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PUSHIN' TOO HARD

you're pushin' too hard, you're pushin' on me
you're pushin' too hard, what you want me to be
you're pushin' too hard, about the things you say
you're pushin' too hard, every night and day
you're pushin' too hard, pushin' too hard on me
too hard  

all I want is to just be free
to live my life the way I want to be
all I want is to just have fun
to live my life like it's just begun
but you're pushin' too hard,
you're pushin' too hard on me, (too hard)  

(be it your  boss, a co-worker, a parent, a friend, etc., sometimes I feel "a little too rushed")
 
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BRENDA LEE:  LITTLE MISS DYNAMITE
SOME PEOPLE

some people see wrong in everything

in books that we read

in songs that we sing

some people just look for the dark side of life

they thrive on suspicion, sorrow and strife

some people will see wrong in our love

but we only answer to god up above

and we have our conscious to live with each day

so why should we care what some people say
 

(this song pretty much sums up my feelings about male bonding)

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ALL ALONE AM I

all alone am I

ever since your goodbye

all alone with just the beat of my heart

people all around

but I don't hear a sound

just the lonely beating of my heart

no use in holding other hands

for I'd be holding only emptiness

no use is kissing other lips

for I'd be thinking just of your caress

all alone am I

ever since your goodbye

all alone with just the beat of my heart

people all around

but I don't hear a sound

just the lonely beating of my heart
 

no other voice can say the words -

my heart must hear to ever sing again

the words you used to whisper low

no other love can every bring again
 

all alone am I

ever since your goodbye

all alone with just the beat of my heart

people all around but I don't hear a sound

just the lonely beating of my heart

(just like you, I too sometimes feel left behind)

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THAT'S ALL YOU GOTTA DO

anytime you're low

and you've got no place to go

you don't have to be blue

here's all you gotta do

call me on the telephone

tell me that you're all alone

and I'll come running to you

baby that's all you have to do

 

all you gotta do when you're lonesome

is to call on me

and I'll come running to you as fast as I can

I'll love and squeeze you

I'll try to please you

'cause baby I want you to be my lovin' man

 

I've been waiting for the chance

me and you to start a romance

and if you feel the same way too

here's all you gotta do

tell me just how you feel

tell me that your love is real

and I 'll give my heart to you

baby that's all you gotta do

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I WANT TO BE WANTED

alone, so alone that I could cry

I want to be wanted

alone, watching lovers passing by

I want to be wanted

 

when I am kissed I want his lips to really kiss me

when we're apart I want his heart to really miss me

I want to know he loves me so his eyes are misty

that's the way I want to be loved

 

alone, just my lonely heart knows how

I want to be wanted

right now, not tomorrow, but right now

I want to be wanted

 

I want someone to share my laughter and my tears with

someone I'd know I'd love to spend a million years with

where is this someone somewhere made for me

(I know god has made someone for me, it's just a matter of time)

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IF YOU LOVE ME (REALLY LOVE ME)

if the sun should tumble from the sky

if the sea should suddenly run dry

if you love me, really love me

let it happen, I won't care

 

if it seems that everything is lost

I would smile and never count the cost

if you love me, really love me

let is happen, darling I won't care

 

shall I catch a shooting star

shall I bring it where you are

if you want me to I will

you can send me any task

I'll do anything you ask

if you'll only say you love me still

 

when at last our life on earth is through

I will share eternity with you

if you love me, really love me

let it happen, I won't care

if you love me, really love me

let it happen

darling I won't care

(have you ever had a serious heart hurting crush on someone?)

