Rejected and Dejected

<Andre-Louis>

He left Aline's room and rushed out into the street, wandering aimlessly for over an hour. She had rejected him. He couldn't quite take it in. Ever since childhood he had loved her, he realised that now. Only his fear of being turned down had forced such a protracted denial of the truth; but Mme de Plougastel had given him hope... false hope, as it turned out, but hope nonetheless. He had opened his heart to Aline and she had torn it out for her own amusement. He wasn't angry with her. It had always been her way... the thoughtless little girl who loved to tease her cousin Andre, who always got her own way because she was so adorably pretty, who couldn't conceive the depth of the wound she had just unintentionally inflicted. Moreau was angry, but not with Aline... he could never be angry with her... so he would be angry with Mme de Plougastel instead. That bizarre woman who for no apparent reason kept showing up in his life, taking too close an interest in him, meddling in his affairs and then vanishing as suddenly as she'd come. Why couldn't she leave him alone?

Moreau kicked the stone balustrade of the bridge and stalked on. No, he mustn't be angry with Mme de Plougastel, because he had been fool enough to believe her... fool enough to believe the words he had secretly wish to hear all these years... he was to blame, he, Andre-Louis Moreau. Scaramouche had been made of fool of... how ironic! Unfortunately admitting the truth only made him feel worse, not better. Half way through the Cordelier's District Moreau was challenged by a thug of a soldier who obviously thought that patriots should wear butcher's blades not fine swords. Oh, how Moreau wanted to skewer the man for his impertinence, but he curbed the desire and brandished his Committee pass instead. Maybe it was the paper, maybe it was the look in Moreau's eye, but the soldier became humility itself as he recognised the so-called Palladin of the Third Estate, offering him both an apology and an escort. "I don't need your protection, sergeant, or anyone else's!" snarled Moreau, pushing passed the soldier.

A short while later he arrived at the Jacobin Club. He hadn't intended to end up there, but the anger had peaked and now he was beginning to feel the soreness in his feet caused by the long, fretful walk. The room was badly lit, but he gazed around for a friendly face. The young man orating at the front was new, from the provinces, and stumbling hopelessly over his words. A glance at the back of the hall told Moreau why. There sat Robespierre, patiently waiting for the lad to slip up. Bastard, thought Moreau! Then he heard his name called from somewhere to the right...

<Le Chapelier>

They were coming younger and younger, Isaac thought as his sipped his wine and listened to the youth spout off rhetoric he'd heard a dozen times before. This recent wave of green lads was the result of word finally spreading to those distant providences that the people's will would be done, these youngsters believed that they to could make a name for themselves emulating the greats. How many visioned themselves as Desmoulins standing on the table top, a pistol in each hand, crying for the people to take up arms?

He wasn't the one interested in the performance at hand, Robespierre, snake that he was, eyed the young man intently, smirking as the young man stumbled on. Le Chaplier wagered the youth now knew what a mouse felt like under the stare of a hungry cat.

"We must not rest now! There are still many more battles ahead," the young man thumped the table beside him, which scarcely rattled it burden. Not so impressive a thing, save for it coincided with the opening of the door nearby so that it almost appeared that the one caused the other. Moreau entered, the picture of dejection. Was he still mourning the error that saved D'Azyr's life? "Moreau!... Andre!" he called, beckoning his friend to join him and ignoring the glare from the snake in the corner.

<Andre-Louis>

The speaker paused briefly and glanced at the door with an expression which asked: what more can plague my debut? Moreau sauntered over to Isaac's table and slumped down in a chair, lifting one tired hand to call for wine. "So where's this little firebrand from?" he asked his friend, motioning towards the speaker who was soldiering on despite everything. "Anxious to please, is he? Another worshipper of the great god Maximillien," the heavy sarcasm was very spoken low, "Long may he reign!" he tipped his glass at the snake in the corner, who scowled and turned away. A fleeting smile crossed Moreau's face, but was banished a second later. He was depressed tonight, so instead of laughing he downed his wine and poured another.

<Le Chapelier>

�He is acquiring quite a following,� Isaac agreed. �Mostly impressionable young lads hoping to bask in his reflected glory�� He watched the youth response to Robespierre�s cues, a smile and the speaker amplified his volume, a furrowed brow and the young man stumbled over his words. It was something of a game for Robespierre, toying with the ing�nue, flexing his power.

