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~ SEA OF DISPAIR ~
My head whirling, swirling, twirling
Out of control
So many things to do today
I have to be here
I must be there
My Senses reeling, spilling, thrilling
Drowing me.
So many demands
Want for my attentions
All needing their share.
You have to!
You must!
I should!
And would if I could.
Torn in so many different directions
To live up to their Expectaions
Feeling so Lonely
Lost in Frustration
Cast about upon the Sea of Despair.
Craving Affection
Receiving Rejection
Old voices rise up from within
Condemning me once again
"I don't stack up..."
"I don't fit in..."
"I'm not all there..."
Drowning...
Drowning...
In the Sea of Despair.
~Monique
03/19/96
Sitting on the Edge of Reality
Watching my life slip away from me
Tears falling down my cheeks
They, too, want to escape.
I'm just not good enough
I don't think I know how to be
I don't even know who I am anymore
Or what I have become
Then I heard the Sea as it spoke to me
It said...
"The Life within you Reflects in me."
"Dive in and take a deeper look"
But I don't know how to swim!
"Dive in and drink deep in me"
"You will remember how to breathe"
So I dove in and I drank deep.
And as I did...
The world around me began to fade away
Like a bad memory.
~Monique
12/03/00