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FOOLS RUSH IN

(sometimes people you love fight you're advances, but you have to be a little crazy  to believe in love in the first place , so hey,  your past hurts are grass and my love is the lawn mower)

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SOMEONE TO LOVE (THE PRISONER'S SONG)

oh I wish I had someone to love me

someone to call me their own

how I wish I had someone to live with

'cause I'm tired of being alone

please meet me tonight in the moonlight

please meet me tonight all alone

for I have a sad story to tell you

it's a story that's never been told

oh if I had wings like an angel

through the heavenly sky I would fly

I'd fly to the arms of my darling

and there I'd be willing to die

 

(now this is love in the first degree)
 
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HOW DEEP IS THE OCEAN (HOW HIGH IS THE SKY)

how much do I love you

I'll tell you no lie

how deep is the ocean

how high is the sky

 

how many times a day do I think of you

how many roses are sprinkled, sprinkled with dew

how far would I travel to be were you are

how far is the journey from here to a star

 

and if I ever lost you

how much would I cry

how deep is the ocean

how high is the sky

(I love someone this way, but I'm too shy and too scared to say or do anything about it, so, they'll never know)

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TIME IS NOT ENOUGH

time is not enough

to repair this broken heart

time is not enough

even though we're far apart

 

time can always change a sky of blue to misty rain

but not, my love for you, no not, my love for you

 

now there comes the dawn

soon another day will pass

time will carry on

but the memories all will last

 

time cannot conceal

my love for you

the way I feel

 

because time is not enough

time is not enough

my love

(stevie nicks said she was greatly influenced by BRENDA LEE:  LITTLE MISS DYNAMITE   - listen to this song and then one of   stevie nicks' tear jerkers and see if they don't sound a lot a like)

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YOU ALWAYS HURT THE ONE YOU LOVE

you always hurt, you hurt the one, you love

the one, you shouldn't hurt at all

you always take, ah, you take the sweetest rose

and crush it 'till the petals fall

you always break, you break the kindest heart

with a hasty word you can't recall

so if , if I broke, your heart last night

it's because I love ya, I love ya most of all
 

(hey, it can happen, so be prepared)

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SHE'LL NEVER KNOW

I wish the very best to you

and your new love and all you do

don't worry about my love for you

she'll never know

oh never know

 

oh how I wish I could forget

but secretly I love you yet

but if she's the one

have no regrets

she'll never know

 

I'm the one you told goodbye

yes I'm the one that you made cry

and I'm the one whose lips you taught to kiss

 

I'm the one who's lonely now

but I'll get by someway somehow

she'll take your hand but I'll take this vow

she'll never know
 

 

(this one's for all those mistresses and boyfriends of happily married BI-sexual males)

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WHY ME

why me

why should I be the sad and lonely one

while you are out with someone having fun

why me

 

why me

why did you come along and break my heart

you played me for a fool right from the start

why me

 

I string along with you and hope someday you'll really care for me

but now you've done me wrong so many times so please just set me free

 

why me

why should I be the one that's sad and blue

I bet someday the tables turn on you

and then you'll say,

why, why me

(don't get mad, get even, two can play at this game)

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      BRENDA LEE:  LITTLE MISS DYNAMITE  
  IT TAKES ONE TO KNOW ONE

a fool knows a fool like a rainbow knows the rain

a fool knows a fool like a hurt knows a pain

we two so blue over what love has done

it takes a fool, it takes one to know

 

I recognize those tears in your eyes

I know you're not having any fun

won't you come with me,

you need a fool's company

ah, it takes one to know one

 

' cause a fool knows a fool like a rainbow knows the rain

a fool knows a fool like a hurt knows a pain

and we two so blue over what love has done

it takes a fool, it takes one to know

 

(what can I say here that hasn't already been said)
 
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a good man is hard to find

you always get the other kind

just when you think that he is your pal

you look for him and find him fool'n around with another gal

 

then you rave

you even crave

to see him laying

in his grave

 

so if your man is nice

you better take my advice

 

and hug him in the morning

kiss him every night

give him pretty love'n

treat him right

for a good man now a days is hard to find

 

(a good man is hard to find, or is that the other way around, in any case, you better hold on to him if he's yours or he won't be)
 
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if you had a taste of the love I could be giving

then I know you could see that now you're only half living

let go of yourself don't hold back your love when it gets to be free

don't ever be ashamed to share your love to be happy

because more then anything else

you got to have love

you got to have love

you got to have love to be happy baby

I know you can love me cause you got alot of soul inside you

and the way that you look I know you need me there now beside you

you got to understand that it can never be wrong darling to be loved

I'm warning you now that I'm not afraid to tell you what I'm thinking of

'cause more then anything else

you got to have love

you got to have love

you got to have love to be happy baby

 

