
as I lean against the bathroom door I know it's time
nobody gave a fuckin' dime
when I needed it they just said "fuck off ya loser"
all just cause their bitches had bigger hooters
they shouldn't have called me stupid
half of em were surprised I killed em, and yes I did
as I pass out the lights darkening
yes it's time, I have split and broke, my life, was nuthin' but a fuckin' joke!
The meaning of life is always asked
some have stood back, backed away in the darkness
can life mean happiness
can it mean sadness
some joke saying it's sex
so what�s to come next
maybe money
or even to marry some sweet honey
all in all there all wrong
and it's not a Chinese Gong
the meaning of life is simple
all you have to do is look closely
into your heart, soul, and mind
then you will die
somebody will tell you the meaning
that living must end in dying
all in all life means death
all till your last breath
you must live to die
and die to live
that is the circle of life....
As I sat here I wondered why
when will I die
why haven't I found the one
the one person
someone to cry to
someone to tell my problems to
as I sit here
I shed a tear
for I know there will be no such thing
nothing of me will ever gain
my love, happiness and freedom all have drained
I�m left with sorrow and hatred
remembering those nights I cried in bed
crying myself to sleep
drifting off to someplace deep
someplace free as I sit here I wish I hadn�t remembered
remembered all the bad things I lived
they will stay with me till I am dead
all these hatred memories
as I sit here looking out the window
Three eyed pigs
and Michel Jackson actually getting a gig
Scuba tank
with vanilla cake
ice cream cone
a dino living in a dome
purple water
and a sky of pink color
one footed dogs
and people wearing clogs
standup cats
and flying baseball bats
talking weasels
and ferrets driving cars that run off diesel
gas guzzling crows
and red ribband bows
yellow suber Marin
and a tiny great dain
all in within
the big ole weird world