| LETTER FROM A JEWISH SOLDIER |
| Thursday April, 4th. 2002 I am and IDF Soldiers, I served during the incursions into deheishe a few weeks ago this is a letterI wrote to my mom when I got back. Support resistence to Israel |
| Good morning mom Don't be ashamed for my behavior I'm feeling very sick, I have the impression I'm becoming like a beast. I can't believe what I'm doing I obey orders so I don't look like a sissy in front of my friends You could never understand what it means to enter a house with ten children inside, woman and old people, pointing the rifle on them, shouting, "freeze" in Arabic. Only a few months ago I was going to school, a nice sweet boy, now I'm an assasin. My officer orders me to take the kitchen, I throw on the floor pans, flour sacks, sugar, to check if they are hiding guns, or bombs. The noise of things falling makes me throw up. A small child in the corner looks at me with eyes full of hate. I know that I would hate Israeli soldiers all my life if I were in his shoes. I would kill them if I saw my mother (I mean you) forced on the floor, with your face on the carpet, shaking of fear while soldiers storm in the house. I'll refuse to do it next time they ask me to do it. I'll go to jail. Don't be ashamed mom. I hate myself. I'm not myself anymore. I talked with two of my friends that feel the same way. An old woman was spitting in the face of one of them. Later he cried in his sleeping bag. Only I heard him sobbing like a baby. I can defend myself, don't worry. I see too many cigarette butts in yours ashtray. I'm probably the cause of so much smoking. Hug Yael for me, tell her I'm sorry. I couldn't say bye before leaving. I wonder how she would feel if soldiers break into her room messing up everything and pushing her down on the floor. Well, I'm finished. If I'll refuse to obey orders and get arrested will you understand me, mom? Letter from a young Israeli soldier. |
| received from Fateha.com. |