�However, I have some doubt that Maximilien is the cause of this melancholy,� Isaac said, turning away from the grotesque display to regard Moreau. His friend seemed uncommonly despondent, where typically he hid all emotion behind a character�s mask. It was D�Azyr. All those years of hunting only to be foiled in the final hour when he should have been triumphant. �Tell me it is not the matter with D�Azyr that continue to plague you. The man is not worthy of further thought.�

<Andre-Louis>

"No, it is not d'Azyr this time... well not directly." he replied ruefully. "It's... well... I mean, ah..." Moreau didn't quite know how to begin, how to explain, so he downed another glass of wine. After a brief silence he burst out suddenly, "Why must women always interfere in business which does not concern them?"

<Le Chapelier>

If not d'Azyr then what...? Isaac was about to ask, then thought of the answer as Moreau confirmed it. "Why must women always interfere in business which does not concern them?" At this he laughed.

"My dear Andre, if ever I came up with the answer to that question, I would consider myself as one of the greatest thinkers of all time. Men have been asking that very question for ages and the answer still eludes us. I take it you have met with young Mademoiselle Kercadois?" he ventured.

<Andre-Louis>

"Yes, Isaac I have and I've made an utter fool of myself in front of her. A total and utter, damned stupid fool! I lost my head and asked her to marry me. Yes, I know, the very thought of it is absurd. Why in the world would she want to?" He looked up from his glass with a wan smile, "Go ahead, laugh at me... I deserve it."

<Le Chapelier>

"Well, this is indeed an interesting turn," Isaac admitted, sitting back and staring at his glass. A man was naturally despondent when faced with a rejection, Andre was acting as any other man would - utterly miserable. "I won't laugh, but I will remind that she has been brought up as an aristocrat, they have yet to embrace the idea of quality of character over quality of station."

<Andre-Louis>

"You forget, Isaac, I grew up with Aline. She's not like that, she's... different. I know she is." but he wasn't quite convinced. Certainly the Aline he'd played with as a child had had no improper sense of superiority, but ever since she had returned from that expensive Parisian finishing school she'd been a little more aloof than usual... suddenly somehow unattainable. Of course she had still teased him as she always had done, but the Aline he knew would never have entertained d'Azyr, not for one second, not even to make him (Andre) mad with jealousy. Oh why had his god-father sent her to that school? And why had Mme de Plougastel made him believe that Aline could ever be more than a friend? Now he had probably lost her friendship as well as her respect. The thought made him down another glass of wine. How many was that? Moreau didn't care!

<Le Chapelier>

Isaac's knowledge of Aline was limited to that one brief meeting before the duel with d'Azyr and what few details Andre had deemed to share. In this matter he would have to trust on Andre's judgement, even if it was the judgement of a man desperately in love. "If you must drink don't drink so quickly," he warned. "You're liable to run someone through by the end of the night or get run through yourself... Now, did she give you a reason for rejecting your proposal?" Not that she was obliged to give one, but it seemed that if they were such dear friends she would as much.

<Andre-Louis>

"None. Just that she was surprised by it. She berates me for not being open with her and when I am..." the rest went unsaid.

<Le Chapelier>

"Perhaps, it was too much disclosure too soon," Isaac offered. "You do remember that she took ill after the duel... AND a proposal of marriage is a considerable thing. Most women are groomed all their life to make suitable brides, I would imagine that when the moment afters it can be overwhelming." Then there was the possibility that Aline's feelings towards Andre were no more than friendship, but now was not the time to mention such things - not that there was ever an appropriate time.

<Andre-Louis>

Moreau nodded glumly, perhaps all Aline did need was a little time to get used to the idea... he didn't know. What he did know was that he wanted another drink. He up-ended the bottle, but it was virtually empty. "Merde!" he swore softly. On the podium the young fire-brand had finished his speech and received applause from those who'd been listening. Now Robespierre was making his way to the front. "Damn, that's all we need," remarked Andre "another sermon from the gospel according to saint Max! Come on, let's get out of here before he starts."