(this one's for my chatroom pal "rodeo")
 
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CAUTION TO THE WIND

where you're concerned I throw caution to the wind

 

how many times must you break my heart before I learn

that if I play with fire I'll gonna get burned

I should have learned my lesson long ago but then

where you're concerned I throw caution to the wind

 

friends all tried to warn me you're out just for the fun

and you are not the kind who could settle down with just one

I leave my heart wide open to be broken once again

where you're concerned I throw caution to the wind

 

I grow careless .....the moment ......you walk in

just a glance .....from you .....and I'm under your spell again

 

where you're concerned I throw caution to the wind

yes where you're concerned I throw caution to the wind

yes where you're concerned I throw caution to the wind

yes where you're concerned I throw caution to the wind

 

(I wish)
 
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  The Moody Blues

FOREVER AUTUMN

the summer's sun is fading as the year grows old
and darker days are drawing near
the winter winds will be much colder
now you're not here

I watch the birds fly south across the autumn sky
and one by one they disappear
I wish that I was flying with them
now you're not here

like the sun through the trees you came to love me
like a leaf on a breeze you blew away

through autumn's golden gown we used to kick our way
you always loved this time of year
those fallen leaves lay undisturbed now
cause you're not here
cause you're not here
cause you're not here


like the sun through the trees you came to love me
like a leaf on a breeze you blew away

a gentle rain falls softly on my weary eyes
as if to hide a lonely tear
my life will be forever autumn
cause you're not here
cause you're not here
cause you're not here

(this song always makes me think of my father, and I miss him then)

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The Fixx

Driven Out

Driven out by thieves.
I watch them pillage the planet
fueled by a fattening greed,
trees fall to the hatchet
chopping against the grain,
our spirits in a vacuum
sadly ignore the pain.
the end arrives, we all lose
I hope it comes around
Driven out
holding out
day by day survival
Castaways have silent lives
with the strength to rival you
Driving in my car.
I used to be able to walk this far
now I turn on the light
I used to be able to sleep at night
I'm cooking with microwaves
to warm up food not seen the soil
plugged into my TV
used to the lies they're telling me
I hope it comes around
driven out.....
Hoping that we find
more to life than meets the eye
can we escape the grind
build a life that's more worthwhile
be rid of this empty pride
full of selfishness inside
bathe in a turning tide
until then we all hide
I hope it comes around
driven out

 

( I was an animal rights activist until I fell in love with the sport of rodeo.  I even went to a gay rodeo and witnessed gay peat people boycotting the gay festivities, gays bashing gays - later I learned more about the sport of rodeo and found out 99.9% of the statements presented by these animals rights groups is flat-out lies - even when the truth is staring them in the face they refuse to except it, you can't talk to people like this, - I still help protect endangered bats and am a member of teach tolerance - I still love and care, I'm just more selective with the groups I belong to)

 

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VIXEN

HOW MUCH LOVE

you're in the corner, turning you back
you're runnin' away again
the more I give you, the less that you take
tell me, where is it gonna end?
I can see you've felt some pain
I know you've been hurt before
but I swear you won't get hurt no more

chorus

tell me, how much love is it gonna take
to prove I'm not another heartache
till you begin to let your heart give in
how much love, is it gonna take

I'm reaching for you, gettin' so close
but you're always a step away
I wanna touch you, give my love
tell me, what is it going to take
I can see it in your eyes, that you want
to let me in
but you're scared that you'll get hurt,
again

chorus

bridge

I've been searching for an answer, ooh tell
me what it's gonna be

solo

chorus out

Sandy Posie: Arms Full Of Sin

watch his eyes

watch his smile

he'll make you cry

 

watch his lips

his fingertips

they'll make you sigh

 

you won't even know what happened

the first thing you know he'll be holding you in his arms

arms full of sin

 

don't let his looks get you hooked

or you'll be hurt

you'll love that guy he'll tell you lies

they'll set you wise

 

you better run before it's too late

go on now girls you can wait

do you want in his arms

arms full of sin

 

no, don't go in

to arms full of sin

 

