Halfway_There

Oct. 23, 2001
Was I fully and completely alive before Weight Watchers? Looking back, and living this wonderful life, I am saddened to say, I was not. How could I have lied to myself for so long?
No matter - crying over spilled milk only leaves me with a sour stomach. Today and all the tomorrows I am lucky enough to be graced with is what counts in the end.
I had a thought today which was shocking to me. A real eye-opener.
My whole life I haven't felt in control of much. I won't go into detail, but I felt more like a puppet who did things for other people, and nothing for myself.
As I was thinking about this journey, I wondered why it seems to be so easy for me. And the answer jumped out at me. It's simple really - For once in my life I am in total control. No one is is orchestrating this, and thus the outcome is totally up to me. Because I am totally in control, I am at ease with that which I have to do to do this right. It's as simple and as complicated as that. The amazing part of it all is this: the more I am in control of this, the more I become in control of other factors in my life. The end result? A happier and healthier me, of course.
It's nice to know that no one can snatch this from me. No one can stop me. The only one who can stop me, is me!
I like that idea.
Did I mention that I have lost another 2.4 lbs? That's right! And, I might add, another star! That brings me to 42 lbs. set to fat heaven. Or does fat go to hell? Maybe it should! Know what would happen to it there? The heat would cause it to disappear forever, never to torture another human being again. That thought amuses me. I'm a sick person. LOL
So, I now weight 209.8 lbs. I'm about half way to where I should be weight wise. I'm not sure what, exactly, my goal is. Maybe 155 lbs. With a thin frame and at five foot nine, I think that should be just about right!
Can you believe that? 209.8 lbs!! I love to grab my weigh in book. The best part is looking at the 209.8 then shifting my eyes quickly to the 251.8 lbs. I weighed when I first joined the program. It kills me; I get such a kick out of that! Who knew I could be entertained so cheaply????
Shhhhhh! Don't anyone tell my husband!
Last night I went to be with the thought of Onederland in my head.
Only 9.8 lbs. before I say goodbye to the 200s forever!