<Le Chapelier>

�Indeed,� Isaac agreed, collecting his hat and rising with Andre. �You�re in a foul enough mood to begin with, listening to Robespierre will only worsen it.� This last part whisper as Robespierre pointedly stared at their retreat, drawing the attention of all those waiting for his speech. Andre was the first door, holding it open for Isaac, who did not need to look back to feel the fury of Robespierre�s eye boring a hole through the back of his skull.

�I forsee he will be trouble,� Isaac confided in his friend, after passing half a block in silence. �I suppose we are fortune that it was not someone like him who wore the crown� he seems to me the very type to thrive on suffering.�

<Andre-Louis>

The chill night air reminded Moreau of how much he'd drunk in so short a space of time. Fortunately fencers, like dancers, have excellent balance and though his head swam, his legs remained firmer than they'd any right to. "Oh yes, he likes to think he's a martyr, that one. Perhaps one day someone will make him a proper martyr, but it's too much to hope it will be any time soon!" They were heading towards the river. Suddenly Moreau skipped ahead and turned to face Isaac so that he was walking backwards. "Do you know what Aline really objects to?" he asked, in the slightly louder than necessary tone that the half-cut adopt, "This." He took out his Committee pass and waved it at his friend. "Not the fact that I fought d'Azyr. No, I could have killed him for all she cared! She objects to this... this silly piece of paper and my job with the new Committee of Public Safety."

<Le Chapelier>

Isaac frowned, carefully weighing his words before he spoke, �So is it the government or your place in it that she objects to?� He watched Andre�s antics with no small amount of admiration, where their positions reversed he would likely find himself on his back. As it was he watched the path least something come up that might send the young man sprawling. �If it is the former I hope she has the sense to be cautious with whom she shares these opinions with. There are those who would seize any opportunity that presents its self for the opportunity to lash out at the aristocracy.�

<Andre-Louis>

"Oh, Aline dislikes to politics, full stop, revolutionary or reactionary. I think she hoped I'd give up after the duel with d'Azyr, but how can I?" He was suddenly grinning as he said this and clapped Isaac on either shoulder from the front, then skipped backwards again so that he was a few steps ahead. Andre's commitment to whatever he set his mind to was amazing. He never did anything by halves. If Aline had been disappointed at his taking a post in the Committee, she surely could not have been surprised by it. "When we've only just begun!"

<Le Chapelier>

For the first time that evening, Isaac's face broke into a smile. "I'm glad to hear you say that," he confessed. "Georges Jacques was thoroughly convinced that once the D'Azyr affair was over that would be the last we'd see of you... but considering all you have done for the republic, I had hoped that you might continue on." Then after a slight pause, "Though I do not envy you the company you'll have on this committee... there are tigers there I will warn you."

<Andre-Louis>

"I hear they want Robespierre, but he won't agree to be on it. I sincerely hope that's one belief he'll never waiver from!" They had reached the river and before Isaac could stop him, Moreau had leapt onto the stone wall of one of Paris ' many bridges and was wandering back and forth, balancing somewhat unsteadily. "I don't really know who else has joined. Someone mentioned Chauvelin. Never met him, but he sounds like a bore. Still, I doubt I shall see much of him."

<Le Chapelier>

Isaac watched Andre uneasily, worrying that at any moment his friend would stumble and pitch over the side. �Do come down from there, that pacing is making me dizzy,� Isaac asked, carefully avoid questioning Andre dexterity or balance least he pull some stun that would put him in greater danger. �You said Chauvelin? I seem to recall meeting him... small, serious fellow. You�ll do well to watch out for that one. There�s something about him� he�s more dangerous than he may appear.�

<Andre-Louis>

Moreau made a series of fencing lunges, balancing like a tightrope walker on the the bridge as, thirty feet below, the Seine glided quietly along. "Well you've always been a fine judge of character, so I shall certainly be wary of him," He jumped nimbly down off the bridge, but the road seemed to be a little nearer than expected and he had to take a pace forward to steady himself. "If we meet."

<Le Chapelier>

"I have a suspicion that it will be a matter of *when* you meet. But no matter, that bridge will be crossed when you come to it," Isaac stated, placing a hand squarely on Andre's back and trying to steer him home. Then a thought occurred to him, "How much do you know of this Madame de Plougastel?"