 

 

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DUSTY SPRINGFIELD

ALL I SEE IS YOU


I tried so hard all summer through
not to think too much of you
but the more I tried the more I find
I just can't leave the past behind
times that are happy are times that are few
and once I was happy when I had you

the days have come and gone since you were here
nights are twice as long without you near
pictures on my mind stand out so clear
no matter where I am or what I do
my darling all I see is you


you're there in every dream I ever dreamed
there at every place I've ever been
every day I find you in my heart and on my mind
I close my eyes but I'm not blind
I see you still

and when I throw arms out wide
I find that you're not by my side
but one thing is for sure
until I do
all I see is you


every day I find you in my heart and on my mind
I close my eyes but I'm not blind
I see you still, oh
I won't live again till I'm with you. oh darling
I won't love again unless it's with you
so until the day when you are back with me to stay

in every way, all I see is you

(sometimes I think of my father when I hear this song, but most times it's about the lover in my dreams I haven't met in real life yet)

 

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CONNIE FRANCIS

It Would Still Be Worth It

if you promised that you'd call me
and I spent a thousand nights just waiting
it would still....still.....still be worth it
just to hear you're voice when you called

if I ruled the world completely
but I had to be a slave to love you
it would still....still.....still be worth it
it would still worth it my love

unless....unless I'm holding you
what good can these arms be
what use....what use are these lips of mine
if yours are forbidden to me

if I had to die to tomorrow
just to share tonight with you
it would still....still.....still be worth it
it would still be worth it
my love

(this one is about the kind of love I feel for ......)

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CONNIE FRANCIS

SOMEONE ELSE'S BOY

woe, woe, woe woe woe
in the lonely night
I wake up to find
someone else's boy
always on my mind
but he doesn't know
how much I really love him so

woe, woe, woe woe woe
though it isn't right
when I dream like this
I long to hold him tight
and to taste his kiss
then I wake to find
he's someone else's boy not mine

whenever I see them together
it breaks my poor heart in two
I know that I should forget him
'cause he's her guy but what can I do

how I hope and pray
to the lord above
to send me down a boy
one that I can love
who'll be mine alone
and not someone else's boy

 

(you go girls - for all my gay male friends)

 

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Petula Clark

I Couldn't Live Without Your Love


you're the only one that I rely on
a shoulder there for me to cry on
and the odds are long when I'm without you
all I ever do is think about you
no one knows that you're so understanding
even though my love is so demanding
every time you look at me
then you know we both agree
that no other love could ever be

Chorus
I Couldn't Live Without Your Love
now I know you're really mine
I gotta have you all the time


didn't like you much when I first met you
but somehow I couldn't quite forget you
said you didn't want a friend or lover
that your life was happy with another
but as time went by my love just grew stronger
knew that I just couldn't wait any longer

for I couldn't let you go
when I had to tell you so
that I love you then you know

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now the tears are gone and I'm not crying
when you say you love me you're not lying
so when people want to stare I know I don't really care
just as long as you are there

Repeat Chorus
No I - Couldn't Live Without Your Love
now I know you're really mine
I gotta have you all the time

 

(this is my Jesus loves me I love Jesus too song)

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Petula Clark

MY LOVE


Chorus
My love is warmer then the warmest sunshine
softer then a sigh
my love is deeper then the deepest ocean
wider then the sky
my love is brighter then the brightest star
that shines every night above
and there is nothing in this world that can ever change my love


something happened to my heart
the day that I met you
something that I never felt before
you are always on my mind no matter what I do
and everyday it seems I want you more

repeat Chorus

once I thought that love was meant for everyone else but me
once I thought you'd never come my way
now it only goes to show how wrong we all can be
for now I have to tell you everyday


repeat chorus
My love is warmer then the warmest sunshine
softer then a sigh
my love is deeper then the deepest ocean
wider then the sky
my love is brighter then the brightest star
that shines every night above
and there is nothing in this world that can ever change my love

(I'm a Leo, and Leo's like to shine, this song makes me feel so happy, even when I'm blue)

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