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| About Me |
~ Self-respect is the
fruit of discipline; the sense of dignity grows with the ability to say no to
oneself. ~
~Abraham
J. Heschel ~
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Warning: When I am in one
of my poetic spells, as I am now, I tend to drift off into a tangent and
sometimes I don�t make sense, so if you still care to read the mystery that
is me, you will have to just go along for the ride; and boy, it's a doozy.
Enjoy.
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I am young, but older for
my time. When I was younger I used to say that my mind was older than my body.
It still is, but I think the body is catching up, which in a way is scary. I do
enjoy life, not to the fullest extent, by no means am I a Romantic, but I do
have my moments. I move a lot, not necessarily great distances, but from time to
time my family and I pack up our things and we move. There are reasons that we
move, but none I can figure out, except for maybe one, that we stay in the same
general area. If it were up to me, I would probably move across the world, which
is why it�s not.
I am an artist, in every sense of the word. I enjoy all forms of art, mostly
poetry, singing, and theatre, but you can always find doodles of miscellaneous
things in my folder. The only aspect of art that is not one of my favorites is
dancing. Unless it�s ballroom or a close relative, I tend to shy away. Not that
I don�t have any rhythm, it�s just I find it hard to adjust to the raw sexual
gyrations of my generation. I happily tend to follow the flow of the dances that
precede my time. Obviously I don�t go dancing often. My music choices seem to
follow a similar pattern, sort of. When I was young I was listening to Mariah,
Mozart and Muzak, rather than Metallica and Public Enemy, which didn�t mean
anything then, but as I grew older I grew fonder of ballads and Classical music,
and I recklessly stayed in this false realm of originality, rather than trying
to keep up with the times.
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As I grew older I did however begin to expand my
horizons, I thirsted for something out of classical and R&B, and after many
miserable failures, I found Electronica/Techno, but before that I found gospel.
I grew up in church, and even though straying is easy when you are a kid, I
never let go of whom I belonged to and who I had to represent on a daily basis.
Although one would not think it, inside this further tore me apart from my
generation; while they were singing "Genie in A Bottle" I was singing "Amazing
Grace", and while they were cried the close relative of "Gosh darn it", I
preferred "God bless you." In no way am I saying that I have not, and do not
stumble and fall, I am nowhere NEAR perfect, but I just tried to at best follow
the rules that I was taught at a young age and that has molded me and continues
to mold me into the person that I am, which constantly needs work and
forgiveness. Unfortunately, the other kids found that insanely peculiar
therefore resulting in me having few friends. Even in my loneliness as a child,
I did find it a blessing because I could tell easily who my true friends were.
Through the many schools that I have traveled through I still managed to find my
niche so that I am not completely isolated from the world. One of the things
that I have learned over the years is that all things grow with time, and the
most precious of things need more than patience, they need love.
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I was introduced to the
thing that changed my life forever, my computer, when I was 5 or so. I "evolved"
from DOS and Windows 3.1 to NT/ME and XP, in the time period of about ten years.
It makes me think in another ten years, if I have kids in ten years; they are
going to laugh at the thought of someone actually trying to USE an ancient thing
called Windows XP. They�ll say "You�re still using a computer?!?! With XP?!?!
Why don�t you use this super-mega-complexatron 50000 that you bought me for
Christmas?" 'So THAT�S what that was, I thought it was a vacuum cleaner...'
Okay, I have a weird sense of humor, if you can call it that. The internet
changed me a lot, when I was 12 I wanted to make a website, and I have made a
few, all of them on Sailor Moon, which is still a habit of mine. Most of the
layouts were all pre-made by some other person, but I did quickly figure out how
to use HTML and customize what I had, although if I happen to find a talented
person to do my SM layout for me, I�ll mull it over for a while, and make my
decision later. I think that my favorite types of layouts all revolve around
this miraculous discovery we call I-frames. A lot of people would disagree with
me, but I don�t care, everybody has a different taste for things.
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