see also: Marie's FAQ how old are you? what is your past experience? What do you look like? yes, and even a pic... and much more, my dears
Messages From Marie sometimes i just have something to say to whomever wishes to listen...
The Attraction Just some thoughts on what kind of things i am attracted to when it comes to cds.
Many ask how i first knew about cds. or just the fact that i do take it all as if it was normal. Well, a story comes to mind when i was younger (i will spare you all the details) but me and my older sister dressed up this little boy we were babysitting up as a girl (it was so adorable!) Well, i'm guessing that event when i was younger brought me to believe that a boy dressing up as a girl wasn't something wrong, it was for fun, and basically "why not?"
as i grew older, other things exposed me to the gender bending world, such as cable. ::laugh:: Yes i watched talk shows, yes i love RuPaul, and yes i own the movie To Wong Foo, Thanks for Everything, Julie Newmar. Of course not an accurate or flattering depictions of the gender bending world, but certainly it exposed me to it, and i never saw anything wrong with it. I loved it. In time, when i began becoming attracted to people (aka, puberty, ah lord help us) i was not only attracted to men, yet also to women which was "odd" enough in society itself. Yet more than i love women, i've had an attraction to cd/tv's.
Yes i had always fantasized about it, but didn't realize the scope of my fantasy until one day while at my girlfriend-at-the-time's house that she shared with her ex boyfriend, at that time. She owned many pieces of lingerie, one in particular a light pink lacey and skimpy piece which me and David told her to put on, just for fun. I jokingly told David to put one on too, and to my surprise he said he would put one on if i wanted him to, if one actually fit :;laugh:: oddly, i found myself incredibly turned on by the thought of him in lingerie.
Soon i found out that an ex-boyfriend of mine who i will call Josh also had crossdressing inclinations as did Jim, the cousin of an ex of mine who was at a different school (RandomThought). Let me say now that many people find me very easy to talk to. Then there was a good friend that i will call Kyle. He was a tall lanky effeminate and soft spoken boy who would often "play" with the material of my legnthy skirts and the black nylon flowings of a gothic outfit of mine while we sat in art class. After hearing of Josh and what he had done, he confessed to me, wanteing to wear a dress as well, he wanted to wear something feminine. The next day, i brought in a lovely blouse of mine. He kept it for a week. :;laughs and smyles::
It had always been a fantasy of mine, really. one that i felt could not be fulfilled, yet i took it in stride. After a while, i eventually let it go thinking it would never happen. About four months passed without giving much mind to it... Until one day i met fran, my dreams and fantasies fulfilled, who took me to heaven and back, letting me realize more of myself as well as about him.
fran was wonderful, such a wonderful person and such sexy clothes. i guess you could say it was because of what we wore together that got me interested so much into petticoats and all things nylon, actually fran is definatly what exposed me to such wonderful things. When we were together, fran would wear such pretty frilly lacey things that i just loved... crinkling white petticoats and lots of sheer nylon layers of clothing... fran and i both wore sexy white garter belts that i just loved incredibly... and on one occassion my wonderful fran wore crotchless nylons with his plastic babypanties over them... and on one occassion fran wore a beautiful lacy bra, i loved it... fran would dress me up similar to him and always with a sexy pair of white nylon or lacey panties, and fran wore very nice babypanties that are incredible to the touch... and wow, just looking at fran was such a turn on for me... needless to say the details of our times together ::smyles:::...
since then, i have not been the same marie
By meeting this wonderful person fran), i became more exposed to my own femininity which i had never before expressed. And for this, i am entirely grateful. by meeting that one wonderful crossdresser and every other crossdresser i've met online :;waves to steph, heather, ruth, and janet:: i've been exposed to so many wonderful people.
To me, there is nothing sexier than a crossdresser. Nothing. Though i am yet to see one dressed up fully. I love to see a man in lingerie and petticoats and garterbelts and slips, personally. I love it when a man turns into a woman, when she is having fun being feminine. i love the passion a cd has for their clothes, the fabric, the look of it. Probably because i too like the fabric, i too like the look of it. well, especially on them. ::grins::
i love things like watching them walk and looking up their skirts. i love crossdressers.
after my experiences with the above mentioned CD, i turned to the internet to explore more of this. and found many people who opened my eyes.
i first learned of girls living as girls since childhood by meeting a lovely girl, who has lived as such since the age of six, with many thank yous to her mother. i hold a special respect for her and all like her. yet, of course, much respect goes to her mother. By knowing this lovely girl, i've come to be utterly fascinated. and so wish to someday speak with a mother who has done so with their child. I have also correspondence with a lovely girl who now dresses the child she babysits for, after folowing a feeling that the child wished to (the child is very happy indeed by the way). Her story is Here. But will not further be updated because of personal reasons. I mention these lovely girls because they opened my eyes to new things and are held close to my heart.
My purpose in writing this is to express the fact that i do love CDs and enjoy them and try my best to sympathize with them and provide support and love. My purpose is to show my experience that i have had with CDs (a full summary will Never be available, i too need privacy). My purpose was to tell you where i am coming from. For we all surely come from different perspectives. I respect that. This site is mine.
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