<Andre-Louis>

"Very little. She's a friend of my god-father. Every now and then she swans into my life, turns it upside down and then I don't see her for years!" Suddenly melancholy again, he twisted slightly out of Isaac's grasp. "I don't know why she takes such an interest in me and Aline, but I wish she wouldn't. If it weren't for her interference..." His voice tailed off and he gazed out at the river.

<Le Chapelier>

"Interference..?" Isaac echoed, meditatively. Ever since the name started cropping up, he wondered at how closely the lady's actions might mirror her husband's - an ardent royalist suspected of conspiring with the Austrians. It would be disastrous to Andre's career if someone even hinted at a connection between Plougastel and Moreau. "It is interesting that she chooses now to re-enter your life... very interesting... Do you know that her husband is a royalist? That he is under suspicion for conspiracy? I wouldn't doubt it if his wife was being watched. It would be... unhealthy for you to be thought to be on intimate terms with such an individual." Aline either, whose class would be held against her.

<Andre-Louis>

Her husband was a royalist spy. "I didn't know." He said glumly, "I've never met him. Mme de Plougastel is acting as Aline's chaperone in Paris . But for that I would gladly have nothing to do with the woman. She encourages dreams... my dreams... fool that I am I believed her when she said Aline loved me. I wish she'd go to the devil and leave me in peace."

<Le Chapelier>

"Despite these poor beginnings, dreams are a good thing, Andre. The advances we have made in this great country of ours were once a dream, and an unlikely dream at that. Now, lo and behold, that dream has been given life," Isaac replied. "You took a chance and bore your heart to the girl, at least you now know. It seems to me that it may be best for you... and Aline... to steer clear of Mme de Plougastel, especially now. There are many who might take advantage of that connection to strike at you, should you prove a barrier to their plans... I certain Maximilien would have no qualms building such a case against you. As for the young lady... well, the aristocracy is already looked at with suspicion and animosity, she should not seek anymore."

<Andre-Louis>

"I wish I could get her away, but will she listen to me now? She ought to return to uncle Quentin at Gavrillac, but she won't... not of her own accord." He turned to face Isaac with worry for Aline's safety in his eyes, "Aline loves Paris and Mme de Plougastel is her chosen guardian. My godfather alone could order her to leave, but he and I are no longer on speaking terms." Moreau was getting fatalist now. "When I think they might attack Aline to get at me! Thank God I've done nothing to give them cause to want to attack... not that snakes like Robespierre need much of a reason."

<Le Chapelier>

"While that is a possibility, I think the greater worry is whether Mme de Plougastel would put Aline in danger," Isaac replied. "Right now, I do not believe that you are bringing danger to Aline. Your service to the convention has won you much regard, so we must see that you remain in that good light. Your position on the Committee of Public Safety, may be a blessing in disguise, for you may be able to use that position to determine whether any danger threatens your cousin."

<Andre-Louis>

"You're a good friend to me, Isaac. I wish there were more in the Convention like you." He turned to lean his back against the stone balustrade of the bridge. "Perhaps," he mused thoughtfully, "I should try to talk to my godfather. He might listen, if it concerns Aline... and at worst all he can do is order me thrown out of his house."

<Le Chapelier>

"Then again, at best, he could remove Aline from harms way," Isaac reminded him. "It is worth the risk. It is not nearly as dangerous in the providences as it is in Paris , even with the hired instigators making their rounds." Isaac thrust his hands into his pocket to warm them. "However, you do realize that if your godfather does order her return and she finds out the part you played in it, she may resent you."

<Andre-Louis>

"Better alive and resenting me, than dead because I couldn't be bothered to try to help." He was looking at Isaac with the expression of one who's mind was, if not entirely sober, certainly made up. Moreau would go to Gavrillac and try to speak with his godfather.

<Le Chapelier>

Isaac nodded in agreement. "I assume you will wish to set out first thing in the morning... might I suggest that you call it an evening then. If your godfather is as stubborn as you claim then you'll need all the strength you can muster."

<Andre-Louis>

At first he opened his mouth to protest, but then realized the wisdom of his friend's words. Nodding silently, Moreau allowed Isaac to guide him homewards.

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